Little bump in the road, I guess?

jamiegww said:

Mary
It was difficult for me to read your posts because I felt like we were going down the same road. The three months between scans I tried really hard to not think about it but the closer I got to the repeat scan, the harder it got to forget about it. I went through so many senarios in my head that I thought I was prepared for anything.

I will be keeping up with your results.

HUGS!!!
Jamie

Hi Jamie
It's been a bumpy
Hi Jamie

It's been a bumpy ride right from the start. I have to say, that with the support and knowledge of the ladies and men here, I have been able to breath a little bit easier. I feel I am prepared for whatever comes my way.

My husband and I had a serious discussion about how to or where to go from here. There are so many scenarios that can actually happen. I have been on the verge of calling Sloan Kettering for a while now but just can't seem to do it. Even though I worry that my nodules are a sign of "not so good news", I don't want to move any faster in finding out. It's too scary for me. The last report I got is so unnerving and troubling to me but I honestly don't want to cross a new bridge until I have to. Hubby wants me to make the call NOW. I want to, but I don't ... I have the next CT scan scheduled for the end of July. I figure I can wait. If these nodules are cancer, I've learned that it can be (most likely) slow growing. I figure, what's a month? For me, that month of waiting will give me some much needed doctor free time.

In June, I only see 2 doctors for non related stuff. I've been gardening, reading books I haven't had time for. I've been reaching out to others who need help with their daily doings and it keeps me moving. It feels wonderful to be here when someone really needs me. Not the other way around. I've always been the "go to" person with friends and family. I've missed that.

SO I am taking one day at a time. Planning retirement with my husband. It's so exciting imagining a move to the south with him and just re-acquainting ourselves to being Husband and Wife.

Stay strong and just let it be. It does work.

Hugs and positive thought being sent your way.

xoxo
Mary

SIROD said:

Experience Is The Same For All!

Dear Jamie,

We always think we are prepared. Even after all these years for me (going on 18 years since diagnose in August) I find that the same emotions surface with some new bump in the road that I didn't expect.

Cyberknife sounds great!

Please don't apologize. It doesn't matter if it's one or 90 tumors, we don't want any of those horrors. The whole process of the experience is the same for everyone going through another round of this awful disease.

I was very calm in 2008 too. My oncologist showed me the CT & PET scans together on what I called the plastic woman on the computer screen. I could see the lungs were totally lighted up. I remember thinking, you should be falling apart instead of being intrigued with this new technology. I remained pretty calm most of the time since, but some new bump occasionally sends me off that track.

We are all here for you,

A gentle hug to you.

Doris

Good luck with your PET scan
Good luck with your PET scan and biopsy. I will be praying for you Jamie.


Hugs, Kylez

mom62 said:

Sharing
Glad you feel comfortable here to share. I hope it's nothing and sending positive vibes your way. I'm stage 4 have been for three years now. Good luck with all the testing.
Positivity, you can't be in denial if you don't know what it is yet.

Terry

Positive thoughts, big cyber
Positive thoughts, big cyber hugs and lots and lots of prayers!

salls41 said:

Positive thoughts
Sending positive thoughts your way!
Sandy

Praying for good news!Hugs,
Praying for good news!


Hugs, Jan

Have you gotten an answer yet?
Putting you in prayer in the mean time.