I've found this great forum after searching the web about breast cancer, which I was diagnosed Sept. 18. Still waiting for all tests to come in. I had the pet scan done 2 days ago and will be getting the port put in Monday, oncologist on Wed. So much waiting and worrying, it's unbearable. I cry when I'm alone and keeping a strong face when around others. My worst fear is the chance it has spread all over. It's 3 cm in right breast and also in armpit lymph nodes. I just want it out NOW. They plan to shrink it with chemo first then lumpectomy, but that could change. It's an unbelievable experience, one I thought I never would. So many worries. I'm 49, married with 2 teen daughters. Husband has depression anyway and now this. I've been reading on here for a few days and thought it's time to join.