I know some of you may not understand this, but i thank God for my bc. I serve an awesome God and when my mother -in law said "you dont deserve this". I said why not? I am no different than anyone else. I am blessed to have the Lord Jesus Christ guiding the Doctors and my treatment. He has given me a peace I cant explain. That does not mean I dont get scared and overwhelmed because I do. Mt surgery is Wed and I appreciate your prayers and support. I will keep all of you in my prayers as well. God wants me to learn something from this and I am going to try to let go and let God. I am praying that is has not reached my lymphnodes, but if so, The Lord has provided a wonderful set of sisters (all of you) to share, cry, and talk to. You all are so wonderful and I am glad that I found this site, even though I had to have BC to find it. Girls we are fighters, we have a purpose. God said he would never give us more than we can handle. when we cant handle it, he will carry us. I would like for you to remember Mike a friend of mine at church. He lost his son (34 yrs) old two years ago in February. He has just been diagnosed with Prostrate Cancer. Early stages. He is having a difficult time as well. Thank you so much for all of your responses, your thoughts. Wow I am amazed at the support. I am proud to be in this sisterhood and if ever I can be of any help I will. Be sure you all will be in my prayers as well. God Bless each of you wonderful warriors. Af ter the surgery I will seek a second opinion regarding treatment options. If it is felt that a mastectomy would be better, hopefully I can schedule that at a later date.