Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
Hello friends. This is a report on the last 17 months since the discovery of my Stage 4 with very advanced bone matastases. I chose the treatment of Orchiectomy and taking Casodex. This is a report on the result of those treatments. My cancer has never been a problem. Never any side effects, pain, or weak bones. The treatment has been a disaster. Here are the treatment side effects for me.
Loss of energy
Emotionalism – crying, confusion
75% loss of strength
Total change of body
Loss of appetite
Very difficult to exercise
Continual hot flushes
4 inches added to stomach
I have changed from a super active, very strong, healthy 81 year old to an old, feeble man at 82. Now, I can hardly get up out of a chair. I used to be one of the strongest guys in the gym, and now I am the weakest. I take full responsibility for my past decisions, and for the ones I am now making. I have aged 15 years in the last 17 months, and I think it is because of lack of testosterone. I have stopped the Casodex and will start testosterone therapy ASAP. My quality of life is not acceptable at present. I am tired, old, and worn out. I cannot go to the mall without needing a place to rest every ten minutes. Maybe the testosterone will accelerate the cancer, and in the end kill me. But I feel with certainty that my body is telling me that the present treatment will also kill me with a heart attack or stroke. When I die, I will go out on MY terms. I choose to be the master of my fate, and not some doctor who may be as misinformed as the doctors of old who cured by draining the patient’s blood.
I am going to listen to my body. Just as now I am an old feeble man, I know I can reverse that with weight training and testosterone. I have all my affairs in order, and length of life is no longer a question or important. Quality of life is my priority now, and living as I am now is no longer an option. I am now changing my treatment program to the ideas expressed here: http://blogs.naturalnews.com/from-quantum-physics-to-end-of-life-planning/
By the way, two weeks ago I had a MRI. I wanted to know if the cancer had spread. The report was that the cancer was exactly the same now as 17 months ago. The only involvement is in the bones and prostate. My prostate has shrunk from 100 grams to 30. So, my doc thinks the treatment has been successful. We certainly have a conflict on what “success” means. I am fully aware of the supposed risks of TRT with stage 4 Pca, and I accept those risks. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3424887/
Bicarb of Soda and Cancer
I take a teaspoon and ½ of bc twice a day. Some say that twice that is needed. The purpose of bc is to produce an alkaline body, which is healthier than an acid body. I also drink PH 9 water. Some say that an alkaline body inhibits cancer growth. I had two caretosis on my left hand, one medium and one small. I rubbed Bs on these and in one month, they were gone. Here is an interesting discussion on cancer and alkaline: http://www.cancerfightingstrategies.com/ph-and-cancer.html#sthash.KGtyWNoZ.YxOOSIK6.dpbs
Now, these guys are peddling natural cancer cures, and may be totally bogus, but there is some interesting reading in any case. I may try their supplements and will get back.
I have added the following to my supplements. Cocoanut oil, BCAAs, and conjugated linoleic acid. I also drink cocoanut water every day and eat Guaynabo. My diet is as before, but I tend to eat more raw foods than before.
Look, there are no right or wrong decisions with Pca. It is not a case of what fits one fits all. No one can foretell the outcome of whatever treatment is chosen. In my case, if given the chance to start over, I would now without question refuse ANY treatment. Of course, I am quite old, and I think older guys may realize that life is about over in any case, and therefore make the decision that gives you quality of life rather than quantity. I have learned not to trust most doctors, but to trust those who have PROVEN themselves to be looking at my well fare and not the well fare of the dr’s bank account, and there are many of those in the medical profession.
Courtesy of Vasco Da Gama, here are my earlier posts. There is also a list of my supplements here.
With much love, Swami Rakendra
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