Feeling Low

padee6339

Well it seems the CBC count won't come up, I'm not responding to the bee sting so they sent vials of my blood for more workup. Depending on what they find, low iron probably, she will medicae me for that and if that doesn't work, then I might need a transfusion. Then late yesterday my radiologist's office called and said they "lost" my digitals and I need to come in for another press and peel (from October) and then the doctor would talk to me. Somehow I don't believe an office that small can lose those records, so I am stressed out over that. I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Sorry to vent, but I know this is the place to do it. I just wonder what they found in my blood. Wonder if the "lost" records are a reason to get me in for another mammogram. I'm just plain scared. So that's my fears for today, maybe by next week they will be gone, but right now I want to crawl into a hole and stay there.

Love and hugs - Pat

tgf

Pat
I am so sorry you have to go through all this stress. It's stressful enough dealing with diagnosis, treatments etc. etc. .... so ... we shouldn't have to worry about the doctor's office paperwork. They should be able to handle that ... wouldn't you think? Try not to be scared ... and know we feel your frustration.... and you know you can come here and vent anytime you want.

hugs.
teena

CR1954

I'm......
I'm hugging you, Pat. So much fear, so much of the time. And waiting...........ugghh!

I hope that your test results come back better than expected. God bless....

CR

natly15

tgf said:

Pat
I am so sorry you have to go through all this stress. It's stressful enough dealing with diagnosis, treatments etc. etc. .... so ... we shouldn't have to worry about the doctor's office paperwork. They should be able to handle that ... wouldn't you think? Try not to be scared ... and know we feel your frustration.... and you know you can come here and vent anytime you want.

hugs.
teena

Pat sending BIG cyber HUGS
Pat sending BIG cyber HUGS to you. Try to have a good weekend and please check back with us to let us know what the doc has to say.

disneyfan2008

@pat vent away
you are right you can vent here...

MAYBE they really did lose , misplace or spilled something on tests/ films...

keep us updated..

MAJW

It can happen..
If it helps...I've worked in medicine for years...records can and do get misplaced and/or lost....they would never use that as an "excuse" to get you in for more testing....that would not be ethical....
I so understand the sick and tired of being sick and tired!
Wishing you better days,
Nancy

padee6339

Thanks
For the support ladies - I need hugs. The oncologist's office just called and has the results of my bloodwork, but wants me to come in on Monday instead of Wednesday. Now I'm just plain scared.
Pat

Gabe N Abby Mom

The good news about coming
The good news about coming in on Monday is less waiting, maybe the doc just wants to alleviate some anxiety for you. I hope you can push this to the back of your mind and enjoy the weekend.

More hugs for you,

Linda

aysemari

Patti
First I would like to give you a huge warm,soothing hug.

I know exactly how you feel, being sick and tired of being sick.
And the natural instinct is to withdraw and lick your wounds. But
please don't stay in the hole for too long, it's tempting I know.
This is the time to pamper and soothe yourself. Your body and
soul are going through very trying times. It's hard to incorporate
some pleasure when all you seem to be doing is going from
appointment to appointment with about of anxiety and hopeful
anticipation in between. So you have to step outside of this
cancer box and realize your body and soul need you to care
for them. When you feel bad go treat yourself to that CD you
always wanted. Cook that meal that you never had time to
cook before, go outside and look at the sun and trees and
remember better days will come. The way you feel really
effects your physical health.

I hope you feel better soon.,

Hugs,
Ayse

disneyfan2008

aysemari said:

Patti
First I would like to give you a huge warm,soothing hug.

I know exactly how you feel, being sick and tired of being sick.
And the natural instinct is to withdraw and lick your wounds. But
please don't stay in the hole for too long, it's tempting I know.
This is the time to pamper and soothe yourself. Your body and
soul are going through very trying times. It's hard to incorporate
some pleasure when all you seem to be doing is going from
appointment to appointment with about of anxiety and hopeful
anticipation in between. So you have to step outside of this
cancer box and realize your body and soul need you to care
for them. When you feel bad go treat yourself to that CD you
always wanted. Cook that meal that you never had time to
cook before, go outside and look at the sun and trees and
remember better days will come. The way you feel really
effects your physical health.

I hope you feel better soon.,

Hugs,
Ayse

@patti
Well said..!


Denise W

KathiM

Aw, darlin'....I'm sorry you are having a bad time....
I'm sending big hugs!

Dutch hugs, Kathi

phoenixrising

~ HUGS ~
I'm sorry events have you so worried and stressed. One thing we can count on in this world is that nothing stays the same and I hope you are soon on your way up. That the answers they give you will sweep away the stress and worries. Lots of hugs and love ~
jan

fauxma

phoenixrising said:

~ HUGS ~
I'm sorry events have you so worried and stressed. One thing we can count on in this world is that nothing stays the same and I hope you are soon on your way up. That the answers they give you will sweep away the stress and worries. Lots of hugs and love ~
jan

Big, big hugs for you.
Big, big hugs for you. Maybe they want you o come in because they had an opening. Try not to stress too much. We are here and big old prayers are aimed your way.
Stef

pokrydi

fauxma said:

Big, big hugs for you.
Big, big hugs for you. Maybe they want you o come in because they had an opening. Try not to stress too much. We are here and big old prayers are aimed your way.
Stef

Pat I'm learning how hard it
Pat I'm learning how hard it is to wait and having to deal with stuff. With wanting you in earlier, I learned really quick that my doc will push up appts as much as possible to avoid the waiting and the mind wandering to places it doesn't need to go so here is hoping the same is for you. Di

PinkPearl

padee6339 said:

Thanks
For the support ladies - I need hugs. The oncologist's office just called and has the results of my bloodwork, but wants me to come in on Monday instead of Wednesday. Now I'm just plain scared.
Pat

Hugs for you!
I am hoping all of our hugs will get you all the way through the weekend and enought left over to go with you to the doctor on Monday. Try not to worry about going in sooner, at least you won't have to wait as long and you can begin whatever treatment they have planned sooner too.

ladyg

Pat
I am sorry that you are having such a hard time right now. Being scared on this journey is a normal thing. How can we not be? I will send you some positive energy and keep you in my thoughts.

Hugs,
Georgia

Hippiechick58

You can crawl into a
You can crawl into a hole-just don't stay there! I am sorry that you are feeling so down. I am sending positive thoughts and heartfelt prayers your way!

Hang in there,
Dianne

Jean 0609

Oh Dear Pat,
Don't apologize for venting, you know why we are here. Hope you are taking it easy and trying to enjoy your weekend.

Keep us posted.

xoxo,
Jean

carkris

Jean 0609 said:

Oh Dear Pat,
Don't apologize for venting, you know why we are here. Hope you are taking it easy and trying to enjoy your weekend.

Keep us posted.

xoxo,
Jean

I have read on here that
I have read on here that some people have trouble getting their counts up after chemo. that this happens for a least a year afterwards.
Try not to read into anything. You cant tell from what they do, what is going on. They have no idea how they scare us. They need a course on cancer patient 101. I am sure they did lose your films, they should be embarrassed. Perhaps he had a patient cancel and moved your appointment up. My doc is changing my appointment all the time. Try to not let your mind go "there" let us know we care and are there for you.

lizzie17

padee6339 said:

Thanks
For the support ladies - I need hugs. The oncologist's office just called and has the results of my bloodwork, but wants me to come in on Monday instead of Wednesday. Now I'm just plain scared.
Pat

hugs and prayers for you
Hopefully they are just very efficient and want to start helping you Monday and that is all it is.
Hugs and prayers for you, pink sister.
Carol

jo jo

Its seems to never ends but
Its seems to never ends but you know us cancer patients deserve some bad days so you go ahead and vent all you want and we will be hear to listen and send cyber hugs!