Well it's happening... my hair is starting to shed. Funny story... I told my 11 yr old boy and he said 'oh really?' and he grabbed my hair and took out a BUNCH of strands. He stood holding them in his hand, feeling bad, and said 'hmmmm, well can we put them back in?' It did make me laugh! Only out of the mouth of babes. Anyway, I'm not dealing too well. I've had a few panic attacks since realizing that it's really happening. I'm a very positive person, and I truly thought I was prepared, but I'm starting to feel like this might be the hardest thing yet. And I feel ashamed because I should be focusing on the fact that I came through my 1st chemo treatment with flying colors... barely any side affects and feeling quite healthy actually. I guess I'm just really scared that any self-confidence I have left is going to be shattered! Breast cancer seems to have taken every feminine part of me away, starting with the boob, can't tan, can't have my nails done, and now I will lose my hair. I want to focus on the good... I have three beautiful and healthy kids and I thank GOD for that. But I can't help but admit that I can't seem to shake this lump in my throat now that my hair has begun to fall out. Oh, and the clincher is, I just hate the wig I ordered and the company I ordered it from is a total rip off. They want to keep $45 for a restocking fee and I lose out on shipping costs. Leave it to me to make a bum deal. Ok, so I vented a little and it feels a little better. Anyone have any stories of how they got through this?