On friday I am having my port put in and on the following tuesday I have my first chemo treatment. My children do not understand why I am so scared. Is it normal to be as scared as I am. I read on aarp.org website of a womens experience with her first treatment and she went into all the details of what was happening to her as she was recieving treatment and I just have to say its alittle bit scarry I thought that if I kept reading it it would ease my mind, but the closer tuesday comes the more afraid I am. I am at stage 3 breast cancer and I have agreed to do the Phase III study. Man the anxieties. This day shall too pass.