Knock, knock

aysemari
aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
edited March 2012 in Breast Cancer #1
Who is it?
Fear
Fear who?
Fear to trust your body after cancer.

Sounds familiar? Every ache, every pain can set you off and send your
thoughts spinning in circles. My sinus problems have returned, they
brought along the usual suspects ear and lung infections. So it's hard
not to go there.... but I managed, I am a creative person after all.
Then last week 6 months after I saw my pulmonary specialist,
I get something in the mail asking that I call them asap. OF COURSE my
heart dropped all the way in my shoes. After being on hold for over 20
minutes, I was an anxious bundle by now. I got to talk to someone who knew
what the note was all about. He saw something on my lung. So I am terrified
as you can imagine. But I stay busy, busy planning, busy working busy
enjoying my life, my puppy and my freddy (:
But facts catch up and I am going to have a pet scan on Monday. As you can
imagine I would like company, none other than the company of my fearless pink
sisters who just know how to make me feel alright when fear comes'a knocking.

Love you,
Ayse
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  • JuJuBeez
    JuJuBeez Member Posts: 332
    #2
    Ayse,
    I'm sorry you have to
    Ayse,

    I'm sorry you have to play the wait and worry game again. I will most definitely be on the pink bus with you. I have a feeling this will be a FULL bus for you.

    Positive thoughts, prayers, good juju all coming your way.

    xo
    Julie
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
    #3
    JuJuBeez said:

    Ayse,
    I'm sorry you have to
    Ayse,

    I'm sorry you have to play the wait and worry game again. I will most definitely be on the pink bus with you. I have a feeling this will be a FULL bus for you.

    Positive thoughts, prayers, good juju all coming your way.

    xo
    Julie

    Ayse .. My heart, and soul goes out to you!!!
    6 months ago you saw your pulmonary specialist, and recent received a letter
    to call the office ?? How unfair -- I want to go on a rant regarding the 6
    months lapse, but I am sure you have been there, done that!

    Keeping yourself busy and entertained is pretty much all you can do until Monday -- Grrr. I am so sorry that you find yourself pulled in various emotional directions, dear Ayse.
    Remember -- Life is good, Life is great -- hold on to this, Freddy, work and your new puppy. You body continues to recover from your breast cancer journey, your move back
    East from Arizona, your long awaited trip back home, and getting your groove back!
    I am praying your new scans - are clear. ... and, that there are no more interruptions in your 'life'.

    You have been thru so much, endured each and every obstacle with Sass, and finesse - I
    so admire you!

    I will be there Monday driving our Pink Bus -- stitches, and all! I would not miss this
    bus ride -- by the way, can you pick me up a hot pastrami on rye for the trip.

    Strength, Courage and HOPE for a Cure.

    Kekee
  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    #4
    Count me in!
    Ayse I'll will most certainly be on that pink bus with brownies and hot cocoa to warm the soul. Prayers in abundance are being lifted for you my friend! It is a good thing that your medical team has sounded the alert it means they are diligent when caring for you! I agree I too worry with every ache or pain but over the years I have come to the conclusion that that worry voice is my inner angel as it keeps me aware and it keeps me diligent in my own care. So what if I go to the dr being a pain in the butt insisting I be checked out if it is going to keep me alive and give me peace of mind. Hang in there Ayse and know that you are not alone you are loved and you have our support!

    hugs,

    RE
  • Muschi
    Muschi Member Posts: 85 Member
    #5
    You are in my thoughts
    and remember your words to me? " relax and let time do it's magic"
    love you.....Ilona
  • tufi000
    tufi000 Member Posts: 745 Member
    #6
    U
    Ayse, you are one of our wonders here and I will be on that bus for you too. We have to keep our rocks here polished. Sending hummingbirds too!

    How's THAT for mixed metaphores?!?!?!?
  • camul
    camul Member Posts: 2,537
    #7
    Oh Ayse
    I am so sorry hat you are back on the bus. It seems to be a ride that we take too often once we are initiated into the world of the pinks. Hopefully you are getting some unusually warm weather to make the keeping busy easier when you can just get out and about.
    I just don't get the long wait between the test and notifying you to come in. But I am glad that they are following through. Makes me think they saw something when they took the test and made note to do a follow up in 6 months. If this is the case, it gave you six months of no worry!
    Know that I will be on the bus with you, you have been such an inspiration in my travels this last year as well as for eveeryone else here. Will be praying all week that this is just to be on the safe side. Remember we are all with you all week, not just Monday.

    Sending prayers and hugs.
    Carol
  • mwallace1325
    mwallace1325 Member Posts: 806
    #8
    camul said:

    Oh Ayse
    I am so sorry hat you are back on the bus. It seems to be a ride that we take too often once we are initiated into the world of the pinks. Hopefully you are getting some unusually warm weather to make the keeping busy easier when you can just get out and about.
    I just don't get the long wait between the test and notifying you to come in. But I am glad that they are following through. Makes me think they saw something when they took the test and made note to do a follow up in 6 months. If this is the case, it gave you six months of no worry!
    Know that I will be on the bus with you, you have been such an inspiration in my travels this last year as well as for eveeryone else here. Will be praying all week that this is just to be on the safe side. Remember we are all with you all week, not just Monday.

    Sending prayers and hugs.
    Carol

    Haven't been
    I haven't been around much but all are in my prayers always. It's sad to see that so many are needing the bus lately.

    I'll be there, praying for good results.

    marge
  • Texasgirl10
    Texasgirl10 Member Posts: 668
    #9
    camul said:

    Oh Ayse
    I am so sorry hat you are back on the bus. It seems to be a ride that we take too often once we are initiated into the world of the pinks. Hopefully you are getting some unusually warm weather to make the keeping busy easier when you can just get out and about.
    I just don't get the long wait between the test and notifying you to come in. But I am glad that they are following through. Makes me think they saw something when they took the test and made note to do a follow up in 6 months. If this is the case, it gave you six months of no worry!
    Know that I will be on the bus with you, you have been such an inspiration in my travels this last year as well as for eveeryone else here. Will be praying all week that this is just to be on the safe side. Remember we are all with you all week, not just Monday.

    Sending prayers and hugs.
    Carol

    I'll be there too
    Im so sorry that you are going through this. I'll be on the bus with you too. My heart sank as I read your post & I will be saying lots of prayers for you.

    Take good care & stay strong.

    Hugs & God Bless ,

    Dawne
  • robang13
    robang13 Member Posts: 333
    #10
    I will be there too. You
    I will be there too. You know, it's all this waiting that is unfair. Why can't we get the info right away? Why must we wait and worry ourselves crazy all the time? hugs and prayers~~

    angela
  • Lighthouse_7
    Lighthouse_7 Member Posts: 1,566 Member
    #11
    robang13 said:

    I will be there too. You
    I will be there too. You know, it's all this waiting that is unfair. Why can't we get the info right away? Why must we wait and worry ourselves crazy all the time? hugs and prayers~~

    angela

    Of course I'll be there
    Of course I'll be there Ayse. I'm so sorry that you have to wait. That's the hardest part.
    All my love and prayers are coming to you right now.
    Hugs,
    Wanda
  • missrenee
    missrenee Member Posts: 2,136 Member
    #12
    Lighthouse_7 said:

    Of course I'll be there
    Of course I'll be there Ayse. I'm so sorry that you have to wait. That's the hardest part.
    All my love and prayers are coming to you right now.
    Hugs,
    Wanda

    Oh, Ayse--I hate hearing this
    but, I know you and you can do this. Afterall, you're in your element now. You're back east, with a new puppy, Freddy and, afterall--you're you! I'm assuming this is some scar tissue from your ongoing infections in the past.

    The thing I hate most is that this is messing with your peace of mind. I can't wait to see your post that all is well. I'll be channeling that and praying for it.

    All my very best positive energy is coming to you today, dear friend.

    Love and hugs, Renee
  • carkris
    carkris Member Posts: 4,553 Member
    #13
    missrenee said:

    Oh, Ayse--I hate hearing this
    but, I know you and you can do this. Afterall, you're in your element now. You're back east, with a new puppy, Freddy and, afterall--you're you! I'm assuming this is some scar tissue from your ongoing infections in the past.

    The thing I hate most is that this is messing with your peace of mind. I can't wait to see your post that all is well. I'll be channeling that and praying for it.

    All my very best positive energy is coming to you today, dear friend.

    Love and hugs, Renee

    praying the pet is good and
    praying the pet is good and that its just one of those bumps we all have inside and out. sheesh enough already. HUgs!
  • Double Whammy
    Double Whammy Member Posts: 2,832 Member
    #14
    carkris said:

    praying the pet is good and
    praying the pet is good and that its just one of those bumps we all have inside and out. sheesh enough already. HUgs!

    The magic pink bus
    will transport me from CA to NY to be there for you next week.

    Sending hugs and prayers in the meantime.

    Suzanne
  • ladyg
    ladyg Member Posts: 1,577
    #15
    Ayse
    I will definitely be there for you. I can't believe it took 6 months for them to contact you and then make you wait til Monday is just not fair. Try to enjoy your weekend with your puppy and Freddy. I will keep you in my thoughts.

    Hugs,
    Georgia
  • fauxma
    fauxma Member Posts: 3,577 Member
    #16
    ladyg said:

    Ayse
    I will definitely be there for you. I can't believe it took 6 months for them to contact you and then make you wait til Monday is just not fair. Try to enjoy your weekend with your puppy and Freddy. I will keep you in my thoughts.

    Hugs,
    Georgia

    Good thoughts, prayers and
    Good thoughts, prayers and positive energy coming your way.
    Stef
  • New Flower
    New Flower Member Posts: 4,294
    #17
    fauxma said:

    Good thoughts, prayers and
    Good thoughts, prayers and positive energy coming your way.
    Stef

    hug from me
    my dear friend Ayse. Packing and coming with you
  • laughs_a_lot
    laughs_a_lot Member Posts: 1,368 Member
    #18
    You've got it
    Your pink sister is praying.
  • Jean 0609
    Jean 0609 Member Posts: 2,462
    #19
    Dear Ayse,
    Sending positive thoughts & prayers your way.

    xoxo,
    Jean
  • beachmom
    beachmom Member Posts: 50
    #20
    Of course...
    Of course you will have a full bus! Love, prayers and happy thoughts are heading your way. I don't understand how nearly 6 months later they can say ASAP....regardless, you have so much support from these gals, that is evident here :o)
  • sbmly53
    sbmly53 Member Posts: 1,522
    #21
    Ayse,
    I am on that bus! Until then, my thoughts and prayers are with you. The weather is wonderful - I hope you can enjoy it with Freddy and the puppy. It's so hard not to think about things, but I do hope you can set your mind on other things.

    Love & Hugs,

    Sue

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