Feeling overwhelmed, can't stop crying.

gaumondd

PatiD,

That is such good news. So do what the doctor says even though it’s so difficult. I know how difficult this journey is. Like I said previously, the only thing that got me through was giving it to God. I couldn’t handle it. I had to take my dog for a walk throughout the chemo which was tough. I had a few choice words for her as she pulled me this way and that. I was so weak. It did get me outside and talking to neighbors that I didn’t know and they gave me kind words which helped. I think exercise, even though it’s the last thing you want to do, helped. I always needed a nap after. You are in my prayers. Hugs!

annehart57

Hello, Everyone,

My first time posting, my first day in the group. I find reading your comments like medicine to my heart.

My Dr. stopped my chemo because my PET scan, after 3 week-long treatments, revealed a lesion on my liver for which I will have a biopsy Monday.
I feel without hope now, as this can be nothing good. It gives me a glimmer of hope to see that you all struggle, too. We fight together, we help each other stay strong, no matter what. Thank you!

po18guy

Liver cysts are quite common, even in the healthy. IIRC, I had one 2-3 years ago - after 17 years it's all a blur now. So, cheer up as much as you can.

archangel724

Hi annehart57,

I will say welcome, b/c even though it’s a group no one wants to join, u are absolutely right..there are so many great people here, that u will definitely get great advice plus so much support, ik I’m very thankful to have found it.
It breaks my ❤️ to read that u can’t stop crying! I definitely understand though. You’ve already gone through such hell, why/how more?? po18guy(definitely one of the best of the best, who’s helped me SO much ☺️) is absolutely right. Liver cysts (never had myself but have had them almost everywhere else, except for where the sun don’t shine but there’s still time 😝) are very common. Unfortunately, when you’re in our respective boats, your mind is going to go to the worst possible scenario. Because we’re constantly having pet scans, we’re going to see every little cyst, (b4 it would have a chance to resolve itself by being reabsorbed or “popping” n disappearing, or inflammation, etc. There are probably almost millions of people in this world walking around with cysts in various places & will never know it, or as theirs clears up w/a twinge that feels like gas..it’s gone, but they’re not being constantly scanned, so gas it is! We don’t have that luxury b/c your Doc has to err on the side of extreme caution n stop chemo to biopsy on the slim chance it could b something. That’s unfortunately the drill. Please try to take some deep breaths & tell yourself that while you’re fighting rn, the beeotch is that everything has to b treated like it could b something until it comes bk that it’s not. I’m with u in spirit & will b thinking of u, especially on Monday. When u feel up to it, please keep us posted on how you’re doing. Until then, big hugs 🤗🤗🤗

annehart57

Oh my goodness thank you both so much for these encouraging words. I am trying not to get my hopes up too high, but at least I can feel that my cause is not entirely lost.

Appreciate this so much!

Emmy_y

Hello annehart57,

Welcome, it's good to have you here. I believe the encouragement you get here will help you keep a positive outlook in the midst of it all. A hug from me in addition to other hugs.

gaumondd

hi Annehart57,

I know how difficult this is. I’ve been there. My last chemo was Jan 2. All I can offer you is hugs, prayers and how I handled it. I actually every time I sat in my recliner, when I wasn’t sleeping, I would give it all to God because I had no other recourse. Every time I got scared thoughts, give it to God. It worked for my sanity. My family and friends tell me how strong I was. I am doing well now. I don’t know about the future. Non Hodgkin’s lymphoma was my second cancer. When I felt good ,just before my next chemo, I would play cards, babysit my triplets granddaughters ( I don’t know how I did that, they were 1) and I took my dog for a walk . That was tough but she has passed. She was 14 . I will not get another pet. All of my thoughts and prayers are with you 🙏

annehart57

https://csn.cancer.org/discussion/comment/1725410#Comment_1725410

Tank you so much!

annehart57

Dear Gamondd,

Thanks so much for those good suggestions. I am also a person of faith and am reminded to “Give it to God” over and over many times in a day. It is the smartest thing to do, and it is good to be reminded. I am still waiting to hear back on the biopsy, but I will keep positive as far as I can.

Thanks for your reply!

gaumondd

It’s not easy. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

annehart57

Thank you all so much! And, guess what? You were right! After 10 days of prayer and trepidation ☺️ the biopsy came back negative for cancer! My Oncologist was SO worried about it, but I was hanging on to hope because of your experience, so I just wanted to say thanks and let you know they said it is not significant.
I hope Celebrating good news is up lifting to you all!

gaumondd

Oh Anne,

That is the best news. You are on the mend now. You just need to finish your treatments. Give it to God. You can beat this. I believe it or not was just thinking about how healthy I am right now and you will get there again. Praying, Gaumondd

Emmy_y

https://csn.cancer.org/discussion/comment/1725470#Comment_1725470

Wow! Praise God. Truly happy for you.