Hello Everyone . Journal Entry Number who knows....

Lisa13Q

Good Morning everyone.....first, I want to thank each and every one of you for every post you have made to me over the past 2 years....I am printing some of them up for who knows what reason, but it seems to soothe me....I promise I won't shred them when I'm done...I can't really remember the past few days....we are getting ready for the service June 9th.....and I have been asked to be speaker at my college's 30 year reunion this weekend, so will be heading to Los Angeles next week for that....I have made a slide show for my mother that I would love to share with all of you, but it's an iphoto MAC show and I have no idea how to upload it or make it compatible for PCs....Mom is gone and it's weird....I am grateful that I have so many memories from the past 2 years. Last night we went to my nephew's baseball game and I had a moment of just enjoying it, and then felt such guilt...Mom would have wanted to be there...and I am finding that I mourn more for her grief than anything else...she wanted to live so much and watch her grandchildren grow up....that caused her far more pain than the cancer ever did....she would have endured cancer forever to be with her "kids".......that heartbreak is something that will be with me forever and is what causes me the most pain....I am grateful that we had such an amazing relationship....we fought like cats and dogs when I was younger and we were able to mend every fence we knocked down....what a tribute....so for you daughters and mothers who have any issues, please create peace....between you....it is so worth it...I believe it is a great to have a fence that's mended than a fence that was never damaged at all...omg...it's a good thing I am not a writer.......I am off now......and will get back on the support horse at some point.....right now, i'm trying to take really good care of myself....please send hints about slide show.....Lisa Fang Fish Jack

jbeans888

I am so sorry you have to go
I am so sorry you have to go thru this. I thought your post was beautiful and you make a food point about the dances. It touched me. Thank you.

kikiz

jbeans888 said:

I am so sorry you have to go
I am so sorry you have to go thru this. I thought your post was beautiful and you make a food point about the dances. It touched me. Thank you.

I am so sorry for your loss
I am so sorry for your loss of your mother.

In regards to your photo show, I post alot of things on You Tube as private, that only people that are given the link can see.

Another way you can do it is to send it as an email. Also, anyone with a p.c. that has quicktime downloaded should be able to receive it. I hope this helps and you are able to send it to others. Also don't forget to put it on a disk to save for yourself and future generations. I have made many disks for family members of those who have left us and they may not be ready for it right away, but at some time, they enjoy remembering.

May your mothers beautiful wings surround you with love and peace.

Lori

LaundryQueen

kikiz said:

I am so sorry for your loss
I am so sorry for your loss of your mother.

In regards to your photo show, I post alot of things on You Tube as private, that only people that are given the link can see.

Another way you can do it is to send it as an email. Also, anyone with a p.c. that has quicktime downloaded should be able to receive it. I hope this helps and you are able to send it to others. Also don't forget to put it on a disk to save for yourself and future generations. I have made many disks for family members of those who have left us and they may not be ready for it right away, but at some time, they enjoy remembering.

May your mothers beautiful wings surround you with love and peace.

Lori

Good bye to Momma Joan
Lisa

Please tell us more about your mother if you can...from what you have shared with us, she sounds like she was quite a feisty lady--my kind of girl! I am sure you made her very proud.

(((HUGS)))

LQ

Hissy_Fitz

kikiz said:

I am so sorry for your loss
I am so sorry for your loss of your mother.

In regards to your photo show, I post alot of things on You Tube as private, that only people that are given the link can see.

Another way you can do it is to send it as an email. Also, anyone with a p.c. that has quicktime downloaded should be able to receive it. I hope this helps and you are able to send it to others. Also don't forget to put it on a disk to save for yourself and future generations. I have made many disks for family members of those who have left us and they may not be ready for it right away, but at some time, they enjoy remembering.

May your mothers beautiful wings surround you with love and peace.

Lori

Can you post a slideshow to
Can you post a slideshow to You Tube? That would be awesome!

msfanciful

Hello,
I offer my
Hello,

I offer my condolences to you and your family.

I am so sorry for your loss of your mother.


Sharon

kayandok

Would also love to see
the slide show, if you are up for sharing it!
kathleen

Mum2bellaandwilliam

kayandok said:

Would also love to see
the slide show, if you are up for sharing it!
kathleen

Lisa , i havent got a clue
Lisa , i havent got a clue how you could do it , but the youtube sounds like a plan.
I would love to see some slides of you and your mum.
Lisa don't feel guilty for having fun , its what your dear mum would want and I am sure she was there with you in spirit.
Look at the sky tonight , your mum will be the brightest star up there , shining right back at you.

Take care hun xxxxx

poopergirl14052

Mum2bellaandwilliam said:

Lisa , i havent got a clue
Lisa , i havent got a clue how you could do it , but the youtube sounds like a plan.
I would love to see some slides of you and your mum.
Lisa don't feel guilty for having fun , its what your dear mum would want and I am sure she was there with you in spirit.
Look at the sky tonight , your mum will be the brightest star up there , shining right back at you.

Take care hun xxxxx

Take one day at a time
I am glad you went to see your nephew play, but don't feel guilty as your mom was there too watching over you. I know your heart is broken and you have a lot to do so I will say bye for now..val

Mwee

moments of joy
Sweet Lisa... please don't feel guilty about those moments of joy. I'm hoping you have more and more of them each day.
(((HUGS))) Maria

srwruns

thinking of you. My Mom
thinking of you. My Mom died in 1995 (not of OVCA) and it comes back to bite regularly but then quickly turns into a wistful smile of wonderful memories.

kikz

You're right LIsa
it is a tribute to you and your mom that you were able to mend fences. I am glad you are going on with your life even though at this point it is difficult. The old cliche "Time heals all wounds" is so true even though that is hard for you to believe right now. Thank you for sharing your feelings during this most difficult of times. The fact that you think enough of "us" to even post on the board is heartwarming. I will continue to send good thoughts and prayers your way.

Karen