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Kazenmax
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so yea, having the ole scanxiety! I finished treatment last December. The first scan at the end of 2018 was NED. It’s been 3 months and time for the next one and of course I can’t sleep. I wish I could turn off my brain. My sister, who I dearly love, tells me I must meditate and ”see” myself as healed. I really want to... I do But that’s so hard.

When the cancer came back, it was in my left lung. I never had symptoms. I took an aggressive approach and rather than bother with a biopsy, I had surgery and a third of my lung was removed with clear margins. Now I’m just scared. I don’t know when you ever feel confident about your health again. 

I know it’s hard for family and friends to understand how it feels. Everyone has their own life to live and are busy with just living. I know the people on this board can relate and I appreciate being able to express how I feel here.

thank you all for your support.

k

Pamcakes
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Sending prayers and positive vibes to you!!!

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myAZmountain
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Praying you have scantastic results and NED!!

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Diane_K
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We know how you feel.  I hope it goes well. Let us know when you get the results.

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Trubrit
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May you have a quick scan and even quicker good results. 

Tru

feckcancer
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Good luck. thinking of you. xx

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SandiaBuddy
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"Scanaxiety," a term only those who have had cancer can really understand.  I keep two months of calendars on my refrigerator, and when the scan stares me in the face it truly is sobering.  It seems like a good night's sleep left me permanently after the initial diagnosis.  I do not know if that is age, the disease, or something else.  And yet, it beats the alternative.  We undertand fully the anxiety and wish you a good result (and an appropriate celebration).  Best of luck to you.

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beaumontdave
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We all get it, the only effective treatment for me was not thinking about it, blocking it from my mind as much as I could. If I felt it creeping in, I'd starting singing a song in my head, or out loud. Just pick an obnoxious earworm that won't go away, like a Sousa march, AC/DC or something. I've even had "How Great Thou Art" going round and round in my head while I was doing stuff, just to crowd out anything that might sneak in. Anyway, it sounds silly, but it works for me.....................................Dave

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Lily Flower
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I hope and pray that you will receive a good result! Just keep yourself busy to avoid the scanxiety. I'm sure Tru already has her little dancing man ready. Lol

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Lily Flower
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I hope and pray that you will receive a good result! Just keep yourself busy to avoid the scanxiety. I'm sure Tru already has her little dancing man ready. Lol

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Sestra17
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Oh my gosh, I know how you feel. My recipe is " be realistic, and don't be afraid to hope" Sending you a big hug!

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Trubrit
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Kaz, I just read your post on Sandia's thread.  How wonderful to have goals. I see your riding with your grandchildren, and loving it. 

Don't push too hard, even if it is a year out. Still early days. Go gently and build up to it. 

When do you get your results? 

Tru

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Kazenmax
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Results are Friday. 

Its crazy. I just got off the phone with my dear cousin who was just told she has lung cancer, stage 2b. somehow I can pep-talk the heck to her but have a hard time with myself. Lol.

thanks Tru. I will report results one way or another as soon as I know.

k

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Annabelle41415
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Scans are hard and the waiting is torture.  Prayers are with you for a great scan.

Kim

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Kazenmax
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Ct scan shows no evidence of disease. Blood counts are improving. Everything looks great. Next visit in 3 months.

Thank you all!

K

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Trubrit
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That is just so exciting to hear. 

Come, celerate. Dance with my little freind Happy Dancing Men

    super happy dance emoticon

Tru

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SandiaBuddy
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Congratulations on the good results!  Now you have three months of peace in which to really live life.

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Lily Flower
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Congratulations! That is awesome news! 

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myAZmountain
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So wonderful to hear you are still NED! ENjoy the next few months!

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Melanie67
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I am so happy for you. 

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beaumontdave
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Good news indeed!!! Now enjoy the spring, renewel comes in many forms...............................................Dave

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Annabelle41415
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That is awesome news.  Thanks so much for sharing that and take a deep breath and go out and celebrate.

Kim

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