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Goodbye mama...(my tribute to her)
KathiM
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My mom was not just my mom, but a friend as well. She listened as I struggled with different things in my life, always being my support. And then, when I met my beau, she opened her arms and heart to him and his family. She certainly had her down periods, but she always sprang back from each with great optimism and a willing soul.
I remember when my dad died, she said “I have two choices. Either I die inside, or I go on living my life, keeping your father’s memory with me.” And live it she did! Years later, with her new love, John, she drove the many roads of Southern California in their big Cadillac (she could barely see over the steering wheel!). They frequently ended up on back roads and even fire roads, where the only other vehicles were 4-wheel drive!!!!! She also flew to Holland with her granddaughter and climbed the steep stairs in the Ann Frank House at age 79..when others much younger refused to climb.
My mom was never larger than life to me, but walked beside me. I will miss our daily chats, I will miss her “I love you, too, darling” response to my “I love you, mom”. But, I believe she continues to live on within each and every one of us who were lucky enough to have known her. I feel she has not gone, but just moved from in front of our eyes, into our hearts, where she will live on forever.
I will close with the prayer she said every night, taught by her dad:
Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep,
If I should die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take,
And please, keep everyone safe, so they can smile.
Hugs to my cyber sisters! Kathi
I remember when my dad died, she said “I have two choices. Either I die inside, or I go on living my life, keeping your father’s memory with me.” And live it she did! Years later, with her new love, John, she drove the many roads of Southern California in their big Cadillac (she could barely see over the steering wheel!). They frequently ended up on back roads and even fire roads, where the only other vehicles were 4-wheel drive!!!!! She also flew to Holland with her granddaughter and climbed the steep stairs in the Ann Frank House at age 79..when others much younger refused to climb.
My mom was never larger than life to me, but walked beside me. I will miss our daily chats, I will miss her “I love you, too, darling” response to my “I love you, mom”. But, I believe she continues to live on within each and every one of us who were lucky enough to have known her. I feel she has not gone, but just moved from in front of our eyes, into our hearts, where she will live on forever.
I will close with the prayer she said every night, taught by her dad:
Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep,
If I should die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take,
And please, keep everyone safe, so they can smile.
Hugs to my cyber sisters! Kathi
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~Sweet memories~
Kathi your Mama sounds like a wonderful soul. I took spoke to my Mom daily and she too was my best friend. I am glad you had such a wonderful supportive Mom to help you in your walk here, she now resides in Heaven and I am quite sure will guide gently from there.
Much Love,
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HugsChristmas Girl said:An absolutely lovely tribute, Kathi...
Sending special cyberhugs for you.
Kind regards, Susan
Kathi ... I'm sure you can feel our arms around you now ...
We all know how strong you are ... but even the strongest of the strong need supportive hugs ... and we're here for you.
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Beautifulskipper54 said:beuatiful tribute
That was a beautiful tribute. Mom's are special.
Sending hugs & prayers.
I am truly sorry for your loss. Your mom sounds like she was an amazing lady and I am glad that you and she were close. Not everyone can say that, and that is truly a shame.
As I read your words it resonated with me. My mom has been living with me for the past two years so I know when she passes I will have this huge void in my life.
hugs,
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Having the pleasure of spending time with you ... a weekRE said:~Sweet memories~
Kathi your Mama sounds like a wonderful soul. I took spoke to my Mom daily and she too was my best friend. I am glad you had such a wonderful supportive Mom to help you in your walk here, she now resides in Heaven and I am quite sure will guide gently from there.
Much Love,
RE
before your Mom's passing .. I know first hand the love you shared with Mom. Beautiful tribute, dear one.
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So Sorry For Your LossGabe N Abby Mom said:My thoughts and prayers are
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Hugs,
linda
Kathi, the tribute to your Mother was wonderful, and full of things that you could share with us all. Losing your parents is about the hardest thing in the world, with the exception of losing a child. You and I both have experienced both, and believe me when I say that time may not heal all wounds, but will give you time to reflect on all of the good times you had with all. Hugs to you, Judy
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