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Buzzard's picture
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Just finished another round of chemo. It is however staving off the cancer as my baseline CEA started at 67, the next check was 36, and this one yesterday was 20.7. My Onc informed me that if it kept heading down that I will be a candidate for a chemo break about the end of March. Says I can stay off until they see a subtle change in CEA direction. This makes me so nauseous its insane, but it seems to be working for the time being. Thank all of you for the cards and well wishes, I just haven't felt like doing anything at all.
She did tell me that since there was such small amounts of cancer in me that they compare each scan very closely to see how chemo is doing. She says that there shouldn't be any major change because of the small amount of cancer in me, but its simply in some peculiar spots...
I did take a Christmas chemo break where I did feel like doing a little. I am spending a lot of special time with my children and thats great.......I love each of you, I just have the need to isolate myself for a while. It helps clear my head.....I wish all of you well in the new year........buzz

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I'm so happy about your prognosis and CEA dramatically dropping !
Best wishes for the new year my friend!

LivinginNH's picture
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Hey Buzz! So good to see you on the board and hear that your CEA levels are going down - that's really great. :-)

Happy New Year!


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Glad to see your post but sorry that you still aren't feeling well. I'm sure that you will be looking forward to that chemo break. Wishing you a Happy Healthy New Year. Give us updates when you can.


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Great to see you post :) Sorry about not feeling well, does the onc. have no ideas to help you with anti-nausia meds??

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So good to see you here again, if only for a moment.

Glad the chemo is working, just wish it was kinder to the rest of you.

Thank you for letting us hear from you. You are missed, but we all understand the need for time away.

Blessings to you and may you have years more with your kids.

Marie who loves kitties

karen40's picture
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It's so nice to hear from you. I'm glad you were able to take a chemo break for Christmas. It's great that the chemo has been doing its job. I just wish it wasn't so hard on you. Continue on enjoying your children and don't worry about us.
Happy New Year and God Bless,

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it is good to see your face.i dont post much either just usually take my chemo then get scans.just remember we are here for you and still holding that rope....Godbless....johnnybegood

wolfen's picture
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Really great to see your handsome face and to hear your CEA is dropping. So sorry about the extreme nausea. So many here have that terrible side effect. May the new year bring better health and more time to spoil those kids. Check in again when you're up to it.

Luv Ya,


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It is so good to hear from you. Thanks for the update. Chime in every once in awhile because you are such an inspiration for all of us. I am happy you are getting some time off treatment to enjoy your holidays. Lisa

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It's so good to hear from you Buzz!I think your news sounds like it's going in the direction we want? I sure am sorry about the chemo effects.. I hope the time goes by fast as you enjoy your kids.

Miss you, plh4gail

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I'm glad your still here,and your CEA is dropping.I hope you get better,and have a nice happy new year.

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I think of you often, and your calming voice is missed.

May the new year bring you good news,


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Nice to see you! We are praying for you!


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So happy to hear from you, Buzz. The dropping cea is wonderful. i hope the new year brings you good health, and much joy. lord knows you are due for some!!!

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Hi Buzz,

I'm glad to see and read your post! I'm glad you've gotten to spend some good times with your kids. Sorry you've had such a hard time on the irinotecan. I had a horrible time with nausea and vomiting when I was on it, so I can relate to that. But it's great to hear it seems to be working and that your CEA is dropping!

Take care & please check in every now and then so we don't worry about you :)


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It is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD to hear you are doing okay and holding your own. I pray for you often and am so glad when I got on tonight that the first one I saw was you! I am doing well; I had an MRI on 12/23 and they only could see about 15 lesions on my liver compared to the 30+ they saw in July and Sept. They are only on the right lobe instead of across both lobes as they have been and my tumor marker this time was 1.0!! Buzz; if it hadn't been for you and your encouragement and talks with me throughout this year, there are times I think I would have given up. My goal before the end of this year was to make sure I told everyone thank you for whatever they have done to support me in this fight. Thank you for being there. Thanks for your words of wisdom. I know in my heart you are going to keep getting better. We will beat this Clift! I am going to keep believing; for both of us....for ALL of us. Hang in there and stay well. Have a very Happy and healthy New Year and I hope to see you on the board again soon. Take care of yourself dear!

Love and hugs,


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its been awhile...glad your cea numbers are dropping..sorry about the nausea..hope it will get easier..love and hugs

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Glad to hear you're back amongst us, Clift. Missed you. Surgery , cimetidine etc is our mantra. Maybe yours, too. Happy New Year.

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hoping for the best for us all.
welcome back.


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..for posting Buzz, love ya, we do miss you but we know you'll come back when your ready. :-)

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Great to see ya, Buzz. Praying 2012 will be turning things around.

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Thank you for stepping in and giving an update. I have kept you in my prayers...and wish for you a better year in 2012...

Hugs, Kathi

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Good to see your face again :)

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I'll be sending prayers and light your way that you get that chemo break in March.
Glad things are moving in a positive direction even though it has been so difficult for you.
Take care,

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So good to see your post today. Have missed seeing you on here. Really hope the new year is good to you. Take care, Brenda

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glad to hear:)

know the regimen is hard glad you have time with your kids.


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@Buzz: So goooooood to hear from you...my biggest birthday gift today! :) Yay! I'm so happy to see you up here again! How are you doing? Sounds like you're beating cancer, huh? Nice!!! :) Oh my! I'm so happy to see you, I don't even know what to write....yay! Well, Happy New Year for you!!! And I will be crossing my fingers for you for the March break! :)
- Sophie

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It is so good to hear from you. Wonderful that you are spending good time with your kiddos. Know that many of us hold you in our hearts and prayers.


steve g
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I had the same procedure as you only 3 or 4 months later and it was you who helped me through a very difficult time. For that I will be forever gratefull, thanks for checking in, I was worried about you. Just had my 3 year scan and so far all clear, colonostomy is this week. Hope the new year will be better for you and wishing you the best......Steve

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Buzz I cannot tell you how happy I am to see you.

all blessings for the New Year.....


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What a wonderful way to start 2012, reading that you are okay. I have been so concerned about how you were doing. I am and have been keeping you in my every prayer. So thankful that you are doing as good as you are and I hope each day gets better and better for you. Hang tough, you have so many friends here that love and care for you. Happy 2012 and wishing that all your hopes and dreams come true. You are the best.

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Hey, Buzz!

It's so good to see a post from you! I'm sorry you've been so sick, but it's wonderful news that the chemo is bringing your CEA down so well. That's fabulous!!!

Praying you will be much improved in 2012!


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I am rarely on the board but I checked in and I too am happy to see you again! sorry you are having to go through this but glad for you that it is working and am wishing you a Happy New Year.
In the Light,

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Kenny H.
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Glad to see you post again & keep us updated. 2012 looking up for you so far.

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Nice to hear from you Buzz. You are always in my thoughts. Glad that the chemo is doing its job but sad you are having a rough go. Wishing you healing and love in 2012.


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How wonderful to hear from you!! May your New Year bring on an even lower CEA count. Love to ya buddy!
Winter Marie

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Have a Happy New Year Buzz

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Such good news about CEA dropping and doc saying that there's so little cancer in your body. Aggh, such a tough treatment! Thinking of you!

all the best, Leslie

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Happy New Year Buzz!
I am happy to hear that your chemo is working . . . . . but sorry that you have to go through so much with each infusion. Special time with children makes the world a happier place - you are blessed to have them in your life.
Hoping that 2012 seems continued progress for you!
yoga jo

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I don't post often but do check in occassionally to see how folks are doing. Have been so worried about you as I have not seen any post in a while. Signed in just to see if there was any word and saw this. I am so relieved to read your post. May God bless you in the new year and give you strength and peace.

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It is good to hear from you, we all tend to worry here when someone drops off the map. But I can understand needing to take a break. I am sorry the chemo has been kicking you around. I hope it does what it is supposed to do and I am glad you were able to be off it for Christmas

May health and happiness be yours in the new year!!

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if you ever doubted we love ya, you can get over that.....you are a hero to so many, and a friend to all...Glad to hear your treatment is working, so glad to hear your getting good time with your little ones... Miss you buddy.....know we are all thinking of you...


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