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  • EveningStar2
    EveningStar2 Member Posts: 491 Member
    #22
    Just remember
    that the waiting is the hardest part--as we all know. Breathe and don't imagine the worst. Whatever it is, you are strong and we are here.

    ((((hugs)))

    Maureen
  • Gabe N Abby Mom
    Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413
    #23
    Renee, I hope you were able to get some sleep and are better today. This time waiting is when I like to bury my head in the sand and pretend there is nothing wrong...I use distractions and push all the sh!t out. I know you're familiar with all the tricks.

    And you know I'm in your corner...as I pray we won't need the gloves and tape.

    Hugs,

    Linda
  • missrenee
    missrenee Member Posts: 2,136 Member
    #24
    Gabe N Abby Mom said:

    Renee, I hope you were able to get some sleep and are better today. This time waiting is when I like to bury my head in the sand and pretend there is nothing wrong...I use distractions and push all the sh!t out. I know you're familiar with all the tricks.

    And you know I'm in your corner...as I pray we won't need the gloves and tape.

    Hugs,

    Linda

    Thanks, girls--I knew I could count on you
    You are all the sweetest ever. I love you all. Still haven't heard from the surgeon's office regarding the biopsy. I really love the nurse there, but she is so busy, sometimes it takes a couple of days. Sometimes I don't think they really realize what we go through with the waiting alone--not even counting the surgeries and treatments.

    I'm trying to stay strong and brave. I've talked to 2 of my best friends (one does MRIs in California and the other does CTs here in Phoenix). They have told me how super-sensitive MRIs are in picking up every little thing and getting a lot of false positives. I'm hanging my hat on this hope. I don't look forward to the biopsy--I had an MRI guided biopsy with the first one and it was the most excruciating thing ever. It was right up against the chest wall and the radiologist couldn't even get it half-way numbed. I cried my eyes out while 2 nurses held and squeezed each hand.

    Cancer sucks so bad--I want off this roller coaster right now!

    Hugs, Renee
  • rallendorfer
    rallendorfer Member Posts: 244
    #25
    missrenee said:

    Thanks, girls--I knew I could count on you
    You are all the sweetest ever. I love you all. Still haven't heard from the surgeon's office regarding the biopsy. I really love the nurse there, but she is so busy, sometimes it takes a couple of days. Sometimes I don't think they really realize what we go through with the waiting alone--not even counting the surgeries and treatments.

    I'm trying to stay strong and brave. I've talked to 2 of my best friends (one does MRIs in California and the other does CTs here in Phoenix). They have told me how super-sensitive MRIs are in picking up every little thing and getting a lot of false positives. I'm hanging my hat on this hope. I don't look forward to the biopsy--I had an MRI guided biopsy with the first one and it was the most excruciating thing ever. It was right up against the chest wall and the radiologist couldn't even get it half-way numbed. I cried my eyes out while 2 nurses held and squeezed each hand.

    Cancer sucks so bad--I want off this roller coaster right now!

    Hugs, Renee

    If I could send you my little Therapy dog...
    he would look deep into your eyes and not look away. He would understand the deepest crying of your heart and he can't say a word. He would stay by your side and insist that you pet him until the crying stops and you can smile again. Sometimes words just aren't needed when you have us by your side gazing lovingly at you, and hoping for glad days ahead.
  • MsGebby
    MsGebby Member Posts: 659
    #26
    OK
    Breath in ... Breath out ... good news was first. I pray this is just a hiccup on the radar.

    You are a strong spirit. I know IF this is a more than a hiccup on the radar screen, you will fight like the warrior you are.

    Sending lots of gentle hugs and prayers your way.

    BREATH!!!!
  • Jean 0609
    Jean 0609 Member Posts: 2,462
    #27
    Hang in there girlfriend!
    Oh Renee, sorry you have to go through this. Sending positive thoughts, prayers & big hugs your way.

    xoxo,
    Jean
  • Different Ballgame
    Different Ballgame Member Posts: 868
    #28
    Think Positive
    Dear Renee,

    I'm going for the false positive. Think positive. Think positive. Think positive. I a m hoping that they do the biopsy quickly so you have peace of mind.

    Lots of Hugs,
    Janelle
  • Different Ballgame
    Different Ballgame Member Posts: 868
    #29
    Think Positive
    Dear Renee,

    I'm going for the false positive. Think positive. Think positive. Think positive. I a m hoping that they do the biopsy quickly so you have peace of mind.

    Lots of Hugs,
    Janelle
  • Lynn Smith
    Lynn Smith Member Posts: 1,264 Member
    #30
    MsGebby said:

    OK
    Breath in ... Breath out ... good news was first. I pray this is just a hiccup on the radar.

    You are a strong spirit. I know IF this is a more than a hiccup on the radar screen, you will fight like the warrior you are.

    Sending lots of gentle hugs and prayers your way.

    BREATH!!!!

    Praying for a good test
    Praying for a good test result with the biopsy.I've been through this 3 times since my malignant tumor was found.The first 2 tumors were just as I was being wheeled in the operating room.The first one to do a lumpectomy which then turned out to have 2 taken out.Then came the margin surgery almost 3 weeks later.I found a tumor 2 days before that.It was benign.Then last year dx with a fibroid tumor during my regular mammo during my 2 year check up.

    It is so scary to wait but I'm hoping it's benign and the worry will be behind you.It does get to the point where you dread those mammos.Seems like most of us have something going on over and over.Never a break for some of us.

    We all hope to hear some good news soon.

    Lynn Smith
  • sdukowitz
    sdukowitz Member Posts: 250
    #31
    Prayers during the waiting
    Prayers during the waiting time .... hope you can spend some time with that new granndson during the waiting .... keep us posted ... we are here for you!
  • Heatherbelle
    Heatherbelle Member Posts: 1,226 Member
    #32
    Sending love and prayers
    Sending love and prayers your way Renee. The waiting is so agonizing, Im praying for peace for you, for comfort, and for a big false positive.
    *hugs*
    heatherbelle
  • Lighthouse_7
    Lighthouse_7 Member Posts: 1,566 Member
    #33
    Heatherbelle said:

    Sending love and prayers
    Sending love and prayers your way Renee. The waiting is so agonizing, Im praying for peace for you, for comfort, and for a big false positive.
    *hugs*
    heatherbelle

    Renee,
    Sending love, prayers and huge hugs!
    Wanda
  • aisling8
    aisling8 Member Posts: 1,627 Member
    #34
    Lighthouse_7 said:

    Renee,
    Sending love, prayers and huge hugs!
    Wanda

    Sending
    good thoughts and waiting right here with you.

    xoxo
    Victoria
  • trixytwo
    trixytwo Member Posts: 59
    #35
    Geez Renee
    I am so sorry you are on this roller coaster again. Keep positive thoughts, the PET is probably correct. Regardless, you will be able to handle whatever is thrown your way. After all, you are a PINK! Love and hugs

    Deb
  • New Flower
    New Flower Member Posts: 4,294
    #36
    trixytwo said:

    Geez Renee
    I am so sorry you are on this roller coaster again. Keep positive thoughts, the PET is probably correct. Regardless, you will be able to handle whatever is thrown your way. After all, you are a PINK! Love and hugs

    Deb

    Hi Renee my thoughts are with you
    Sending you positive thoughts. I was told that PET is very accurate, hopefully it is a scar tissue and you continue to be with your NEDSorry Could not respond earlier as have been having problems of my own. I had an emergency pulmonary CT scan to due an excruciating pain. Nothing was found, however several life-threatening conditions were ruled out.
    Sending positive thought.
    New Flower
  • epark
    epark Member Posts: 339
    #37
    Different Ballgame said:

    Think Positive
    Dear Renee,

    I'm going for the false positive. Think positive. Think positive. Think positive. I a m hoping that they do the biopsy quickly so you have peace of mind.

    Lots of Hugs,
    Janelle

    Thinking of you...keep the
    Thinking of you...keep the faith my pink friend.

    God bless
    Eva
  • AngieD
    AngieD Member Posts: 493
    #38
    New Flower said:

    Hi Renee my thoughts are with you
    Sending you positive thoughts. I was told that PET is very accurate, hopefully it is a scar tissue and you continue to be with your NEDSorry Could not respond earlier as have been having problems of my own. I had an emergency pulmonary CT scan to due an excruciating pain. Nothing was found, however several life-threatening conditions were ruled out.
    Sending positive thought.
    New Flower

    Oh, Renee, waiting is the
    Oh, Renee, waiting is the worst! Glad you're starting to focus on the PET results. I'm thinking and praying that is the true picture and the MRI is some anomaly.
    Angie
  • linpsu
    linpsu Member Posts: 747
    #39
    so sorry
    Oh Renee, I am so sorry to hear this news. It is so hard waiting for results. I'm praying that the test is just a false positive. Hugs, Linda

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