I'm back :)

Hello!!!

It's been a long time, huh?
So, unfortunately I haven't got a chance to check in on anybody, I took a break from here for a while, I needed time to myself, sort everything out and whatnot. For those of you that aren't Facebook friends with me, I chopped my longgg hair off. Poof. Gone. I had more than 15 inches taken off that day, donated it to Locks Of Love!!! It felt soooooo awesome! I now have a super duper awesome pixie cut It's the best. Also, now that I have let everything settle in, I still don't like it... but, I am used to it. School is only about a week away, I am all set. I think now that I am settled into everything, I am going to like school a lot more this year. My new haircut, I don't know, it's given me this whole new attitude, and I like it. .
I feel like a powerful woman-child. Like I can take over the world and nothing will stop me! Anyways, plus, the previous year was hard, and everything went by so fast (including school, which is a plus), I made it through all that, and I am fine. Yes, slightly dramatic at times, but I am a teenager, HELLO!?!?!
My dad and I are getting along much better now, he's still the same, but I realize now, haha, all men are pretty dumb, occasionally, if you're lucky, you get a decent one, but after hanging out with him and his "man buddies"... they're all the same. No matter how hard you try to reason with them, they won't budge, just ignore them. Idiot. Uck...

It's officially been a year of my mom's passing, and you know, it's gotten a lot better. I have her in my heart, and in my mind, sometimes, it's like I can hear her, I have conversations with her in my head sometimes. Maybe I am crazy? Doesn't matter though, I am not doing anyone any harm by having conversations with my mother in my head It actually makes things better. I can vent to her, and tell her about my day, and it's almost like she's in the room with me . Anyways, I lit a candle for her on June 11th, a day before she passed, but I was with Candice and I wanted to do it with her.

Oh,oh!!! By the way, Candice is the best!! I've welcomed her into the family and it was stupid to dislike her because she wasn't my mom. I love her like a mom, now, nobody is going to replace my real mom, but she's like one of my many second, third, fourth and so on Mom's I have in my life. She let's me vent about dad, and even though she still attempts to make excuses for him, I just tell her to stop and I just want to vent and she'll totally understand. I can be myself around her and I love her. I really do. My dad is happier around her, too. Even though I have made some encounters with some disturbing "Toys".... Uhm... Yeah, I had to add that LOL. SERIOUSLY, I FOUND A VIBRATOR IN THE BATHROOM AND I SWEAR TO GOD I WASN'T LOOKING FOR IT!! I just went to take a shower and I usually go in her room because she has the BEST BATHROOM EVER, and just there, on the counter, not in a bag or anything, just on the counter like nobody can see it. REALLY?!?! Well, I mean, to be honest sex is a beautiful thing, but, should probably stay behind closed doors.... LOCKED DOORS, STEEL, SOUNDPROOF, DOORS!!!!

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I'd also like to say I was really upset when I heard about Susan and Nancy. I didn't know either of them very well, but Susan usually had some really good advice to give me, and she was so kind, and she would always post things on my wall to make my day I had a chance to see her when she came to Hawaii, but I couldn't do it because it was during a school day and my dad didn't know who she was, but she's probably in a much better place now. Nancy, I didn't know at all, but I believe she had two sons? My heart goes out to those little boys. Gosh they look so young! That's tough because they probably don't even fully understand! Cancer is the worst! They were both two beautiful ladies and will be missed so much!

Anyways, I'll shut up now.
But, I'd really like to know how all of you are doing!!
I can't thank you enough for the support and I hope you all are doing wonderfully.
Cancer doesn't beat us, we beat cancer :P

-Megs.