As many of you know I have been coming here for about 5 years. My husband is disabled due to falling off a gasoline tanker in 1979, so we've been to hell and back several times. The last few years he has gotten a lot worse. Rite now he is in need of back surgery really bad. His workemans comp is raising cane and saying no, so we are having to fight them for the surgery. Hubby's mental state is not real good either, whether it is from all the pain meds he is on or something else, I'm not sure. I was just starting all the paperwork for his surgery when my cancer came back last week. If I don't start chemo next week I will go to his doctor and get more statements from him. We do have the Texas Workmans Comp board behind us now which I'm sure will be a big help. Hubby is not really any help in this because he's been thru back surgeries before and is afraid he won't make it thru this one. Then there is my son James, 29 years old. He also has had a rough life due to all our problems. Also bad friends and drug problem. A good friend of his had us send him to California a year and a half ago, and my son has gotten himself straight and worked a good job but now wants to come home because he can't stay away from his 4 yr old daughter and wants to be here to help us. He called at least 5 times last nite, terrified of what is happening. He had to keep hanging up to get hold of himself. He is so afraid for me, but is more afraid of what is happening to his dad. He says that I am the strongest person he knows and that I will come thru the cancer ok. (Wish I had the same confidence) There is just so much going on, I'm getting lost as to what to do. Any ideas from the ladies here will be welcomed with an open heart. I don't really have any close friends to turn to and my sisters and brother are all over the country. My daughter is in Michigan.
My prayers go out to all of you,