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Chemo parties

eric38
eric38 CSN Member Posts: 583
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
It looks like I am going to get a break from chemo parties after the one I am currently having. I get scanned again the first week of February and if all is still clear the doc is going to stop my chemo treatments, unless he changes his freakin` mind again. I `ve already had more than the standard amount. I pray my scan will be clear. I am getting a little burnt out on the chemo parties. I must be old - no more chemo parties for me. I keep telling myself I`m going to quit chemo and it never happens - I am a chemoholic. Hello, I am Eric, and I am a chemoholic. The first step to recovery is realizing you have a problem. Is there a 12 step program for cancer patients? From the moment they unhook me I look forward to my next fix. I dream of taking chemo and being poked with needles. It is the highlight of my life. What will I do when they cut me off? Oh, I know - I will start feeling better and living a better quality of life. Who wants that? I like lethargy and chemo brain. What was I just typing and where am I? It`s time to go to sleep now - I`m tired.

Eric ( : . )
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  • Buzzard
    Buzzard CSN Member Posts: 3,043 Member
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    and that is exactly the reason you will live forever............
    because your survival instinct is so great and you fear nothing......you my son, are an inspiration to us all...........Love and Hope, Buzz
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  • Kerry S
    Kerry S CSN Member Posts: 606 Member
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    This is a 12 step program
    Take it from a guy who has been in AA and sober for 27 years. This web site is like a AA meeting.

    We all get in touch with our own feelings here by reading what other folks are going through. They might use different words then me, but you learn to listen to their feelings. You have a hell of a lot of feelings in you post. I have learned much from here as to where I have been and where I am going.

    Getting ned feels like being sober for a year but knowing you could go down the tube tomorrow. It is down right scary, but is something we all just have to come to terms with.
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  • Buzzard
    Buzzard CSN Member Posts: 3,043 Member
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    Kerry S said:

    This is a 12 step program
    Take it from a guy who has been in AA and sober for 27 years. This web site is like a AA meeting.

    We all get in touch with our own feelings here by reading what other folks are going through. They might use different words then me, but you learn to listen to their feelings. You have a hell of a lot of feelings in you post. I have learned much from here as to where I have been and where I am going.

    Getting ned feels like being sober for a year but knowing you could go down the tube tomorrow. It is down right scary, but is something we all just have to come to terms with.

    and Kerry, congrats for 27 years....
    applaude deserved.........good for you bud, and all of your loved ones.....
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  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh CSN Member Posts: 4,392 Member
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    Tired?
    You bet you're Tired - and sometimes you just need to say so :)

    I hope things settle down for you, Eric - you could use some time away from this - hope your scans are clean too.

    Good to see your "style" is still intact - can't ever take that away from you :)

    -Craig
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  • just4Brooks
    just4Brooks CSN Member Posts: 980 Member
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    Eric.. You helped me through my chemo
    just to let you know you as well as some others have helped me get through my chemo treatments. You a very strong person and i know you'll be fine. You're a angel without wings and I hope you know it. Keep up the fight


    Brooks
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  • luv3jay
    luv3jay CSN Member Posts: 533 Member
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    Oh Eric!
    You read my mind! Keep up the good fight...we must fight together!

    -Sheri
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  • betina61
    betina61 CSN Member Posts: 642 Member
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    That will be great Eric! I
    That will be great Eric! I admire you so much you are such a gift to this board,I'll keep praying for your clear scan in February.
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  • eric38
    eric38 CSN Member Posts: 583
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    betina61 said:

    That will be great Eric! I
    That will be great Eric! I admire you so much you are such a gift to this board,I'll keep praying for your clear scan in February.

    Thanks
    Thank you for all the nice comments. Chemo is tearing me down but I feel built up at the moment. You guys are great.

    Eric
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  • AnneCan
    AnneCan CSN Member Posts: 3,673 Member
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    Best of luck with your scan;
    Best of luck with your scan; I hope your chemo parties are over too! Your sense of humour is fantastic!
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  • Fight for my love
    Fight for my love CSN Member Posts: 1,522 Member
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    You are always in my prayers
    You are always in my prayers and I hope your scan all clear.
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  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 CSN Member Posts: 6,744 Member
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    Enjoy
    Enjoy getting the break from chemo - you deserve it. Also, good luck on your scan in February, hoping and praying that all comes out good.

    Kim
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  • karguy
    karguy CSN Member Posts: 1,020 Member
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    Good luck
    Good luck on your scans,I hope you get to take a long ,long break from chemo.I'll pray every thing comes out ok.
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  • robinvan
    robinvan CSN Member Posts: 1,012
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    Hi Eric
    I'm hoping your scans are clear too! Wouldn't it be nice!

    Peace and blessings... Rob; in Vancouver

    “Life is short,and we do not have much time to gladden the hearts of those who travel the way with us. So let us be swift to love, and let us make haste to show kindness.”
    Henri Amiel
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  • lesvanb
    lesvanb CSN Member Posts: 905
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    Chemoholic, eh?
    I never thought of it that way...hmm..lethargy and chemo brain...ahh,.. those were the days. Eric, I am praying for clear scans for you and some clear sailing for awhile afterwards. That would be great.

    Love, Leslie
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  • lesvanb
    lesvanb CSN Member Posts: 905
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    Kerry S said:

    This is a 12 step program
    Take it from a guy who has been in AA and sober for 27 years. This web site is like a AA meeting.

    We all get in touch with our own feelings here by reading what other folks are going through. They might use different words then me, but you learn to listen to their feelings. You have a hell of a lot of feelings in you post. I have learned much from here as to where I have been and where I am going.

    Getting ned feels like being sober for a year but knowing you could go down the tube tomorrow. It is down right scary, but is something we all just have to come to terms with.

    also congrats for the 27 yrs
    Kerry, I very much enjoyed your perspective especially the "Getting ned feels like being sober for a year but knowing you could go down the tube tomorrow. It is down right scary, but is something we all just have to come to terms with."

    all the best, Leslie
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  • kapper48
    kapper48 CSN Member Posts: 85
    #17
    Good luck with your scans
    Good luck with your scans Eric, I hope everything works out for you, You deserve some good news.
    Pat
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  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 CSN Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    #18
    Keep up the fight
    Eric,

    You keep fighting, because we love you here. Good luck with the scans!

    *hugs*
    Gail
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  • kimby
    kimby CSN Member Posts: 797
    #19
    Oh Yeah
    Eric, I am so with you! I am so sick of chemo and radiation and surgeries....But, just like you, I won't stop until I'm NED. I'll keep going if I have to, just like you will. We are both just too stuborn for anything less.

    Kimby
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  • P_I_T_A
    P_I_T_A CSN Member Posts: 133
    #20
    Good luck on the scans..
    Keep on keepin' on brother!

    -DJ
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  • thready
    thready CSN Member Posts: 474
    #21
    eric38 said:

    Thanks
    Thank you for all the nice comments. Chemo is tearing me down but I feel built up at the moment. You guys are great.

    Eric

    Chemo Party
    Eric,
    If you miss the chemo parties, I go every other week in Grapevine, just down the road, you could come to my party. We asked for Movies and Popcorn yesterday, but all we got was The Weather Cannel. If you are tired of chemo parties it looks like we are going to have Radiation parties, I hear those are a real buz! (HE HE HE-chemo brain humor)

    Eric you are an ispiriation!
    Jan
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