Facing Death - Awkward!

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  • marbleotis
    marbleotis Member Posts: 720 Member
    #62
    Your Courage Shows Through
    Lizzy - this is a beautiful and honest post. Sorry to hear about all your pain and struggles. Laugh and enjoy everyday and I pray you have many many many to enjoy.
  • Luckygirl2
    Luckygirl2 Member Posts: 308
    #63
    My grannie
    My grannie died three years ago from a cancer that started many years ago, after removal of a kidney and all her baby making roans she lived many years without incident. Then she lands in the hospital with a cancer eating it's way through her arota. We were given three months we had two weeks. Two days before she died, I was lucky to be by her side when we brought her home. Our last conversation was amazing, she told me we could all be happy in Gods love if we would just let ourselves, she then told me she saw my grandpa and my aunt on the train and she didnt understand why it had not stopped for her. My grandpa had died years before and my aunt ( one of my grannies 10 children had died two months before after battling cancer for a good 10 to 15 years! She told me to make sure that we had chairs for all the people waiting on the train. I assured her we did. She then went on to tell me how beautiful heaven was, I asked her if the streets were as pretty as the Bible says and she smiled and said even better. She was still waiting on the train and was concerned why it was taking so long to pick her up. I told her that sometimes we have to let one train pass so the other one can stop. Two days later surrounded by her nine children and a ggod portion of her 87 grand, great and great great grandchildren, th e train stopped and took my grannie to be with her loved ones. While our conversation lasted only a few minutes and it was our last, I felt the peace my grannie felt in her last hours and afterbreading your post, I think you feel that same peace. Inhope when my time draws close I can remember my grannies conversation and I know she will be waiting for me on that train.

    Peace and love to you

    Debbie
  • danker
    danker Member Posts: 1,276 Member
    #64
    lizzydavis
    I will soon be 80 years old, and am hoping for 10 more years!!! I am now two years out from tumor resection. ileostomy. and self healing fistula.. Mame said it all when she said"life's a banquet, and most poor suckers are starving to death" We must just enjoy life a day at a time and know God will bring us to heaven when we die!!!You can't beat that with a stick.
  • plh4gail
    plh4gail Member Posts: 1,238 Member
    #65
    Hi Lizzy, I just want you to
    Hi Lizzy, I just want you to know I'm thinking about you and hoping you are able to enjoy the cool spring breeze on your face, the smell of fresh flowers, some warm sunshine and love from all who care!

    Hugs to you Lizzy! You are such a kind heart!

    Gail
  • BusterBrown
    BusterBrown Member Posts: 221 Member
    #66
    Hi...
    Lizzy,
    You are the epitome of grace and dignity.
    Peace,
    Buster
  • lizzydavis
    lizzydavis Member Posts: 893
    #67
    BusterBrown said:

    Hi...
    Lizzy,
    You are the epitome of grace and dignity.
    Peace,
    Buster

    Hi CSN Family,
    Hi CSN Family,

    It is so nice to hear from you. Thanks for posting.

    This weather is so beautiful. I am enjoying walking with my dog a couple of times a day. I keep busy around the house. My husband loves to have a prepared lunch served to him daily so I am experimenting. Baked Sweet Potato Fries, Egg and Cheese Sandwiches, Fruit mixtures with nuts, fat free pudding pies with a whole can of pure pumpkin and muffins with a variety of nuts, spices, pumpkin and applesauce, etc. Salads with olives and sliced apples, etc…

    Everyday is a gift!

    Hugs to everyone!
    Lizzy
  • steved
    steved Member Posts: 834 Member
    #68
    lizzydavis said:

    Hi CSN Family,
    Hi CSN Family,

    It is so nice to hear from you. Thanks for posting.

    This weather is so beautiful. I am enjoying walking with my dog a couple of times a day. I keep busy around the house. My husband loves to have a prepared lunch served to him daily so I am experimenting. Baked Sweet Potato Fries, Egg and Cheese Sandwiches, Fruit mixtures with nuts, fat free pudding pies with a whole can of pure pumpkin and muffins with a variety of nuts, spices, pumpkin and applesauce, etc. Salads with olives and sliced apples, etc…

    Everyday is a gift!

    Hugs to everyone!
    Lizzy

    Thank you
    Thank you for being brave to start a topic that is not only relevant to many us but hte ultimate reason we use this community- because we are facing an uncertain future and ultimately facing our own mortality and death. I have had cancer since 2003 and only this year have been told I am terminal. It has been a huge shift in my thinking though we knew it was probable for some time. My wife and myself have spent time talking openly about it but our greatest fear and heart break is the effect on our two children aged 4 and 7. I generally am fairly well but know that won't last forever and the doctor talk about a year or two.
    Personally death carries less fear for me than the period before that. I fear the loss of my independence and ability- I am only 39 and always been fit and strong before this hit. My focus for now is to enjoy my health and use it to have as much time with my family as I can. As is becoming a mantra on this thread- 'every day is precious'.
    It helps to know I am not alone in this journey and this community plays a role in that. Know you too are never far from our thoughts and the journey travel is shared by so many of us.

    steve
  • Lifeisajourney
    Lifeisajourney Member Posts: 216
    #69
    lizzydavis said:

    Hi CSN Family,
    Hi CSN Family,

    It is so nice to hear from you. Thanks for posting.

    This weather is so beautiful. I am enjoying walking with my dog a couple of times a day. I keep busy around the house. My husband loves to have a prepared lunch served to him daily so I am experimenting. Baked Sweet Potato Fries, Egg and Cheese Sandwiches, Fruit mixtures with nuts, fat free pudding pies with a whole can of pure pumpkin and muffins with a variety of nuts, spices, pumpkin and applesauce, etc. Salads with olives and sliced apples, etc…

    Everyday is a gift!

    Hugs to everyone!
    Lizzy

    Lizzy
    thanks for your continued posting, it makes my journey less lonesome. I don't feel as good as you, but I just had the best three months in a long time...each day is a blessing, good and bad...onc says it is a slow growing liver mets, thank goodness. Glad to hear you are doing so well,,,,,keep it up, life is good...Pat
  • PhillieG
    PhillieG Member Posts: 4,866 Member
    #70
    lizzydavis said:

    Hi CSN Family,
    Hi CSN Family,

    It is so nice to hear from you. Thanks for posting.

    This weather is so beautiful. I am enjoying walking with my dog a couple of times a day. I keep busy around the house. My husband loves to have a prepared lunch served to him daily so I am experimenting. Baked Sweet Potato Fries, Egg and Cheese Sandwiches, Fruit mixtures with nuts, fat free pudding pies with a whole can of pure pumpkin and muffins with a variety of nuts, spices, pumpkin and applesauce, etc. Salads with olives and sliced apples, etc…

    Everyday is a gift!

    Hugs to everyone!
    Lizzy

    Hi Lizzy
    "Every day is a gift" so very true... Spoiler alert: We all will die someday. Very often we don't see it coming and have no idea that when we leave our home it could be for the last time. The same holds true to our loved ones...

    There's something about being "aware" of our mortality that can be freeing to us if you remain open to it. Obviously much has to do with our current state of health and being. If you're feeling miserable it's not the best gift but if one is feeling ok it can be enlightening.
    Ever since I was diagnosed, I've viewed things differently. One thing that became more noticeable was Nature. Seeing the colors of budding trees this spring is once again a feast for the eyes and for the nose. The colors jump out to me. I'm a big photo nut and since my dx I will stop my car and turn around to take a photo. I'm fortunate to live right off a lake in beautiful NY State but really need to do is to look to the skies for a treat.

    Obviously, cancer has made me more aware of my family, especially my kids. I value my time with them even more and try to instill in them our obligation as human beings to treat others with kindness and to not take things for granted.

    I can't help but think that being positive has a positive on our quality of life too, I certainly see no harm in being positive.
    Thanks for your post Lizzy, I'm glad you're enjoying everything!
    -phil
  • Luckygirl2
    Luckygirl2 Member Posts: 308
    #71
    Lifeisajourney said:

    Lizzy
    thanks for your continued posting, it makes my journey less lonesome. I don't feel as good as you, but I just had the best three months in a long time...each day is a blessing, good and bad...onc says it is a slow growing liver mets, thank goodness. Glad to hear you are doing so well,,,,,keep it up, life is good...Pat

    Truly feel lucky
    I feel like I am a baby on this board, a 53 year old baby, you all show so much wisdom and courage. I'm learning so much from all of you and just want say thank you. Lizzy, I can feel your peace. I'm at a loss for words. Just thank you for sharing and helping me learn this rode.
  • Luckygirl2
    Luckygirl2 Member Posts: 308
    #72
    lizzydavis said:

    Hi CSN Family,
    Hi CSN Family,

    It is so nice to hear from you. Thanks for posting.

    This weather is so beautiful. I am enjoying walking with my dog a couple of times a day. I keep busy around the house. My husband loves to have a prepared lunch served to him daily so I am experimenting. Baked Sweet Potato Fries, Egg and Cheese Sandwiches, Fruit mixtures with nuts, fat free pudding pies with a whole can of pure pumpkin and muffins with a variety of nuts, spices, pumpkin and applesauce, etc. Salads with olives and sliced apples, etc…

    Everyday is a gift!

    Hugs to everyone!
    Lizzy

    Like button!
    Where's the like button??? :). Thank you for reminding me that everyday is a gift!

    Debbie
  • bspangler47
    bspangler47 Member Posts: 145
    #73
    Luckygirl2 said:

    Like button!
    Where's the like button??? :). Thank you for reminding me that everyday is a gift!

    Debbie

    Lizzy
    I just finished reading your postings. Thank you so much for sharing. I know it isnt easy at all. What I am going thru now isnt nothing compared to what you and your husband is going thru. I totally admire you on how you are handling it. After what I have been thru I cherish everyday etc.

    My father passed away a few years ago, at home. With my brothers and sister there. He went in peace.

    I have learned thru him and me going thru treatment, to cherish every moment.

    You and your family are in my prayers.

    Barbara
  • PhillieG
    PhillieG Member Posts: 4,866 Member
    #74
    Luckygirl2 said:

    Like button!
    Where's the like button??? :). Thank you for reminding me that everyday is a gift!

    Debbie

    Here you Go!


  • Lovekitties
    Lovekitties Member Posts: 3,364 Member
    #75
    PhillieG said:

    Here you Go!


    LOL
    OK Phill, I couldn't resist and hit the "like" button you so thoughtfully supplied.

    Now my question is...where the heck did it take me?...lol

    Marie who loves kitties
  • Luckygirl2
    Luckygirl2 Member Posts: 308
    #76
    PhillieG said:

    Here you Go!


    Like
    Thank you!
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  • bspangler47
    bspangler47 Member Posts: 145
    #78
    unknown said:

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    facing death
    Wow, Nedy I just read your post. I re-read all of them. It gives me both strength and sadness. I know in my heart that when it is time for me to go, I will be at peace with everything. Lizzie, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Barbara
  • lizzydavis
    lizzydavis Member Posts: 893
    #79
    unknown said:

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    Thank you, Nedy
    Thank you, Nedy.

    I know how your friend felt. I have felt the very same way.

    Thank you for sharing the post with us.


    Lizzy
  • lizzydavis
    lizzydavis Member Posts: 893
    #80
    bspangler47 said:

    facing death
    Wow, Nedy I just read your post. I re-read all of them. It gives me both strength and sadness. I know in my heart that when it is time for me to go, I will be at peace with everything. Lizzie, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Barbara

    Thanks, Barbara.
    Thanks, Barbara.
  • Unknown
    Unknown
    #81
    lizzydavis said:

    Thank you, Nedy
    Thank you, Nedy.

    I know how your friend felt. I have felt the very same way.

    Thank you for sharing the post with us.


    Lizzy

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