not strong enough

Been there
After my first AC treatment, I was so sick I didn't think I could go thru the rest. It hit me so bad - Yuck!! My dr decreased the meds and things improved somewhat - just treating all the side effects tho. I had sores in my mouth, nausea etc. Between the 2nd and third - right there in the oncology waiting room, I had a flight or fight reaction and ran out of the office. I returned in a few minutes and gutted it out and continued. I can say I am now done with all treatment and I'm recovering pretty well. You can do it! I feel I'm proof! It sucks along the way but fighting this nasty stuff with all you have shows what you've got!

Talk to someone about your fears - I did and it helped tremendously!

Lots of good vibes are sent your way!
Karen

Same thing happened
After my first dose, I collapsed in the hospital entrance and I got this lovely private room in the corner on my floor for a week. And such great attention! They lowered the dose and I tolerated it well, but when we were all done the onc was disappointed at the lack of a successful response. Ohh well, proceeded on to the rest of the options, and they seemed to have worked.

I believe they are listening, and they believe you, I overreact to meds too. You must trust your docs or change them.

Good luck on the rest of your journey.

Praying
that you will find some form of relief.

disneyfan2008 said:

sending pixie dust your
sending pixie dust your way..

so sorry you are going through this.

Denise

After three treatments every
After three treatments every 3 weeks of cytoxin and taxotere, my lungs were done. I had continual pneumonia and interstitial pneumonitis - I truly believed I was going to die. I just couldn't breathe or stop coughing. My doc put me on anastrozole for four weeks to give my lungs a break but still inhibit estrogen production, and then put me on abraxane which is generally used for metastatic cancer, which I didn't have. My side effects were nominal except for some neuropathy in my feet, which I certainly was willing to tolerate. My margins were excellent and wide when they did surgery in March. The breast tissue only showed a few 1 or 2 millimeter spots even with a 4 x 3 tumor. Perhaps there are your doc could try an alternative chemo - many of them will research alternatives. Asking is free - try it. In the meantime, know that you are in my prayers.

Hugs,

Pam

Very sorry
So very sorry you're going through this and feeling this way. This does bring back some bad memories. I was fine through my four A/C treatments but right before the 8th of 12 taxols I went in for blood work, sat down and started crying, saying I couldn't finish I was done. Everyone was so shocked because up until then I'd been the poster child for chemo. Done what they said, didn't complain, I was always fine. Well there was nothing fine about the way I was feeling. Eyes watered all the time, nose ran all them time. Black circles around my eyes a raccoon would be proud of. My voice was almost gone, I had trouble eating because I developed heartburn. I was so tired all them time. I was still working to keep insurance and money going and would have had to feel better to die. I cried every morning because it was just too tough. They'd already lowered my taxol dose by 10% and couldn't lower it anymore and I still had 4 doses to go.

I told my MO I wanted to quit - I'd do the 9th but that was all. He said OK that was fine. Then I flipped the crazies on him and said I couldn't quit or I'd die. He gave me a hug told me he totally understood and that I should go home talk with my husband and decide after the next's days treatment what I wanted to do. My husband's face told me I wasn't quitting and I did end up finishing all 12 doses. It took a little over a year, but I finally got back to feeling my new normal.

Chemo does suck, there's no denying that, but it's something that you may find you can get through.

Best of luck whatever you decide to do.

marge

Sorry
I am so sorry you are feeling so bad. I just finished my last set of chemo two weeks ago and I am still feeling ill from the effects and understand how frustrating it is. I just want to wake up and feel good!. Everyone here says we will make it through and I have to trust that we will. Giving up is not an option! Please talk with your doctor some more about options.. also, are you on any anti depression medications? you might consider that you may need that for this part of your treatment.. depression can intensify your sick feelings too, or at least did for me.
I say a prayer for you and send hugs your way!

Hang in there
I hope the responses you've gotten are an encouragement to you. It has not been, in no way, easy for you. It's human nature to tire of a hellish situation. Our body may tire and protest with what it's being put through, but your mind and soul will compel you forward toward the finish line. You can do it, you already are. Hang in there.

Hugs and well wishes to you.

you will make it-trust GOD!
I havent even started raditation yet and its been since april25.I wasnt a canitdate for chemo as my lungs are bad with copd and my heart goes out to you.whew! first time in my life that I have long hair to my waist but guess what? when it comes to saving my life,well the hair has to go.stay strong and pray alot.

carkris said:

I was very ill from chemo
I was very ill from chemo and still recoveing afte 2 years. I crawled across the finish line, but crawl I did. I am glad I finished although during the time I didnt know how I was going to. it was one day ata time, one hour one second. Huge Hugs

Please hang in there. I
Please hang in there. I know you can find the strength to continue. Let us do what we can inre to supporting you and encouraging you.


Hugs, Lex

GrandmaJ said:

strong enough
ASK FOR HELP. I went to psychiatrist before chemo because of my anxiety. He put me on Lexapro which helped immensely. Even with that, when they started the chemo, I had a panic attack and they gave me Ativan each time. I did still have some reactions afterwards like fatigue, thrush, and diarrhea, but all were taken care of by my doctors and some meds.

We all hate everything about breast cancer......I hope you find the strength to get through your next treatment.

Judy

Funny thing is that I felt the very same way .... during
my chemo therapy -- I ended up in the ER several times, fainted etc ..

My only advice -- is to 'Never give up, or Never give in'. Fight, Fight, Fight

If you have to stay in bed, then stay in bed -- push yourself to walk around the
house, yard, indoor shopping mall -- anything to get you moving. Yes, I know
you are in pain, yes, I know that you don't have the energy -- but, moving helps
your body to heal and re-gain strength.

Hydrate and move --

Gentle hugs, and prayers.

Vicki Sam