Oct 15, 2012 - 12:52 pm
I absolutely was NOT going to post ....was going to get CAT scan today and do CEA's and keep my mouth shut. I have been so blessed and so many people here are struggling right now.
So here I sit sunk in fear, completely convinced of more cancer....just took .5mg of ativan to get through....i have never had a scan booked so late in the day....3pm...usually get the morning.
Hubby is a writer and he is volunteering to do a fund raiser for residential hospice for our town....I think this is wonderful.....BUT NOT TODAY....I just don't want to talk about it for a couple of hours anyway...
so only two more hours to stew....point I guess is....is it even possible to get over this wretched fear and anxiety about cancer....can we ever escape and find some peace....?
love to you all
my gp just phoned me at home.....how late do they work to say liver and lungs look good....waiting for CEA
tired .....talk tomorrow