Lift me up today God and you beautiful women!!!

Today is my final radiation to the brain, 14 total. My face is a swollen mess (steroids) and my sleep has been off the charts....so wired. After the rad I will see my oncologist. I must admit I hate seeing him. He is a great doc but he thinks out loud and sometimes I need him just to SHUT UP! He is suppose to have the info about my clinical trial in St. Louis and I am going to be super peeved if he still has not info. They told me I have to wait 4 weeks to start going there to give my body time to heal.....so my goal is July 11th to get my arse out there and get this treatment going....But mainly I am scared that the rad didn't shrink the tumor in my head and that is STUPID of me to worry about. They found it early and I had no symptoms it was God ordering a test to save my life but the fear always surrounds the appointments doesn't it? So today as I finish and FINALLY get to weane off these steroids I am thinking every positive vibe out there will get me through. I have endured radition 3 times, breast, hip bone, brain.....and my cancer counts (and tumors) responded well each time but lately I don't ask for that # anymore cause of the mind games. I feel good, I might look like a walking tick (bloated beyond measure...LOL) but I have not been sick and continue to do well. SO LIFT ME UP and I will do the same for you!! Blessings