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  • Clevelandguy
    Clevelandguy Member Posts: 767 Member
    Size vs cancer

    If people are so concerned about the size of their penis then they should not have the RP and go with radiation that effects other internal organs.  If my penis is 1 or 2" shorter due to surgery but I am cancer free that is a small price to pay.  I never went around showing my member off to other people anyway so nobody know accept  my wife & I.  If the length of your shaft is that important then you have other problems.  My wife is happy just to have the cancer gone,  we all have to make choices.

    Dave 3+4

  • VascodaGama
    VascodaGama Member Posts: 3,513 Member
    Superior-quality-life !!!!!

    No one can expect a fair answer from a doctor in regards to the quality of life post therapy. They only treat and that includes their specialty or business interests. The following two links comparing surgery against radiotherapy and vice versa are evident demonstration on the issues involved. While the radiologists take the side effects into consideration the "Counterpoint"-by an urologist focus on the treatment outcome. Interesting indeed;

    Which-treatment-modality-in localized-prostate-cancer-yields-superior-quality-life;

    http://www.cancernetwork.com/prostate-cancer/point-which-treatment-modality-localized-prostate-cancer-yields-superior-quality-life-radiotherapy

    http://www.cancernetwork.com/prostate-cancer/counterpoint-which-treatment-modality-localized-prostate-cancer-yields-superior-quality-life

    Best,

    VG

  • MK1965
    MK1965 Member Posts: 231 Member
    QoL

    Thanks VdG.

    This is what I am preaching for last 13 months. RP as research supports is worst then radiation therapy in all elements of trifecta.

    It ruined mine and thousands and thousands of other people lives.

    Younger prostate Ca patients who value QoL and want to preserve sexual function, according to research, should avoid surgery unless surgery is what their blindly want. 

    I know, for me is to late. What is done it’s done. To cut is very seldom late. Isn’t life about preserving and saving what it could be saved and all of that with one single goal to preserve QoL.

    MK

  • lalo61
    lalo61 Member Posts: 1
    edited December 2017 #5
    Quality of Life

    It has been 11 years since my diagnosis and RP surgery.  Quality of life has been the central struggle and challange during this period. My doctor all but assured me that I only had a 5%  chance of being incontinent or impotent.  Well, it turned out that the 5% was in fact 100% as it relates to impotence; however, incontinence is very mild but does exist. I didn't hide from life. I tried every form of ED treatment I could afford, and I have even seen a therapist regularly for 10-years. The failed relationships, male identity crisis, fear of rejections, and vulnerability were a constant. I have recently begun adjusting to a life without female relationships.  I had surgery at age 47.  I was very young and uninformed. I firmly that my doctor was too cavalier with my life. I felt violated and cheated by him.  It seemed almost criminal.  But what can you do after the fact? I had to find a new normal.  It took me 11 years. It was a very, hard and long road. I did prevail not because of, but in spite of, the doctors. I will give special credit to my therapist. She specialized in body trauma.  I am not sure that I could have made it this far without her kind ear.  

  • Swingshiftworker
    Swingshiftworker Member Posts: 1,013 Member
    There is no doubt . . .

    . . . that radiation treatment provides the least risk and greatest probability of a better quality of life following treatment for PCa. 

    I have been pounding my keyboard repeatedly trying to make this known to newbies who have logged on here over the past 7 years following my treatment with CK, which is the best method of radiation treatment currently available IMO.

    It's not that the are no risks from radiation.  There are but they pale in comparison with the potentially life-altering risks presented by surgery which not only include the shortening of the visible penile length but also the possibility of permanent ED and incontinence, as MK1965 so awfully discovered.

    My message to newbies has simply been, why subject yourself to the risks of surgery when a potentially less draconian and equally successful method of treatment -- namely radiation -- is available?  

    When I had to make the choice, I decided that there was no reason take such a risk and fortunately some men have made a similar choice based on my advice.  I just wish that MK1965 had also been one of them.

  • Clevelandguy
    Clevelandguy Member Posts: 767 Member
    Good to hear fishinguy

    Hi,

    Good to hear you had a sucessful outcome from your RP.  Very good story on your RP journey, sounds like you did your research and made your choice.  According to MK1965 & Swing, you & I must be the only two people within five galaxies that have had a success.  That's why I have always said to get the best doctors & hospitals for any type of cancer treament, surgery or radiation.  And oh by the way my penis still seems to be just about as long as before, but then again I never was obsessed about the length of my member.  Surgery is a good and viable option with a lot of good sucess stories, the same goes for the various forms of radiation treatments.  We should be able to come to this forum and get realistic, honest facts and real life experiences and not scare tactics who favor one form of treatment over another.  Do you research and pick you choice based on facts and not someones biased opinion.

    Dave 3+4

  • lmered
    lmered Member Posts: 7
    Your not the only two

    I had my RP performed by Dr. Patel at Florida Hospital 8 years ago last month. Pre surgery gleason 4 + 3=7 post 5 +4= 9.  No ED problems after the first year, penis size is the same as before surgery.  As far as incontinence I had issues before cancer diagnosis, many surgeries with multiple catheters which caused a lot of scar tissue.  Dr Patel even told me that before they could insert the catheter in the operting room for my RP they had to do a roto rooter job.  A few months ago I had a AMS 800 artificial spincter surgery since it got really bad this last year but I don't attribute it to the RP.  I agree the problem is you need to go to the very best surgeons with the most experience if you expect good outcomes.  Everyone that I know that had seeds or radiation around the same time I had my rp are dead.  

  • fishinguy
    fishinguy Member Posts: 18
    edited December 2017 #9
    For me, respectfully a different opinion

    I've been reading on this site for a number of months, and researched.   I also belong to another forum which I have been more active.   This post lead me to create an account and post. 

    I have read many stories of issues after RP, as well as good outcomes.  They concenred me to an extent during my decision process this past summer.   However, as in most Internet sites, whether Amazon or Forums, I think people with issues tend to be more vocal and sound alarms to protect others.   All in all a great thing.  However, with my diagnonsis June 2017, I was able to talk with people around my core set of freinds adn their faimily members who directly had prostate sugery and radiaiton.  I put as much stock in their opinions, and maybe more, than those I read online.  All but one I met face to face had RP.  All but one had near-zero issues a few months after surgery and retuned to a very active normal life.  The one with issues had regrets, but did not vocalize he wished he had been treated differently.  The only one treated with radiation had wished he had surgery, he was at the 5 year mark.   He was better early on, but his incontinence issues had been continually degrading quickly.  He was really down.   It was a very small sampling of 5 people.   I write this only as my pesonnal reference tot me as you read on.

    I met with three good surgeons.  First Open Sureon,  I don't recall a reference to penis length.  The second an RP sureon as he explained the surgery talked about the removal.  As he told me they would remove the prostate by snipping the urethra at base and apex and then stitch urethra and bladder togther, I immediately visualized the process.  I asked him which end makes up the loss.  He chcukled and told me it was a good queston, "either the bladder drops a bit, or yes the penis will be shorter".   I had my answer.  Never asked surgoen number three but didn't need to, but he made a quick comment about it.

    End of August 2017, I had my RP.  Catheter removal after 2 weeks and I had zero issues with incontinence once removed, not a drop.  Mayo gave me a #4 huggies as a pad on the drive home, it was dry all day.  Wore a diaper two nights just in case, was never wet in the morning.   Woke once each night to pee.  After the second night, never used one again, and never used a pad since the drive home from the hospital.   My story more closely aligned with the people I talked to then what I read on the forums.

    I have no real ED issues.   Still not 100%, but it's better thatn 80% and I figure in a year it'll be closer to 95%.  When I step out of the shower, is my littel buddy shorter?   I'd say most mornings he seems to be, but not always.  When erect, I'm not so sure, I haven't really noticed a difference.

    Tens of thousands of men have this surgery.  Hundreds are active on these forums.   Probably the same percentage as the few I talked to compared to those I comminucate to on a forum.

    My advice to friends as they age wth me, as they may have prostate issues, will be the same as I state here.   Research your options fully, make the decisoin you feel right is for you and hope for a cure and be ready for side effects in teh short and long term.  But I wil let them know how it worked for me.

    One more note, it is hard to post a great success story as I read others with not so good outcomes.  It is why I tend to stay silent, read and continue to learn for me only.  But I do want people to know this surgery does and can work very well.  I don't believe I am a small minority.   I think all of this ties into your overall health going in, the agressiveness and stage of your cancer,  and the size of your prostate ties into this at surgery time.  OH!! and without a doubt, the skill of you surgeon.

    I was a diganosed 4+3.  Pathology downgraded to 3+4, small margin of <.1 cm and my very recent first post-op PSA at 90 days was <.04

  • MK1965
    MK1965 Member Posts: 231 Member

    Clevelandguy and others with “good outcome “,

    I do talk about real life experience don’t I?  I experienced it for 13+ months and still do.

    Is it my fall that I did not have good experience? 

    MK

  • RobLee
    RobLee Member Posts: 269 Member
    edited December 2017 #11
    Thank you IMERED

    In this thread it is so good to hear from at least one other guy who has had to deal with SERIOUS PATHOLOGY. I will forever remember his quote... Everyone I know that had seeds or radiation around the same time I had my RP are dead.  And here's another one for you... "Dead men have no erections"... and apparently neither do men on Lupron.

    For the rest of you, I have to ask, where the heck are your priorities?!!  If the size of your penis is your greatest concern, then as someone else noted, you have problems elsewhere to deal with.

    As I read this thread I just shake my head. Going into my fifth year battling high risk prostate cancer, I can't help but be amazed at where your heads must be. You should consider yourself fortunate if you had a '3' appear in your path report. And realize that without an RP, you would not even HAVE a pathology report. Likewise if you had a single digit PSA, or if your cancer was detected on the first biopsy, if you even qualified for something like Cyberknfe or heck, even if your doctor took you seriously when your symptoms first appeared.

    Now I've had both an RP plus eight weeks of daily radiation and I'm still on Lupron, plus cannot pee without first squeezing the bulb in my scrotum. The proctitis and frequent diarrhea brought about by the radiation is the worst side effect that cannot be dealt with, uh,  mechanically. Given the opportunity to go back and change anything, it would be to have had the surgery much sooner, and none of the rest would likely have been necessary. And now the scars from my RP and AUS surgeries join the rest of the no less than sixteen surgical scars on my body.

    So if you're griping because your tiny weenie got an inch shorter, MAN UP. And pray that this is the worst health problem you will ever have to face in your lifetime.

     

  • Clevelandguy
    Clevelandguy Member Posts: 767 Member
    edited December 2017 #12
    Good comments

    Hi RobLee,

    Great comments, I could not have said it better.....................

     

    Dave 3+4

  • AZ Guy
    AZ Guy Member Posts: 9
    edited December 2017 #13
    Experiences are different

    I have followed MK's posts since my diagnosis and can understand his concerns. Prior to surgery I was low-risk, low volume Gleason 6. I was concerned about ED, incontinence and size but wanted to be aggressive and went ahead with RP. The good news was that I emerged with no ED, no incontinence, and perhaps a minor, hardly noticable reduction in size. But the bad news is that I still have cancer. First PSA was .40 and now I'm scheduled for Salvage Radiation and have had the Lupron shot. 

    Everyone's experience is different. It's understandable to be upset about ED and loss of size. I'd rather worry about those things then about arresting the cancer. It's like there should really be two Forums....one for those who are continuing the battle with cancer and one for those who have had success against PCa but are dealing with side effects. 

  • Clevelandguy
    Clevelandguy Member Posts: 767 Member
    AZ Guy said:

    Experiences are different

    I have followed MK's posts since my diagnosis and can understand his concerns. Prior to surgery I was low-risk, low volume Gleason 6. I was concerned about ED, incontinence and size but wanted to be aggressive and went ahead with RP. The good news was that I emerged with no ED, no incontinence, and perhaps a minor, hardly noticable reduction in size. But the bad news is that I still have cancer. First PSA was .40 and now I'm scheduled for Salvage Radiation and have had the Lupron shot. 

    Everyone's experience is different. It's understandable to be upset about ED and loss of size. I'd rather worry about those things then about arresting the cancer. It's like there should really be two Forums....one for those who are continuing the battle with cancer and one for those who have had success against PCa but are dealing with side effects. 

    Good thoughts

    Hi,

    The main objective for me was to get rid of the cancer in the cleanest way possible with the least amount of side effects.  I chose Davinci RP and have no ED after 3 yrs. and just a small stress leakage.  I can live with the one side effect as long as the cancer is gone.  I keep hoping for more un detectable readings.  People have chosen radiation with similar results and thats fantastic.  I really feel sorry for MK1965, but I would sacrifice my sex life any day to be rid of prostate cancer.

    Dave 3+4

  • 1005tanner
    1005tanner Member Posts: 29
    edited December 2017 #15
    fishinguy said:

    For me, respectfully a different opinion

    I've been reading on this site for a number of months, and researched.   I also belong to another forum which I have been more active.   This post lead me to create an account and post. 

    I have read many stories of issues after RP, as well as good outcomes.  They concenred me to an extent during my decision process this past summer.   However, as in most Internet sites, whether Amazon or Forums, I think people with issues tend to be more vocal and sound alarms to protect others.   All in all a great thing.  However, with my diagnonsis June 2017, I was able to talk with people around my core set of freinds adn their faimily members who directly had prostate sugery and radiaiton.  I put as much stock in their opinions, and maybe more, than those I read online.  All but one I met face to face had RP.  All but one had near-zero issues a few months after surgery and retuned to a very active normal life.  The one with issues had regrets, but did not vocalize he wished he had been treated differently.  The only one treated with radiation had wished he had surgery, he was at the 5 year mark.   He was better early on, but his incontinence issues had been continually degrading quickly.  He was really down.   It was a very small sampling of 5 people.   I write this only as my pesonnal reference tot me as you read on.

    I met with three good surgeons.  First Open Sureon,  I don't recall a reference to penis length.  The second an RP sureon as he explained the surgery talked about the removal.  As he told me they would remove the prostate by snipping the urethra at base and apex and then stitch urethra and bladder togther, I immediately visualized the process.  I asked him which end makes up the loss.  He chcukled and told me it was a good queston, "either the bladder drops a bit, or yes the penis will be shorter".   I had my answer.  Never asked surgoen number three but didn't need to, but he made a quick comment about it.

    End of August 2017, I had my RP.  Catheter removal after 2 weeks and I had zero issues with incontinence once removed, not a drop.  Mayo gave me a #4 huggies as a pad on the drive home, it was dry all day.  Wore a diaper two nights just in case, was never wet in the morning.   Woke once each night to pee.  After the second night, never used one again, and never used a pad since the drive home from the hospital.   My story more closely aligned with the people I talked to then what I read on the forums.

    I have no real ED issues.   Still not 100%, but it's better thatn 80% and I figure in a year it'll be closer to 95%.  When I step out of the shower, is my littel buddy shorter?   I'd say most mornings he seems to be, but not always.  When erect, I'm not so sure, I haven't really noticed a difference.

    Tens of thousands of men have this surgery.  Hundreds are active on these forums.   Probably the same percentage as the few I talked to compared to those I comminucate to on a forum.

    My advice to friends as they age wth me, as they may have prostate issues, will be the same as I state here.   Research your options fully, make the decisoin you feel right is for you and hope for a cure and be ready for side effects in teh short and long term.  But I wil let them know how it worked for me.

    One more note, it is hard to post a great success story as I read others with not so good outcomes.  It is why I tend to stay silent, read and continue to learn for me only.  But I do want people to know this surgery does and can work very well.  I don't believe I am a small minority.   I think all of this ties into your overall health going in, the agressiveness and stage of your cancer,  and the size of your prostate ties into this at surgery time.  OH!! and without a doubt, the skill of you surgeon.

    I was a diganosed 4+3.  Pathology downgraded to 3+4, small margin of <.1 cm and my very recent first post-op PSA at 90 days was <.04

    Glad you are doing well. Im

    Glad you are doing well. Im thinking about surgery at this time 3+3=6 gleason t2a tumor left apex 25% .  psa 2.97 just found out last month.

    Any suggestions greatly appreciated.  Been to local urologist and also Vanderbilt for slides re read. 

  • Max Former Hodgkins Stage 3
    Max Former Hodgkins Stage 3 Member Posts: 3,736 Member
    AZ Guy said:

    Experiences are different

    I have followed MK's posts since my diagnosis and can understand his concerns. Prior to surgery I was low-risk, low volume Gleason 6. I was concerned about ED, incontinence and size but wanted to be aggressive and went ahead with RP. The good news was that I emerged with no ED, no incontinence, and perhaps a minor, hardly noticable reduction in size. But the bad news is that I still have cancer. First PSA was .40 and now I'm scheduled for Salvage Radiation and have had the Lupron shot. 

    Everyone's experience is different. It's understandable to be upset about ED and loss of size. I'd rather worry about those things then about arresting the cancer. It's like there should really be two Forums....one for those who are continuing the battle with cancer and one for those who have had success against PCa but are dealing with side effects. 

    "Two Forums"

    AZ,

    The problem with the notion of 'two forums' here is that the two issues -- eradicating cancer, and dealing with side-effects, are inseperable.  Either inevitably affects the other. 

    My daughter sent me some pictures today off of a camara she had found.  There were several of my dead friend Gary, who died of PCa in around November of 2013, after 13 years of fight.  They are now the only photos that I have of him.  Gary did it all: RP, 45 doses of IMRT, years of HT, Taxotere (chemo), and then the new castration-resistant HTs (Jevtana, Zytiga).  The IMRT ulcerated his colon, and he had to have surgical cauterization of his colon periodically.  Profound dehydration was his immediate cause of death, how the cancer killed him.  Water poured out of him like there was nothng between the mouth and the rectum.

    Nonetheless,  12 of those years were (mostly) good years. Gary worked almost full time (despite being retired as an engineering manager), and was extremely active with his antique cars.  Lots of girl friends (meaning friends who were girls). He was always on the go, and never bitc--d about anythnng; no griping.  I was with him most of his last year, since his family all lived out of state.  I went to all of his oncology appointments and treatments, and learned a great deal from the NPs.  It served me well, when 1.5 years later, I got diagnosed with PCa myself.  I have known many other men who had had RPs.  None ever voiced a complaint, ever.  Two others died eventually also (one only in his late 40s).  All were thankful of life, however, and did say THAT.

    Gary's last 4 months or thereabout were horrible, I will spare the details.  When you watch a man die of PCa, you will know that having cancer is worse than side-effects. Every time.  

    When I met my friend, a Radiation Oncologist, to discuss using RT against my disease, he said "Rationally, any man approaching this will have 3 priorities, and in this order: (1) eradication of the disease, (2) continence, and (3) potency.  This is a logical, rational assessment, not an emotional one, or one based upon individual preferences.  I latched on to is statement, since it was a conclusion I had already reached myself.

    Rob Lee above made a brilliant statement about side-effects being less serious (to a sane individual) than death: Dead men don't have erections.  That reminds me of a slogan I have held to for years: I'd rather have side-effects than have cancer.  The two are always interrelated.  Any man who believes he has no cancer following successful treatment must recall that relapse can happen to anyone, even to a man following seemingly complete cure.  Many writers here describe relapse 10 years or more after zero PSA. The same post-RT....YEARS later.

    Cure is always Job 1.   And Cure is reason for complete thanksgiving.

    Most men here are close to natural impotence anyway.  I read an occasional 70-something complaining of it, and shake my head.  They would most likely be impotent by their age without any PCa having ever occured.   It is tragic when it happens to a man in his 50s.  But it is not death.  I've looked at death many times, and it is not death.  My mom grew up during the Great Depression in the Deep South; people starved to death. She used to have a saying, "I regretted having old shoes, until I met a man with no feet."

    Perspective is everything.

    max

     

  • MK1965
    MK1965 Member Posts: 231 Member
    Deaths for any reason

    max & clevelandguy,

    you two are my biggest opponents on this forum and never supported or agreed to anything I posted. OTOH, you guys are trying to make me mentally incapable. All what I am trying to voice here is that surgery ruiNed my life at the age of 51. 

    Based on my experience, I don’t beleive giving men the odds of success is helpful.  I believe informing a pre-surgery patient that he could experience a complete loss of erectile function is more realistic.

    I also believe that men who experience the loss of erectile functioning after surgery should receive follow up with a healthcare professional until is known where he landed post surgery and it should take for a minimum of three years.

    In most cases recovering from RP takes a few weeks. Recovering from side effects and QoL issues brought on by RP, takes a lifetime.

    No one prepares you for this reality before surgery.

    Death and daing is not pleasenth situation neither for daing nor others who are loosing loved ones. I saw it all in medical and surgical ICU and it was work related. Thanks God for my last15 Year’s being away from bedside and working from home comfortably from my own office.

    As I said many times, I will never be satisfied with RP even if I would wake up tomorrow with raging

    erection. I already suffered enough with SE and now even my marriage is on the cliff and very shaky.

    If I never had RP, I would save myself from all of thise and still would live comfportably with  Ca in me. QoL was always my priority.

    I already acommplished in my life what I planned to. Death is not worse then being alive and not be able to do what you did yesterday.

    MK

     

     

  • Clevelandguy
    Clevelandguy Member Posts: 767 Member
    Sorry you are so bitter MK

    Hi MK,

    I don't see myself as an opponent of anyone on this forum.  Just trying to get the truth out so people can make an informed choice by what they read here.  They can see your surgery did not go well but others have had surgeries that did go well.  People need to read both sides so that they can make an informed decision on their path.  Your last line "I already acommplished in my life what I planned to. Death is not worse then being alive and not be able to do what you did yesterday." really troubles me.  I think that this road you are going down is not a good one.  I wish you would please seek professional counceling for you to get through your anger & depression.  Sorry to hear that this has caused marital problems, that does not help the situation.

    Dave 3+4

     

     

  • RobLee
    RobLee Member Posts: 269 Member
    Max, Cleveland and especially MK

    First off I must apologize for the tone of my earlier post above. I promised myself that I would not post when feeling like a cynical old man, but I did and it came off sounding both bitter and insensitive.  But please understand that I do not regret the RP at all, eventhough it has changed my life dramatically.

    The decision to get the AUS and thereby altering how I must do something that we all do all day, every day for the rest of my life was a more difficult decision than was the RP. And the decision to remain on HT for the time being was also not taken lightly, especially since the outcome of the HT+RT will not be known for at least another year from now.  And the SE's of the HT plus the emotional trauma of battling cancer since early 2014 now has me taking antidepressants, for the first time ever, and probably for the rest of my life. None of this was easy, but it DID save my life as well as my marriage and I will never forget that.

    Yes, the surgeon saved my life. My wife and I DID consult with RO's and chose surgery for a varrety of factors. I will spare the details here, but will also add that my experience with the RP and the surgeon who performed it was the most favorable experience of the dozen or so surgeries that I've ever had... and I say this even in light of the fact that it left me both incontinent and impotent and STILL required a full course of radiation a year later.

    So yes, I know what it is like to have had a bad experience with illness or injury and especially surgery, and the lasting effects they can have on your psyche as well as physical abilities and emotional well being. I have been bitter about the outcomes of my own experience with surgeons. But that bitterness affects one's self more than anyone else. And it takes time - years - to get over it. The anger eats away at you from the time you wake up til you finally drift off to sleep, emotionally exhausted.

    But eventually you realize that you made the best decision you could at the time and given the information you had at that time. You can't go back and change ANY of that. Guilt and regret will haunt you until you accept that any other course of action could have potentialy had far worse consequences. Consider THAT as a possibility.

    Thank you all for your contributions. We all suffer together, as well as hopefully help each other with our struggles.

  • MK1965
    MK1965 Member Posts: 231 Member
    Failure and try

    As one philosopher said:” You May be disappointed if you fail, but you can’t be successful unles you try.”

    Yes, I did try.........

    MK

  • MK1965
    MK1965 Member Posts: 231 Member
    Way more then tiny weenie

    RobLee,

    Is way more then tiny weenie......

    Every day many other things are remainding me of something I should not do against my will.

    Just yesterday while in gym at elliptical machine going a bit faster I started to leak that go with any excercising if I go with pre RP speeds, weights or any strenuous movents which were my typical routine. I was active all my life and I want to continue but I have to be aware of speed I can run comfortably or weights I can lift. Otherwise, my stress incontinece takes control. If I sit doing nothing I am fine, dry all day.

    Changes that followed RP are dictating my life and controlling my abilities.

    With 4+3 which after surgery was downgraded to 3+4 but bilateral, I could comfortably live stress free life.

    To see final pathology was not important to me at all. Maybe for others that meant something but not for me.

    If it would be emergent surgery for life saving, I would accept any outcome. But my surgery was elective and it was done with my consent (against my will because I wanted to do nothing, worst case scenario would be radiation) so is very hard to accept consequences.

    To cut out most likely would never be to late at least in my case. And at 75, I would not care about ED and shorter penis.

    At 52, my tool is very valuable to me and on second place behind my brain. To be clear, i am not in porno industry.

    MK