thanks again every one for the thoughts and prayers!

Been at the hospitol all day, husbands brother and sister-in-law were there when I came home, so was his daughter. I had a very hard day! Husbands cancer doctor said there is nothing more to do nothing else can be done. He has blood clots in both of his veins on each side of his neck. And he face is all swollen up. They did try blood thinners yesterday, but stopped them because he started throwing up. His doctor said maybe we should try Hospice? Don't know anything about Hospice, didn't even want to hear that word because I felt that there was nothing more to do to help him. I am so very sad, can hardly type, without making a thousand mistakes, don't know what to do? He cannot talk I bought him a board to right on, but he still doesn't write anything. They have him on pain patch. I'm scared. The lady did come in his room today to discuss Hospice she seemed really nice, but Hospice? Oh my, I feel like there is no hope. Has anybody on this site heard of those 2 veins clogging up? He started throwing up last Wed, was suppose to have cemo treatment but his white blood count was to high she said to take him to er so that is when everything started, was dehydrated and then everything went down heal that fast? Has anybody out ever heard of anyone that has their face swell up and the 2 veins on their neck get clogged up in just 2 days? That fast?? I NEVER! So please if anybody out there has ever heard of this happening to someone please let me know. Help please. I just don't know what to do. I know we all have to go some day but we are really never ready! I scared and i know my husband must be really scared and there is nothing I can do but say I LOVE YOU and hold his hand. I feel so helpless. Everyone says he is looking better, maybe to them he is, anymore there has been more bad days then good ones for him. I have had to bury both my mom and dad never my child and maybe I won't have to bury my husband maybe there is mericials can't spell anymore. I just know the people of this site know better then anybody the feeling that I am feeling is the only reason I can kinda talk and know you all understand. My sister said this morning Sue, just don't know how you are doing it all? I said Beth, you just got to do what you have to do. She said well,,, I know Bill wouldn't have taken me to my treatments if it where me he would have said sorry you are on your own . Never never could think that way I couldn't like with myself. My gosh me and my husband been together for 30 years must of them good, but some bad just like everything else is this life, we held on and I guess that is what it is all about in the end just hold on tight. Thanks for listnigh i cant spell so sorry 'God bless each and every one of you on the site! I have been on here for 1 year today. Last Nov he found out he had supragottic cancer form smoking not drinking but smoking does not smoke now but his 2 kids do. They have to watch his Dad not eat or drink his favorite cup of coffee or eat fried potatoes with onios that he loved and talking to friends and family on the phone nothing, but so said that they can'tgive up the smokes, not saying hey will get this type of cancer but quit if you can the more good you do for you body the more good your body will do thinks for you
SUE