I don't know what to say

dreamer007 said:

what to say
Carlene,

im a baseball fanatic, and had to respond to part of your comment about
the world serious... now u know what red sox fans had to live with until
redemption--the 2004 championship... we were one strike away from sweet
victory in 1986, then more heartache in 2003, with the Aaron Bleeping Boone
homer....it will happen, the Rangers are on the right track...they just need to
hope the umpire situation is cleaned up for the next trip to the fall classic
about the time i realized what was going on in game 6, with the egregious
calls, and the 'controversial' strikezone, i posted on facebook... then i went
to twitter, and Curt Schilling was saying the same thing, but a tad more diplomatically
than i had to... u might check out his blog 38pitches.com in a few weeks...i feel like
he is going to speak up about 'the fix'

ok, now back to ovca
im going for a second opinion this week, hopefully... must check with insurance
company to see if they cover it, and i only have copay...otherwise, i have to decide
what to do about my situation

dreamer

lovesanimals said:

Everyone Is Welcomed
In the short time I've been on this board, I've seen how everyone is truly welcomed and how supportive and compassionate each of these ladies are. I understand completely what Karen is saying though. Having the good fortune to be NED, I know I would hesitate to bring a problem to this board when I know other ladies are really having a hard time. I too think "what the heck do I have to complain about?!" But also like Karen, I too will post when I need to because I know I will get the help and support that I need. Many thanks to each and every person who contributes to this board.

Kelly

Radioactive34 said:

I totally agree with
I totally agree with Carlene. We need to hear it all. We help each other that way.

lindaprocopio said:

(((LIsa))). I'm so sorry that my story has sharpened your grief
I took each death on this Board very hard, very personally, and know the dispair you talk about. For something so universal and inevitable, death still seems to catch us all unprepared and brings back all of those 'meaning of life' questions, and grief that was getting manageable feels fresh and sharp again. I'm so sorry that I now bring this reality here to the forefront again. I struggled with whether I should tell the final twists and turns of my journey. If it is too painful or frightening, just tell me, and I can keep the details to myself. I have a wonderful support system with my family and friends. I would sure understand; just let me know.

For me, Bonnie's almost-daily posts on CaringBridge allowed me to see how it might be at the end. As much as it hurt, Bonnie set the bar high on how to pass from this world to the next with incredible grace and until her last breath, she never stopped being the generous loving woman and the relentless FIGHTER we all knew her to be.
With Linda Dorian, posting from the hospital, she completely opened up with her fears and worries about Meghan, and her dismay at her swollen legs and belly, and tooth-pick arms. Her vulnerability in showing the human side of dying taught me that this was okay, too. Better to be genuine.
And I guess Nancy's final weeks hurt me the most, for we both had papillary serous cancer, were diagnosed the same month, 1st recurred the same month, and had our CA125 hit the stratosphere at the same time (and never went back down). Because of that, we had a special bond. It seemed we were on the same path, but I never thought she'd get to the end before me. I can't even talk about how sad and painful Nancy's death was for me, and won't go there now. But Nancy's final weeks probably are shaping my own self-care plan more than anyone's. In Hospice care, the materials all say that you don't have to eat if you don't feel like it, and caregivers are told they needn't force fluids. And you can't even imagine how much you DON'T want to eat when your digestive system in full of cancer; it makes you so uncomfortable. But I am drinking 4 cans daily of a 'medical food' so that I know I have at least 1000 calories and all the protein and vitamins/minerals to support life. Then I take a pain killer a half-hour before mealtimes, so that I am comfortable and so that I can easily eat at least something. And if it's something YUMMY, sometimes I can eat it all.

I'm way off track here. I really just wanted to give you a hug ((((Lisa)))) and find out if anyone else here would really like to see what hospice is like and if I should post details.