When some stop posting!!

molimoli

TeddyandBears_Mom said:

Moli - can you call them

Moli - can you call them again and push them for a date? It has been so darn long! Don't let them forget about you! You might have to park your butt in their offices...? Or maybe give up on getting the tummy tuck at the same time?

Love and Hugs,

Cindi

Cindi , I can feel your concern as I read, Thanks for caring so.

In fact I left a message Wed. at 4 pm so hoping for an answer tomorrow. Last time we spoke  she told me that there is an operating room space coming up on May 13 but 3 other surgeons are asking for it.but is trying hard to get it. she promised to update me but has not called, I will update as I hear from her.

Re: Tummy tuck off the table, I hate my  cancer tumors  and my soft,hanging, jiggley tummy equally, So they all must go in one scoop.I have been sucking in my gut and practicing my  'show-off' walk with brand new 'tude for a whole month now so  will wait a little while longer.Don't worry it will happen, but not knowing when the call will come  ties me down.I need to be on life's fast track like now though. Boring!!

Moli-Nuff love and hugs back.

 

 

HellieC

Just checking in!

Hi Ladies

I am still here!  I don't come onto the boards quite as much but I'm still alive and kicking.  It is coming up to 18 months since my Cyberknife radiation treatment for recurrence on the pelvic sidewall.  I try not to allow myself to dwell on waiting for the "other shoe to drop" but it's there in the background all the time, I guess! 

Wishing you all well
Helen xx

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Annabella Rose said:

I'm still kicking!

it will be a year since I've finished my third and final chemo treatments this month. Then I completed five rounds of internal radiation treatments.

I have been busy and concerned with my husbands health. I noticed he was detaching from me and what I was going through when I was still going through my treatments. He was all into himself and how sick he felt. The doctors and I thought he had a nervous breakdown.

I was building up a lot of resentmen toward him. I wanted him to celebrate my serviving the cancer, surgeries and treatments, but instead he was in a deep depression. All he kept talking about is his aches and pains and panic attacks. The money issues concerning how much our medical bills were adding up was eating him up.

After almost a full year of him being tested the thing they found on his MRI was that he had a few silent strokes.

He has now showing signs of dementia. I have to take over everything in running our household. I am totally exhausted. Instead of having this time of living my life fully and finding some kind of peace , I am depressed, exshusred and angry at him. And yes, I know how evil that sounds, I don't even like the sound of my own voice when I'm talking too him. He doesn't like to be left alone yet he doesn't want to go out. He gets upset with me if I sleep in longer then him. And he wakes me if I fall asleep watching tv in the afternoon. He is a completely changed man who can't take care of himself because of the dementia.

I made an appointment with my primary to ask for some help with me mentally. He prescribed Paxil. I may start taking it tomorrow.

My husband is so sick. And my reacting to him is so bad and I don't know how to stop. His doctor said for me to try to find help with our insurance company because he is going to get worse and two drowning people can't save each other. I don't have time to even deal with the thought of the cancer coming back. I think that's why I haven't been coming onto this support group. I'm sorry I hadn't let you all know what's been going on in my life.

the last three Pap smears have come back abnormal so they sent me for a pet scan which didn't show any cancer. The doctor said it's probably from the internal radaton treatments, which I'm still hurting from! Yuk!

 

Has anyone here been on Paxil for  antidepressant?

Oh Annabella, I know what you're going through

First of all, how wonderful to hear of your NED!  And how sad to learn of your new duties of caregiver to your husband.  My husband had a series of health problems, first TM which left him a paraplegic at age 50, then ITP which eventually killed him with a massive cerebral hemmorage.  However, throughout it all (or most of it) he had a cheerful attitude and was very loving towards me.  I still resented the fact at times, that he had so many needs, we tried to do the best with our more limited life, and I tried not to show my frustration at times, but eventualy it did come out sometimes.  I know though, that I did the best that I COULD.  That's all we can do, and we can't beat ourselves up with guilt about how we feel about a situation.  Remember, (and I couldn't get this in my head), that you are important, and your doctor is right, stress will cause you more harm.  I wish I could help.  Hugs Nancy

TeddyandBears_Mom

HellieC said:

Just checking in!

Hi Ladies

I am still here!  I don't come onto the boards quite as much but I'm still alive and kicking.  It is coming up to 18 months since my Cyberknife radiation treatment for recurrence on the pelvic sidewall.  I try not to allow myself to dwell on waiting for the "other shoe to drop" but it's there in the background all the time, I guess! 

Wishing you all well
Helen xx

Helen,
So glad to hear from

Helen,

So glad to hear from you! I know you do this.... Enjoy each and every day and recognize what a gift it is!

Here's to another bunch of years cancer free!

Love and Hugs,

Cindi

giggs100

I am here and glad to be done with chemo

Well as of Mar. 25th I received (hopefully) my last 6th application of chemo.  I asked the doctor if I could have a month off before I get another CT scan and to see him.   He said that would be OK.  Well didn't take my husband and I long to jump in the vehicle and get away to sunny warm Florida.  These couple of weeks have been so nice.  We have another couple of weeks here before we have to think about coming back to Wisconsin. It is like being in another world without thinking about what might lay ahead in the real world.  But I will stay positive and enjoy each day.

Hugs and love coming to all my friends on this board.

Jerri

molimoli

HellieC said:

Just checking in!

Hi Ladies

I am still here!  I don't come onto the boards quite as much but I'm still alive and kicking.  It is coming up to 18 months since my Cyberknife radiation treatment for recurrence on the pelvic sidewall.  I try not to allow myself to dwell on waiting for the "other shoe to drop" but it's there in the background all the time, I guess! 

Wishing you all well
Helen xx

Nice to see this post.Helen.Thought of you this morning.

Good to know you are doing ok. The background,way,way back is where that thought belong. Don't let it get in your way my sister.Stay encouraged and strong. Nuff blessings.

Moli- still hugging thee, my level headed sister, I have not revisited my LaLA land since you snatched me out.

Interesting , on this day you post ,on this day I got my surgery date, It's May 13th at noon.I fought long and hard for it . I don't anticipate being sorry but I am braced for anything.Thanks for your long ago but not forgotten input ,It tempered my manner and changed my expectations, In other words I was a nicer me to the hindering doctors.LOL

Moli- Love you Helen, This is our light box, come back soon. 

molimoli

giggs100 said:

I am here and glad to be done with chemo

Well as of Mar. 25th I received (hopefully) my last 6th application of chemo.  I asked the doctor if I could have a month off before I get another CT scan and to see him.   He said that would be OK.  Well didn't take my husband and I long to jump in the vehicle and get away to sunny warm Florida.  These couple of weeks have been so nice.  We have another couple of weeks here before we have to think about coming back to Wisconsin. It is like being in another world without thinking about what might lay ahead in the real world.  But I will stay positive and enjoy each day.

Hugs and love coming to all my friends on this board.

Jerri

Great news Jerri.

That's the best way to do this Cancer thing, keep on living because you are alive.

Showers of NED blessings to you sister. Live as you please.

Enjoy your trip and family.

Moli -Nuff love

TeddyandBears_Mom

giggs100 said:

I am here and glad to be done with chemo

Well as of Mar. 25th I received (hopefully) my last 6th application of chemo.  I asked the doctor if I could have a month off before I get another CT scan and to see him.   He said that would be OK.  Well didn't take my husband and I long to jump in the vehicle and get away to sunny warm Florida.  These couple of weeks have been so nice.  We have another couple of weeks here before we have to think about coming back to Wisconsin. It is like being in another world without thinking about what might lay ahead in the real world.  But I will stay positive and enjoy each day.

Hugs and love coming to all my friends on this board.

Jerri

Jerri - so glad you were able

Jerri - so glad you were able to spend time in FL. this is such a wonderful time of the year here....

You will be amazed at how much freedom you will feel once all of the testing is completed. And, it doesn't take long to start feeling more "normal".

It has been about 4 months since my last chemo and about 3 months since my last radiation. I'm still building my strength but I am so much closer to how I used to feel than I was.

Enjoy the rest of your trip and I wish nothing but NED when you return home.

Love and Hugs,

Cindi

TeddyandBears_Mom

molimoli said:

Nice to see this post.Helen.Thought of you this morning.

Good to know you are doing ok. The background,way,way back is where that thought belong. Don't let it get in your way my sister.Stay encouraged and strong. Nuff blessings.

Moli- still hugging thee, my level headed sister, I have not revisited my LaLA land since you snatched me out.

Interesting , on this day you post ,on this day I got my surgery date, It's May 13th at noon.I fought long and hard for it . I don't anticipate being sorry but I am braced for anything.Thanks for your long ago but not forgotten input ,It tempered my manner and changed my expectations, In other words I was a nicer me to the hindering doctors.LOL

Moli- Love you Helen, This is our light box, come back soon. 

Moli - One more month and

Moli - One more month and then hopefully you will be cancer free! I hope you find some time to breathe and relax between now and your surgery day.

I'm so relieved you have a firm date now.

Love and Hugs,

Cindi

molimoli

TeddyandBears_Mom said:

Moli - One more month and

Moli - One more month and then hopefully you will be cancer free! I hope you find some time to breathe and relax between now and your surgery day.

I'm so relieved you have a firm date now.

Love and Hugs,

Cindi

Oh Cindi

Thank you ,I know you are relieved my sister ,you have all , no doubt been dizzy from my long drawn out roller coaster ride ., but hang in there ,the coin runs out on May 13th , Phew!!!

Moli-- thanking you for sharing the ride.

giggs100

Thanks Molli and Cindi

Thanks for your thoughts as they are always appreciated by all of us gals on this board.   I read these posts by all of you and they are always so full of comments and information from each and everyone of you ladies and red corvette you and your wife too.  Even when we think our comments are not important just able to read what someone is going through and say to ourselves "Oh ya that is happening to me also".   We are so lucky to be able to be in touch with each other.  Thanks to everyone for your strength to comment on this board.   Hugs and love to all of you !!!

Jerri