I went in for a routine mammogram and they found a lump, did an ultrasound that day and a biopsy two days later. I teach and on the first day of school they called to tell me (at 9:00 am) that my biopsy was positive and that I have invasive ductal carcinoma. They knew that I was I at work because I told them where I was - I know this was the radiologist and not my gp who ordered the mammo. but was anyony else told so matter of factly? I'm lucky that my sister also teaches at the same school so she was right there for me. I was rocked after the mammogram but I feel fine and just have to keep repeating to myself that I have cancer because it is so surreal. My stomach is a mess and I have to use ambien sometimes to help me sleep. I also have a 12 year old son who is bipolar so I was given a very mild anxiety medicine and only use it if I really have to. Mu surgery is scheduled for friday 10/2 and I have already been told that I will have 6 weeks of radiation and will be able to use tamoxifen. I'm worried about my family but my biggest fear is recurrence. My grandmother had a masectomy and lived for 17 more years but she died of 3 different forms of cancer. Can anyone tell I am rambling? I feel like I've lost my mind and can barely remember anything. Thanks for letting me ramble sometimes I just don't know what to do.