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Sometimes I wake up & wonder how I will get through the day

Stargzr
Stargzr CSN Member Posts: 47
in Grief and Bereavement #1
Today is one of those days. I woke up to the thought that I will never see my husband again in this life. It was searing pain!!! My husband was my best friend, my rock, and the love of my life. I have to go to work and at least function on a minimal level, but I really feel like curling up in a fetal position. It's going to be a very hard day!!
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  • Elizabeth15
    Elizabeth15 CSN Member Posts: 37
    #2
    Oh Star...my heart aches for
    Oh Star...my heart aches for you right now...I am so so sorry you feel like you do right now...Elizabeth
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  • mswijiknyc
    mswijiknyc CSN Member Posts: 421
    #3
    one foot in front of the other
    sometimes it's all you can do. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts today.

    titim síochána Bealtaine ar mhaith leat rain.
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  • 3Mana
    3Mana CSN Member Posts: 811
    #4
    I'll think about you today.
    I'll think about you today. Michelle, after today it'll be okay again. I'm sure these days when we lost the loves of our lives will always be hard to get through. Carole
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  • mrsbotch
    mrsbotch CSN Member Posts: 349
    #5
    Hi
    Hi Michele,

    I know exactly how you feel. My husband passed away 8 weeks ago and I miss him beyond belief.
    I have made an appointment to see a counselor on Thursday. I have to talk to someone or I think I will go crazy. My husband was only 63 and had esophageal cancer. I am 57. We were married almost 28 years. he was my best friend and I don't see how I can bare this without him.

    Write me if you can

    barb
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  • grandmafay
    grandmafay CSN Member Posts: 1,633 Member
    #6
    Agree
    Yep, I agree. One foot in front of the other, one day at a time, one moment at a time. Sometimes those steps are even backward. Your world has changed forever. Don't even try to "get over" this loss in a hurry as some think you should. Do what you need to do to keep moving. Take care of yourselves. Time does help, but I still have bad days and times. Most of you are much newer to this than I am. Yet, I still wake up some mornings dreading the day. Usually it is a special day, that month day, a holiday, a family gathering. Sometimes, I don't even know why. Those days when I feel totally lost or overcome with grief don't come as often now. Be patient with yourselves. I've found that what helps me most is accepting my grief and even allowing myself to wallow in it at times. Do what works for you. Fay
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  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby CSN Member Posts: 1,165 Member
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    grandmafay said:

    Agree
    Yep, I agree. One foot in front of the other, one day at a time, one moment at a time. Sometimes those steps are even backward. Your world has changed forever. Don't even try to "get over" this loss in a hurry as some think you should. Do what you need to do to keep moving. Take care of yourselves. Time does help, but I still have bad days and times. Most of you are much newer to this than I am. Yet, I still wake up some mornings dreading the day. Usually it is a special day, that month day, a holiday, a family gathering. Sometimes, I don't even know why. Those days when I feel totally lost or overcome with grief don't come as often now. Be patient with yourselves. I've found that what helps me most is accepting my grief and even allowing myself to wallow in it at times. Do what works for you. Fay

    I got
    here but cant really say how other then angel would want me to go on and i just think of that and i get up and go with tears thou

    michelle
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