Emotional pink rollercoaster...need my Girlies and a bus... please!!!

JuJuBeez
JuJuBeez Member Posts: 332
in Breast Cancer #1

Hello Pinks! I am recruiting some rowdy gals to join me virtually on Monday 2/11 while I have a total hysterectomy and a bladder fix. (Yay! No more stopping to cross my legs before I sneeze.!) I was on Tamoxifen for two years...couldn't handle it, sick ALL the time. I've been on Arimidex since Sept '12. I am having pain in my knees, shoulders, and hands. But it still isn't as bad as I felt on Tamoxifen.

As luck would have it, I started having a pain in the 'good sister' on Monday. I could tell it was probably an infection of some sort. Went to onco on Tuesday, and they did sono. Sono showed a spot, so they wanted a mammo. Then they said they wanted me to see my surgeon and have a biopsy.  Joy. They said it's because of my history, and they want to be extra careful. I was fine at the dr office, but on the way back to work I went kookoo for cocoa puffs. Cried the rest of the day, in front of everyone. So embarrassing. The visit with the surgeon was nice. She said the spot they saw was most likely the infection, so she wants me to finish the antibiotic, have the surgery on Monday, and she will see me on the 25th. She said that even if it happens to be another cancer, it's half the size as the first one we removed and she's not worried. Sooo...another two weeks of waiting to see what it is. I'm going to believe that it's just the infection because I don't have the energy to worry about that AND heal from Monday's surgery. So I picked concentrating on healing.

So while I'm watching winter storm Nemo from the window at work, I decided to ask for some help. Loud music, booze, noise makers, chicken and noodles, brownies... anything??? A card game, perhaps. A real funny movie would be great too. If we can get out of the house. LOL.

I hope all the NE Pinks are weathering the storm ok. Please check in and let us know. Ayse?? How's it by you? Who else is in the blizzard band???

Thanks, Ladies. You're amazing and wonderful and inspiring and supportive and... Laughing  <3

 

 

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  • CypressCynthia
    CypressCynthia Member Posts: 4,014 Member
    #2
    I will be right there with

    I will be right there with you.  With beignets and cafe au lait, jambalaya, gumbo--whatever you want!  Big hugs and prayers coming your way!

  • jerseygirl231
    jerseygirl231 Member Posts: 178
    #3
    I am in the storm bands

    I am there

  • roseann4
    roseann4 Member Posts: 992 Member
    #4
    The waiting game really sucks!!!!

    I'm 4 years out next week and I still think about how terrible it was to wait for the biopsy results, then the cat scan, then the bone scan, then the mri.  I listened to a head set when I went to sleep to drown out my mental conversations and it really worked.  During the day I watched every good movie I could find.  Reading didn't help unless it was stories of medical miracles.  I hate that you are playing the waiting game again but you know that your surgeon is right.  If she isn't worried, you shouldn't be.  They know what cancer looks like.  My surgeon told me after the fact that she knew it was cancer when she saw my mammo but needed the biopsy results before saying anything.  Even with that, here I am still NED.  In fact, I was able to donate a kidney to my son last July.  Try to stay positive...it really will be fine.

     

  • smalldoggroomer
    smalldoggroomer Member Posts: 1,184
    #5
    I hate waiting too. I'm with

    I hate waiting too. I'm with ya on the bus. And all day.. Best wishes

    Kay,

  • lintx
    lintx Member Posts: 697
    #6
    With you for the ride

    on Monday.  I think you'll be fine but do know the feelings you described.  Waiting for everything stinks but do get beyond the hysterectomy first.  Piece of cake, girlfriend:)  Linda

  • Double Whammy
    Double Whammy Member Posts: 2,832 Member
    #7
    lintx said:

    With you for the ride

    on Monday.  I think you'll be fine but do know the feelings you described.  Waiting for everything stinks but do get beyond the hysterectomy first.  Piece of cake, girlfriend:)  Linda

    Monday will be a full day

    for those of us on the bus.  I imagine we will be pretty crazy by the time the day is over.  But we'll all be there for you.  As one who had both parts (boob and uterus) needing attention at the same time 2 1/2 years ago, I know it's overwhelming.  I will bring comfort food - chicken soup.

    Hugs,

    Suzanne

  • Lynn Smith
    Lynn Smith Member Posts: 1,264 Member
    #8
    I'll be on the bus

    I'll be on the bus. I think 3 Pink Sisters need the bus so we will be driving all over the place. Still we'll be there to support you with your surgery and the others with their tests etc. Hope your surgery goes smooth and without problems. 

    Lynn Smith

  • Jean 0609
    Jean 0609 Member Posts: 2,462
    #9
    Hang in there!

    Sorry to hear that you are going through all this.  Sending positive thoughts, prayers & hugs your way.

     

    We are having our Hershey reunion in November, maybe you can make it this year.  I am trying to talk Ayse into coming too.

     

    xoxo,

    Jean

     

  • camul
    camul Member Posts: 2,537
    #10
    Monday is a full day!

    Wishing you the best on your surgery and will pray that in 2 weeks when you go back the spot is gone!  Be careful with the storm.

    Hugs

    Carol

  • muffingranma
    muffingranma Member Posts: 107
    #11
    surgery

    I am sorry your going through so much. I know about surgerys and scans. My cancer is in the blood cells and I will have surgery the 15th. I will say a prayer for you. THE pink bus will carry healing pills for you. We will be thinking about you.

  • Megan M
    Megan M Member Posts: 3,000
    #12
    smalldoggroomer said:

    I hate waiting too. I'm with

    I hate waiting too. I'm with ya on the bus. And all day.. Best wishes

    Kay,

    I am with you too!

    I am with you too!

  • SIROD
    SIROD Member Posts: 2,194 Member
    #13
    Best Wishes for a Good Surgery

    Aromatase Inhibitors do give one pain in the joints and bones.  I am sorry that you are having them.  

    If the spot turns out to be, it still would be a local recurrence or a new one, so for now with your plate so full with your surgeries, it is good to take it off your worry list.  Wishing you a good surgery and a noneventful recovery.

    Since when have they started to name winter storms?  I am on the coast and the expectations are 24 inches of the white stuff.  I am beginning to hate northeasters but I rather they not have names.  When I was a kid, I love them.  Nemo?  Oh gosh, he is furious and it's still snowing and blowing in my neck of the woods.

    Good luck and let us know how you are doing.

    Doris

    PS:  I'll bring a snow shovel, some salt for the sidewalk and some lobster rolls.

  • jennytwist
    jennytwist Member Posts: 896
    #14
    muffingranma said:

    surgery

    I am sorry your going through so much. I know about surgerys and scans. My cancer is in the blood cells and I will have surgery the 15th. I will say a prayer for you. THE pink bus will carry healing pills for you. We will be thinking about you.

    I'll be there....

    keeping you in all my prayers and thoughts!  I'll bring a pitcher (or 2) of margarita's - that can't hurt!!!!

    keep us posted

    much love,

     Jenny

  • eihtak
    eihtak Member Posts: 1,473 Member
    #15
    JuJu....

    Along for the ride. I just started making possible hysterectomy plans myself! You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

  • JuJuBeez
    JuJuBeez Member Posts: 332
    #16
    Thanks, Ladies! I think those

    Thanks, Ladies! I think those of us with procedures Monday should get together before the pain meds wear off so we can giggle and compare boo-boos. LOL. You are such a great group of Pinks!

    p.s.  i had a big margarita last night during the snow storm...luckily sports bar (i almost wrote sports bra.. lol) 3 blocks from house. boy, do i have a headache today!

  • Bella Luna
    Bella Luna Member Posts: 1,578 Member
    #17
    JuJuBeez said:

    Thanks, Ladies! I think those

    Thanks, Ladies! I think those of us with procedures Monday should get together before the pain meds wear off so we can giggle and compare boo-boos. LOL. You are such a great group of Pinks!

    p.s.  i had a big margarita last night during the snow storm...luckily sports bar (i almost wrote sports bra.. lol) 3 blocks from house. boy, do i have a headache today!

    I am so there!

     

     

    Count me in.  I will be riding the Pink Diva Bus with you and the other Pink Sisters.  As to what to bring... I'll bring a pitcher of long island ice tea to get the party going.  Prayers and hugs to you.

  • muffingranma
    muffingranma Member Posts: 107
    #18
    surgery

    I will say a prayer for you. I hope your  surgery goes well, and no pain. Lets hope your. Lets hope the other is just infection. We all will be thinking of you. keep us posted.

  • Kylez
    Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
    #19
    Bella Luna said:

    I am so there!

     

     

    Count me in.  I will be riding the Pink Diva Bus with you and the other Pink Sisters.  As to what to bring... I'll bring a pitcher of long island ice tea to get the party going.  Prayers and hugs to you.

    I will be with you!
     

    I will be with you!

     

  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    #20
    Right by your side

    I will be holding your hand and your cocktail, so you don't spill it being rumbunctious and all.

    I am raising my glass to an uneventful surgery and a very quick recovery. We will all be pampering

    you and checking on you virtually till you get sick of having us all around you and that's a promise,

    or is it a thread?

     

    Love you Julie,

    keep us updated on everything

    Ayse

  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
    #21
    aysemari said:

    Right by your side

    I will be holding your hand and your cocktail, so you don't spill it being rumbunctious and all.

    I am raising my glass to an uneventful surgery and a very quick recovery. We will all be pampering

    you and checking on you virtually till you get sick of having us all around you and that's a promise,

    or is it a thread?

     

    Love you Julie,

    keep us updated on everything

    Ayse

    JuJu .. I am up at 5 a.m. PST to make sure

    I caught the bus!!  Gentle hugs, and prayers coming your way, dear Sister.    Fingers and toes, crossed. 

    I may need a cup of coffee or two .. to keep up with you East Coast Gals!

     

    Vicki Sam

     

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