Writing this through my tears-from Kateel

kateel
kateel Member Posts: 28
in Esophageal Cancer #1
Hello everyone,

I haven't written for a while. As I sit here with tears running down my cheeks, I want to share with all of you that Bill remains in a deep coma since his stroke on Sept. 1st. He has had a few times of opening his eyes, but I have been told that he will never be able to swallow or eat again, never talk again, and never be able to think or know me. I have made a decision to remove Bill from life support this coming week. It has been long enough for him and he is so very tired and just wants to be with Jesus. Please pray for Bill as he goes through this struggle. I am worn out, but have strong faith to get through this.

God bless all of you,

Kateel
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  • Ginny_B
    Ginny_B Member Posts: 532
    #2
    My heart aches for you and
    My heart aches for you and Bill even though I don't know you.
  • mishti
    mishti Member Posts: 24
    #3
    Kateee....
    May god give you
    Kateee....

    May god give you strength. My eyes are wet and I don't know what to say . May god be with you
  • mishti
    mishti Member Posts: 24
    #4
    Kateee....
    May god give you
    Kateee....

    May god give you strength. My eyes are wet and I don't know what to say . May god be with you
  • paul61
    paul61 Member Posts: 1,392 Member
    #5
    I am so very sorry
    Kateel,

    I am so very sorry to hear about Bill. I know it must be an agonizing decision to let him go. It sounds like the doctors are telling you that Bill has already gone and the life support systems are just keeping the physical presence that he occupied while here on earth functioning. I am sure he will be thankful to be allowed rest after his long and difficult battle.

    May God welcome Bill into his loving arms and provide you strength and peace during this very difficult time.

    Best Regards,

    Paul Adams
    McCormick, South Carolina

    DX 10/22/2009 T2N1M0 Stage IIB
    12/03/2009 Ivor Lewis
    2/8 through 6/14/2010 Adjuvant Chemo Cisplatin, Epirubicin, 5 FU
    3/14/2011 CT Scan NED
  • oriontj
    oriontj Member Posts: 375
    #6
    I'm so sorry
    God will hold in his arms and your also through this time. Angels will guide him to heaven and you will see him again.
  • mardigras
    mardigras Member Posts: 215 Member
    #7
    May God give you peace
    I am so very sorry Kateel.
    God will help you through this and hold you and Bill in his arms until you meet again.
    Prayers andlove and hugs.
    Marci X
  • cher76
    cher76 Member Posts: 292
    #8
    Kateel,
    I am so saddened to
    Kateel,
    I am so saddened to read your post. I know how difficult this decision must be for you, as we went through something similar with Rickie's mom. We know that you have done all you can and now it is time to let him go with the angels. Will be thinking of you in the days ahead and praying for you, Bill, and your family.
    Cheryl
  • LeeinLondon
    LeeinLondon Member Posts: 103
    #9
    So sorry
    Hello Kateel;

    I'm so sorry for what you're going through and that you had to make such a decision. We never want to see our loved ones go, but rest assured you've made the right decision in helping Bill finally find peace after his long battle.

    Thinking of you both,

    Lee
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  • jojoshort
    jojoshort Member Posts: 230 Member
    #11
    Dear Kateel,
    Letting go is so very hard but so very right. Bill needs to allow his body to do what it must do.
    You are wonderful to be there for him; what a comfort that must be.
    Keeping you and Bill in my heart,
    Jo-Ann
  • Daisylin
    Daisylin Member Posts: 365
    #12
    jojoshort said:

    Dear Kateel,
    Letting go is so very hard but so very right. Bill needs to allow his body to do what it must do.
    You are wonderful to be there for him; what a comfort that must be.
    Keeping you and Bill in my heart,
    Jo-Ann

    Kateel
    I am so saddened to hear your news. May you find comfort in your memories, and find strength to face the days to come.
    Chantal
  • BMGky
    BMGky Member Posts: 621
    #13
    Prayers for Bill, for you,
    Prayers for Bill, for you, and for your family. I had to make the difficult decision to end my Mother's tube feeding as her dementia had progressed to a terminal stage. While it was heartbreaking in the one instance, it was also uplifting because we knew she could be pain free, in comfort, and at peace with God. May God continue to comfort you and give you strength. Mary Caregiver of my husband Bill.
  • Donna70
    Donna70 Member Posts: 852 Member
    #14
    BMGky said:

    Prayers for Bill, for you,
    Prayers for Bill, for you, and for your family. I had to make the difficult decision to end my Mother's tube feeding as her dementia had progressed to a terminal stage. While it was heartbreaking in the one instance, it was also uplifting because we knew she could be pain free, in comfort, and at peace with God. May God continue to comfort you and give you strength. Mary Caregiver of my husband Bill.

    so sorry
    So sorry to hear this. Bill and yourself have been thru so much. This is the hardest, yet the most loving act, you will be doing as his caregiver. Just so sad that all of this has happened. My thoughts and prayers will be with you, Bill and your family. Hoping God will give you all the strength that you need.
    Donna70
  • noelles_jim
    noelles_jim Member Posts: 12
    #15
    Tears
    May God be with you and Bill. My heart aches for you both. Take comfort in knowing that we all feel for you and yours, you are never alone. Your faith is already showing its strength to get you through the future.

    May God Bless, your are in our prayers.

    Jim
  • fredswilma
    fredswilma Member Posts: 185
    #16
    Kateel
    So saddened to hear
    Kateel
    So saddened to hear about Bill, hoping that you will find peace and comfort in the weeks to come.
    Ann
  • chemosmoker
    chemosmoker Member Posts: 501
    #17
    Prayers and strength be with you Kateel
    Kateel,
    I am so sorry about Bill's condition and no improvement. I know this will be the hardest decision in your life. My heart aches for you and I wish I could do anything to lessen the pain.

    I will pray for you, and I know that Bill will BE with his Jesus finally, no more pain, and if he is meant to go now, he will and will also be in peace. ALL of my strength to you my friend.

    God bless you and we are all here for you, for s long as you want. May God bless you.
    -Eric
  • sandy1943
    sandy1943 Member Posts: 824
    #18
    Praying for God to give you
    Praying for God to give you comfort in the days ahead. It's hard for us to let go, but it's so comforting to know that Bill will be with Jesus.
    Hugs and prayers, Sandra
  • ritawaite13
    ritawaite13 Member Posts: 236
    #19
    I'm so sorry
    Hi Kateel,
    I'm so sorry that Bill's stroke was so severe. Please know that you are both in my prayers. He is at peace with the Lord.
    Rita
  • K_ann1015
    K_ann1015 Member Posts: 500
    #20
    prayers for you & Bill...
    so very sorry to hear the pain you are going through. May you feel & be guided by God's love & wisdom during these so difficult times. I have tears for you---wishing it could make it easier for you.... Iwill pray for you & Bill-- I feel your sadness
  • prettywoman513
    prettywoman513 Member Posts: 20 Member
    #21
    I am so sorry for your pain.
    I am so sorry for your pain. Please know you are being selfless right now and making the best decision possible for him. I understand as I have been in your shoes. Please, no regrets. By doing this for him you are loving him more than ever. I am praying for you and will keep praying in the weeks to come. Know that God will hold you and keep you in His loving arms as he welcomes Bill into His kingdom.

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