I FINALLY heard

MsGebby said:

HI Terry
Thank you for your kind words. I did read your post in response to my other post (Just so tired).

You really do understand me. I don't mean to sound down but I am feeling depressed. This all started last February. I fell on ice and broke my forearm, tore a labrum in my right shoulder, messed up my left knee and hip. I am still suffering as a result of these injuries. 2 months after that, I was fired from my job. The reason was because of absences from the job due to my fall. Then I find out that I have cancer (august). I had the lumpectomy in September. The a re incision for clear margins in November. CT scan came back after that with the news that there were lung nodules. PET scan in December that declared the nodules "indeterminate and cannot rule out malignancy". Radiation starts in January and ends in March. Arimidex starts in mid March and still no news about the nodules. Then the news about my thyroid...complex nodules and isthmus. In just over a year, I've been hitting brick wall after brick wall. So far, I have been receiving good news, but it's that the news keeps on coming.

Is it wrong for me to feel "picked on"? I know my sisters out there are having a much more difficult times than me and that makes me feel even more guilty for feeling down.

I just don't know how to handle this. I've been labeled "strong" my entire life. I have to ask when is it OK to be a little weak. I am sorry. I did it again. Complaining is so not my style.

I just need a break. A break from doctors...a break from turning every corner and finding a new mystery waiting for me.

I don't work but wish I could. At my age, no one seems to want me. I am 57 this year (silver lining) and can't give a company many years. I am trying to find my niche with the interior design world. That seems out of my reach though.

Thank you for being here. I appreciate it and only hope and pray that you find happiness and good health as the year winds on.

Peace and love,
Mary

laughs_a_lot said:

Glad you got NED
Now dance with him. Have a good time with Ned but make sure he has some energy for the next person to dance with. We have been trying to figure out how to clone Ned for years.

Regarding feeling depressed. I lost my job about 9 months before my diagnosis. I lost it because I was frank about the type of treatment employees were enduring. There was excessive stress there. 9 months later I had bc. I swear the stress caused my cancer as stress shortens telomeres on the genes. Telomeres protect the body from cancer.

Luckily for me I had two jobs and the one I lost was not the one I got my health insurance through. So I lost my proffesional job and am working as a non proffessional in the same type of industry. A kick in the butt to say the least but I still have health insurance.

One of the reasons they don't want people our age is that we know too much. We will not be hornswaggled. I was a recent college graduate as well, so the loan pay off is a thorn in the side as well. I had always been a hard worker putting in 55=60 hrs a week. The economy in Michigan is not conducive to finding jobs so I try not to take it personally.

With all we have been through with BC and some of the related conditions and side effects it is not uncommon to be depressed. Only you know how long you have felt this way. If it has been more than 6 weeks to a month you may want to seek help for it. There are short term solutions as well as long term solutions. The short term solutions are of course not permanant.

Frankie Shannon said:

Such good news.Every one
Such good news.Every one gets done once in awhile even people that are healthy so don't feel bad about being down now and then you've had a lot on your plate.Live,Laugh and Love.
Hugs Frankie