My marriage is falling apart since my husband's diagnosis

Raye_1983

I swore that I would never join one of these group's and talk about my feeling with strangers but I need people who understand what I am going through and won't judge me. It all started in December of last year husband had not been feeling well for months and I kept begging him to call the doctor but he refused said it was just a bad cold finally he needed meds refilled and went. Long story short the day before his birthday he was diagnosed with stage 4 Lung cancer. We both felt like we had been punched in the gut. So since January our lives have been turned upside-down. I have been by his side every step of the way (he is my person) but he has become very mean and says awful things to me because I worry about him. The last couple of months his health seems to be getting worse headaches, dizzy spells and extreme fatigue and thirst every day. He has mentioned these things to his doctor and just gets brushed off. I happen to work in Health Care and have talked to Oncology about his situation and they believe he needs a brain scan sooner rather then later and recommended he go to the ER to have this done. Since I have tried to get him to go he has this thought in his head that I just want him out of the house (everytime he has went to the hospital I have been with him) and that I can't wait to get away from him. I just want what's best for him. Someone please tell me what to do. I feel like he is on the verge of leaving me.

deelo

He is very much afraid of what going on and isn't processing his feelings very well. We almost always lash out at the people we are the closest to...safety net. He has come to terms in his time. Will he go to one of the local support groups? Sometimes it helps....I pray your journey gets easier and the time you guys have can be good :)) Tell a joke and find a reason to laugh everyday...we watch dumb tik tok videos together

Tiffh19

I can relate in so many ways . He’s not my husband but my partner. He is very mean and careless of his words when i try To help him or suggest what i think He should do in regards to how he feels or even helping him with everyday activities. It’s hard and i wish I could give you advise to change it for the better but i cant. However what i do want you to kno that you are NOT alone. Everyday is a struggle, and peace seems impossible ,but as long as you are there for him to the best of your abilities that’s all that matters. I am trying to get him to see his therapist more often and I have scheduled to see one myself. I joined this support group because i felt anxious to just feel something else besides hopelessness. Your post is literally the second post i read and I now know talking to others and accepting reality are the key points to move in a positive direction. I will pray for you and your husband and I wish you all the best.

tougherthan

Same here

was at five year scan on stage 4 NSC all looked great then small cell out of no where

i try to be understanding and go to appts to be sure to understand what is happening with his health

he just shuts down and lashes out at me hateful yelling snaps at simple things no reason

wont take anti depression meds consistently a bigger issue

its insulting when everyone else gets talked to with affection and I get nothing even the dog gets more

its all I can do to just keep myself in check and stop from letting my feelings out as I can’t imagine what it feels like to be in his shoes

Not sure how to help someone who is emotionally destroying me

Hstrout

My husband and I nearly spit as well a couple times so far. I am the one sick though I have stage4 lung cancer. This is such a terrifying time for all of us, ofcourse our relationships will suffer. I couldn’t imagine how awful he would be handling this is he had cancer. My guy is always sort of a prick when he isn’t feeling well. Lol. I find myself being jealous that he isn’t the sick one. That he will live and I will not get to enjoy our grandchildren graduate hurts. Facing my own mortality is really devastating, mostly I feel sad for my children and how they will handle my leaving this plane. I don’t imagine my husband really being helpful when the stuff hits the fan, and there is the resentment thing that happens with me. I am in therapy and that has helped, my husband is now too. I hope that things get better for all of us.

Sincerely

supportTeam

We found out in September that my husband's lung cancer had returned. He had it in 2020 and went through a lobectomy, radiation and chemo. Since September he's been going through chemo.  It has spread to his kidneys and his lymph nodes and its at stage 4. His doctor stopped chemo and started him on Keytruda about 2 weeks ago.  I'm going through a tough time dealing with this. He's always been a strong, good, proud man. Worked hard at everything he did. And now he's weak...doesn't feel good....depressed...pissed off. You name it. And I am doing as much as I can to help him. But sometimes he just doesn't want to admit he NEEDS help...and he gets short and snappy with me when I try. He can be such an **** when he gets that way, and then I get mad...or hurt...and if I say anything or try to talk about it, he trys to turn it around on me. This **** is going to kill us both. Charles spends most of his time sleeping.  When we DO go somewhere (wal mart, etc) he usually stays in the car. And nods off a lot there. He's also having a lot of problems with his hip. He has 'advanced arthritis with a possible infection' according to the MRI. He moves v e r y s l o w l y... and carefully.  Uses a walker or cane pretty much anywhere he is. He has a lot of pain in his chest and legs also. It's so so damn depressing for him and ME. I am watching him deteriorate right in front of me.  And there's nothing I can do to stop it. He's stubborn as hell and is still smoking and that makes me mad and makes me wonder why in the hell are we even going through the chemo & Keytruda!! I'm really going crazy. He's 78, I'm 65...