940 days, 2500 miles, 4 false alarms, a fiancee, 2 puppies and 7 inches later

940 days, since my diagnosis and I am still in a constant state
of Zen. It has its good and it has its bad sides like so much in life.
For those who are not familiar with the terms Zen, I feel very
alert, very aware of my feelings, my surroundings. Lucky at times
to be here, guilty on other occasions that others are not. Always
aware that nothing but nothing should be taken for granted. Open...

This awareness made me drive 2500 miles across the country as to
not waste a minute of my life being where I don't want to be.I
looked for a house and found a home, fiancee and all. Now I share
my home with my 4 cats (who shared the ride from AZ with me) and 2
most amazing puppies. I have more love than what to do with (:
Who would have thought? Certainly, not me! I have hair again too.
7 inches of it.

I just wanted to post this and give hope to those who are in the
trenches. Please hold on fast, to your dreams and know there's hope.
This disease affects our lives in so many ways. From our close friends
and family to our inspirations and aspirations, all the way to our
unborn children. But so does the sisterhood on this board. If I am
here today, then it is because you caught me, caught me when I was
falling into a deep black nothing. Every day I crawled out and every
day you made it a little easier with your words of hope and the
understanding you showed me. This board really was my life line and
I will never forget the comfort and encouragement I found here. Nor
will I forget the ride MissRennee gave me to the hospital to have my
mastectomy. I am braver, stronger and more compassionate than before
because of YOU.

Hugs,
Ayse