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Thank you, my family

KathiM
KathiM CSN Member Posts: 8,027 Member
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
Thank you all for your warm thoughts and prayers. I am keeping busy, getting things settled, and replaying the fond memories of my daughter. When she was 'on', she was the kindest, most gentle person. I was not going to have any memorial, but then I realized I am not the only one who should be allowed to let go of their grief, so I will organize something for her friends and people she touched in her life.
This morning, I couldn't sleep, so was up doing more work, when I looked out and saw (much to my surprise!) it was SNOWING!!!! Steph and I used to play in the snow, so off I went outside in my robe and slippers (it IS So Calif, after all, and I was afraid it would melt if I got dressed). It was a grand experience, and I felt her right next to me.

Thank you again to all of you!

Hugs, Kathi
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  • spongebob
    spongebob CSN Member Posts: 2,565 Member
    #2
    Kathi -

    I haven't posted this in a while, but your story about the snow made it just that much more relevant (especially line 4):

    Do not stand at my grave and weep
    I am not there; I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow,
    I am the diamond glints on snow,
    I am the sun on ripened grain,
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning's hush
    I am the swift uplifting rush
    Of quiet birds in circled flight.
    I am the soft stars that shine at night.
    Do not stand at my grave and cry,
    I am not there; I did not die.

    Steph is still with you - in your memories and everywhere you look; like in the Southern California snow.

    Love,

    - Sponge
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  • goldfinch
    goldfinch CSN Member Posts: 733
    #3
    What a lovely visit your daughter gave you!
    Mary
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  • jams67
    jams67 CSN Member Posts: 925 Member
    #4
    This is the first time I have been back since the holidays and I had to go back and see what happened to your daughter. It it raining here and that is very appropriate weather for the way I feel. I'm so sorry. jams
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  • usakat
    usakat CSN Member Posts: 610 Member
    #5
    Kathi, dear friend,
    I haven't been online much lately (I went back to work) and missed your first post. Please know I'm here for you - call anytime, day or night, and it's a quick drive to RC if you need a shoulder or anything else. I'll be keeping you in my prayers. And big, big hugs to you everyday.
    Katie
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  • vinny3
    vinny3 CSN Member Posts: 928 Member
    #6
    Kathi,
    That snow was her sign to you that she is fine. Take care.


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