Done with chemo-follow-up CT scan Wednesday!

Well I made it through chemo with my final treatment on December 14. It was by no means a picnic , but I made it through with a few side effects that I am hoping will go away (like the weight gain ) or the ones that won't I think I can deal with. Now I have a ct scan this Wednesday to check on a liver spot from back in August that they thought was a cyst or hemangioma but was too small and the radiologist would only call it "undetermined." My oncologist wanted to follow-up with a scan to take another look at it. My MO is VERY thorough which I appreciate, but his thoroughness causes me many sleepless nights waiting for test results. So ladies I think I need the pink bus for my scan on Wednesday and probably mores for Friday when I meet with my MO for a 1 month follow-up after chemo ended and for the results of my ct. I know myself and I will be sick to my stomach while I sit in the exam room waiting for him to come through the door. I try to be strong and not cry but I know whether good or bad I am always shedding many tears. It is almost a conditioned response to that exam room.

I must say that you ladies are a constant source of strength and inspiration to me. I read almost all the post, although I am not one to give my feedback as everyone always seems to put things much more eloquently than I can. Many times when I am going through a down day such as checking my hair for the umpteenth time and seeing nothing but white hair coming in or feeling a pain and automatically assuming it is cancer somewhere else, I read a post that brings me out of my dark cloud and back to positive thinking.

As I start radiation next Monday, I am hoping that I will be going into this phase of my treatment with a clean CT scan and will be able to count down my 33 radiation treatments and pray for minimal side effects, especially no more lymphedema in my left arm. Even though the swelling has been minimal, it is a constant reminder of this disease and something else to deal with on a daily basis. I joked with my RO that if I didn't have major lymphedema before, I will after they radiate my nodes under my left arm, under my collar bone and in the middle of my chest!