stressing that i can't remember

ami1

hi everyone, this is my first post here and i'm so grateful to have found this site as i don't have anyone to talk to that could possibly understand. i hope someone here might be able to help.
I had a stage four Wilm's tumour when i was three, and have now been clear for nearly eighteen years. i've never really given being a cancer survivor much thought until last year. It suddenly dawned on me that i'd been through something momentous and scary, and more importantly survived. My parents think i'm lucky that i can't really remember but that's what stresses me out the most. it's the biggest and worst thing i've ever faced and i can only remember bits of it and i still don't fully understand all the treatment i had and it's effects.
i really give myself a hard time trying to remember. Has anyone been through something similar? or has anyone got any suggestion? i would really appreciate some input.

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rutensar

I haven't posted yet on this
I haven't posted yet on this forum, either, but I had to when I read the post you'd made. You basically took the words out of my mouth, I guess. I was diagnosed with stage III hepatoblastoma at 15 months and have been disease free for 18 years, as I'm now 22. I never gave it a second thought until I ran into some health problems in college and all of the sudden, my doctors were all asking about my history... and I didn't know what to tell them. I've never been able to get my parents to talk about it at all, so I tried requesting my records from the hospital that I was treated at when I was little, but I didn't get much from them. As much as it sucks, it's great to hear that there's someone out there going through the same emotions. I hope you check back here, since your post is from a while ago.

Survivor86

rutensar said:

I haven't posted yet on this
I haven't posted yet on this forum, either, but I had to when I read the post you'd made. You basically took the words out of my mouth, I guess. I was diagnosed with stage III hepatoblastoma at 15 months and have been disease free for 18 years, as I'm now 22. I never gave it a second thought until I ran into some health problems in college and all of the sudden, my doctors were all asking about my history... and I didn't know what to tell them. I've never been able to get my parents to talk about it at all, so I tried requesting my records from the hospital that I was treated at when I was little, but I didn't get much from them. As much as it sucks, it's great to hear that there's someone out there going through the same emotions. I hope you check back here, since your post is from a while ago.

Were you records destroyed? I have recently tried to obtained mine for disability, and found out my records had been destroyed from the oncologist who lost her medical license, radiologist and the hospital where I had treatment. I was diagnosed with stage IV Hodgkin's and wasn't espected to live. It has been 23 years since my treatment, and I'm experiencing alot of health problems. I am thankful to be alive!

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