Scan today

Kazenmax
Kazenmax Member Posts: 463 Member
in Colorectal Cancer #1

so yea, having the ole scanxiety! I finished treatment last December. The first scan at the end of 2018 was NED. It’s been 3 months and time for the next one and of course I can’t sleep. I wish I could turn off my brain. My sister, who I dearly love, tells me I must meditate and ”see” myself as healed. I really want to... I do But that’s so hard.

When the cancer came back, it was in my left lung. I never had symptoms. I took an aggressive approach and rather than bother with a biopsy, I had surgery and a third of my lung was removed with clear margins. Now I’m just scared. I don’t know when you ever feel confident about your health again. 

I know it’s hard for family and friends to understand how it feels. Everyone has their own life to live and are busy with just living. I know the people on this board can relate and I appreciate being able to express how I feel here.

thank you all for your support.

k

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  • Pamcakes
    Pamcakes Member Posts: 112 Member
    #2
    Sending prayers and positive

    Sending prayers and positive vibes to you!!!

  • myAZmountain
    myAZmountain Member Posts: 417 Member
    #3
    Praying you have scantastic

    Praying you have scantastic results and NED!!

  • Diane_K
    Diane_K Member Posts: 84 Member
    #4
    We know how you feel.  I hope

    We know how you feel.  I hope it goes well. Let us know when you get the results.

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,804 Member
    #5
    Thinking of you, K

    May you have a quick scan and even quicker good results. 

    Tru

  • feckcancer
    feckcancer Member Posts: 189 Member
    #6
    Good luck. thinking of you.

    Good luck. thinking of you. xx

  • SandiaBuddy
    SandiaBuddy Member Posts: 1,381 Member
    edited March 2019 #7
    Scanxiety

    "Scanaxiety," a term only those who have had cancer can really understand.  I keep two months of calendars on my refrigerator, and when the scan stares me in the face it truly is sobering.  It seems like a good night's sleep left me permanently after the initial diagnosis.  I do not know if that is age, the disease, or something else.  And yet, it beats the alternative.  We undertand fully the anxiety and wish you a good result (and an appropriate celebration).  Best of luck to you.

  • beaumontdave
    beaumontdave Member Posts: 1,289 Member
    #8
    We all get it, the only

    We all get it, the only effective treatment for me was not thinking about it, blocking it from my mind as much as I could. If I felt it creeping in, I'd starting singing a song in my head, or out loud. Just pick an obnoxious earworm that won't go away, like a Sousa march, AC/DC or something. I've even had "How Great Thou Art" going round and round in my head while I was doing stuff, just to crowd out anything that might sneak in. Anyway, it sounds silly, but it works for me.....................................Dave

  • Lily Flower
    Lily Flower Member Posts: 260 Member
    edited March 2019 #9
    I hope and pray that you will

    I hope and pray that you will receive a good result! Just keep yourself busy to avoid the scanxiety. I'm sure Tru already has her little dancing man ready. Lol

  • Lily Flower
    Lily Flower Member Posts: 260 Member
    #10
    I hope and pray that you will

    I hope and pray that you will receive a good result! Just keep yourself busy to avoid the scanxiety. I'm sure Tru already has her little dancing man ready. Lol

  • Sestra17
    Sestra17 Member Posts: 72 Member
    #11
    Scan

    Oh my gosh, I know how you feel. My recipe is " be realistic, and don't be afraid to hope" Sending you a big hug!

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,804 Member
    #12
    Bike on!

    Kaz, I just read your post on Sandia's thread.  How wonderful to have goals. I see your riding with your grandchildren, and loving it. 

    Don't push too hard, even if it is a year out. Still early days. Go gently and build up to it. 

    When do you get your results? 

    Tru

  • Kazenmax
    Kazenmax Member Posts: 463 Member
    #13
    Trubrit said:

    Bike on!

    Kaz, I just read your post on Sandia's thread.  How wonderful to have goals. I see your riding with your grandchildren, and loving it. 

    Don't push too hard, even if it is a year out. Still early days. Go gently and build up to it. 

    When do you get your results? 

    Tru

    Results are Friday. 

    Its crazy. I just got off the phone with my dear cousin who was just told she has lung cancer, stage 2b. somehow I can pep-talk the heck to her but have a hard time with myself. Lol.

    thanks Tru. I will report results one way or another as soon as I know.

    k

  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    #14
    Prayers

    Scans are hard and the waiting is torture.  Prayers are with you for a great scan.

    Kim

  • Kazenmax
    Kazenmax Member Posts: 463 Member
    edited March 2019 #15
    NED 11 months!

    Ct scan shows no evidence of disease. Blood counts are improving. Everything looks great. Next visit in 3 months.

    Thank you all!

    K

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,804 Member
    edited March 2019 #16
    Kazenmax said:

    NED 11 months!

    Ct scan shows no evidence of disease. Blood counts are improving. Everything looks great. Next visit in 3 months.

    Thank you all!

    K

    Wooo Hooo!

    That is just so exciting to hear. 

    Come, celerate. Dance with my little freind Happy Dancing Men

    image    super happy dance emoticon

    Tru

  • SandiaBuddy
    SandiaBuddy Member Posts: 1,381 Member
    #17
    Kazenmax said:

    NED 11 months!

    Ct scan shows no evidence of disease. Blood counts are improving. Everything looks great. Next visit in 3 months.

    Thank you all!

    K

    Congratulations

    Congratulations on the good results!  Now you have three months of peace in which to really live life.

  • myAZmountain
    myAZmountain Member Posts: 417 Member
    edited March 2019 #18
    Terrific News!

    So wonderful to hear you are still NED! ENjoy the next few months!

  • Lily Flower
    Lily Flower Member Posts: 260 Member
    #19
    Kazenmax said:

    NED 11 months!

    Ct scan shows no evidence of disease. Blood counts are improving. Everything looks great. Next visit in 3 months.

    Thank you all!

    K

    Congratulations! That is

    Congratulations! That is awesome news! 

  • Melanie67
    Melanie67 Member Posts: 24
    #20
    Wonderful news!

    I am so happy for you. 

  • beaumontdave
    beaumontdave Member Posts: 1,289 Member
    #21
    Good news indeed!!! Now enjoy

    Good news indeed!!! Now enjoy the spring, renewel comes in many forms...............................................Dave

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