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“SUNDANCE vs CANCER” – The Results Post

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Faster than a speeding locomotive – Able to leap tall buildings in a single bound – Look! – Up in the air! – It’s a bird! – It’s a plane! – It’s…..it’s……awww $hit, it’s only Sundance:)

LOL:)

The “Betting Windows” are now officially closed, so I hope you got your wagers down – there was sure plenty of time:)

Well, this is finally the post that I have waited for and waited to write. And also the one that many of you have waited for as well. Almost a year in the making and through it all, it has been a “Watershed Moment” in my journey.

I suppose when I reflect back on it, we could say that it’s the most influential battle of my entire campaign. There was much at stake to be won or lost.

It carried huge significance as I motored on toward my 7th year of this incredible saga. And all the time, never knowing exactly which way the battle was going to go. Would I win? Or would I begin to slip?

The stakes we were playing for was my very existence, which I believe we can all agree, is worth playing for. The difference is we had to fight like there was never going to be tomorrow – because that’s always in the cards and is the key component that weighs so heavily on all of our minds.

It’s a funny feeling looking back on this past year. In many ways, it still feels like yesterday – and then on the other side, it seems like a lifetime ago.

Cancer played a dirty little trick on me this time. We know he does not play fair and is a dirty fighter. He used the DaVinci tumors the time before, to lull us into a false sense of complacency while he stealthily hid behind my lungs and gathered his forces, before he could again announce his presence in my body for this last year’s fight.

When I was still in the hospital after this lung surgery, I remember a nurse bringing me my pathology report. Even dazed on morphine and with blurred eyesight, I could still make out the words…”Colorectal Mets to Lung.”

And I remember thinking, “Now, you’ve showed yourself, you SOB!” I sat up in bed and thought, “I’ve got you now.” You’ve just kicked the sleeping dog – you just woke up the Gentle Giant. So, once again, it was “officially back on.”

Strangely though, I felt some sense of comfort in those words, in the fact that I again knew what I was going back up against….there was no guessing anymore, there it was in the report. It was time once more to “get my mind right to fight.”

Once I found out the surgery did not completely remove the malignant tumors, I knew it was going to a really long and hard road, with no shortcuts. I was going to have to go all in and gut this one out for the long haul, if I was to have a chance at any kind of victory.

You all know there were times when it looked like I was beaten. Down and out for the count is what’s ahead for our good old Sundance, folks were probably thinking – put a fork in him, he’s done. But then again, you don’t know Sundance:)

I’ve always said I may “bend or waver” during the fight, but that I would never “break.”

Maybe that’s not an entirely true statement. Perhaps, it depends on what your definition of “break” is. In fact, Cancer had me beaten and on my knees begging for either “Death or Mercy.” It had me beaten at the time, but not broken for the long haul of the fight.

“The CURE” had me beaten as well this time , but I stayed strong enough to complete the entire protocol “by the numbers.” It was really difficult this time to mentally and physically step through all the obstacles that stood in our way. As I’ve said before, it gets a little harder to keep taking the pounding, the longer you stay in the fight.

The mind and heart are still willing – but the body just doesn’t “bounce” like it used to. I think this is the biggest difference in an old veteran fighter vs the newly diagnosed.

While the surgeries and treatments have compromised our bodies, we learn we must adapt and use our experience and smarts to fight on, instead of relying on a new body that is just starting out.

My medical team continuously put the foot on the gas and we were very aggressive in our treatment plan and there was no time to rest. We relentlessly pursued our target and stayed in the attack mode the entire time.

Oh yes, I can be beaten – I can be hurt – I can bleed – I can suffer. I am just a mortal man, composed of blood & flesh..

However, on the other side of the coin, I can also be tenacious – persistent – stubborn – and relentless in my own pursuit. My horoscope is “Cancer, the Crab.” I’m a “July Baby.”

We’re loveable, friendly, and loyal – but when fuc*ed with, we raise our pinschers and will snap you. We’re a very formidable force to reckon with. When we hit back, it hurts too, just like we were hurt. We only fight when provoked though and let’s face it, Cancer does provoke us, doesn’t it?

Here’s the last topic I wanted to discuss. Let’s talk about our roommate – HOPE.

What an interesting fella’ this guy is, am I right?

He’s very elusive and if we’re not real careful, he can just slip out of our fingertips and just be gone. And when he goes, he’s sometimes hard to find again.

And when Hope moves out, Depression can move in – then he invites Despair, Hopelessness and Loneliness to the party, and from there our lives can disappear and become nothing but existence.

And that’s a very bad place to be – especially for too long. I know, because I spent 9-months with all of those guys this year. They are not nice “house guests.” They try to rob you of that thing that we call “Our Lives.”

And then it becomes up to us to take back back what was so wrongly taken from us. Each of us must do that and find a way to get Hope moved back in with us, so we can flourish and feel optimism.

What is my definition of Hope?

I’ve come to think of Hope as that “Intangible element of humanity that we cannot see, but one that we feel.”

It’s the single common denominator that every single one of us has inside. It’s the driving force behind our individualism and more importantly, the one thing that we “Cling To” and “Reach For” in times of dire circumstances that beset each of us, somewhere in our lifetime.

As the old saying goes, “Let’s Keep Hope Alive!”

Hey, let’s go down to ringside right now, looks like Michael Buffer is about to announce “The Decision.” Who came out on top? Sundance or Cancer?

“Ladies and Gentlemen! The Winner by KO and still the Undefeated Cancer Champion of the World, with a 3-0 title defense, is……….your very own…….SUNDANCE! “

LOL:)

And the crowd goes WILD……….:) !!!

For any of you that bet against me…….”Suckerzzzz!” LOL:)

That’s right folks – 3 recurrences Up and 3 recurrences Down – just like in baseball, huh?

We did it again. We knocked Cancer “Back into the Shadows” once more. He’s gone back into hiding, licking his wounds, while I lick mine. But, we got Him down right now. You read the BAD in my other post…….and now for something completely different, here is the GOOD:

1. Colon and Rectum = Clear
2. Liver = Clear
3. Lungs = All Clear:)

Many of you might recall in my Thanksgiving Message to my Cancer, that I said, “I am down right now – but when I get up, I’m coming – and He11 was coming with me.

Well, with Big Billy by my side, we “Huffed and we Puffed”…and we “Blew the Doors to the Gates of He11 Wide Open!”

What looked like a highly improbable, if not impossible mission at the beginning of this fight, has come to a successful conclusion. I know how fortunate I am to be on the “positive side of the ledger” right now. It sure could have gone either way, but somehow we are on top right now.

We’re officially back to “Watching and Waiting.” I’ll talk to NED, if I make it “clean” for 5-years, with no further recurrences….. (June 2016).

So, it does not get much better than this….am I right?

I thought the balloons were supposed to fall out of the ceiling about now? Why isn’t the band playing? Where’s the cake and ice cream? Where is Jennie with my margaritas?

LOL:)

Since I can’t get to any of you right now…we’ll just have to have a “Cyber Celebration!” I need some folks to share in this joy with me. It will mean more if I have all of you around me in the “same room.”

So, what’s next for Sundance?

I’m going to Disneyworld!...................................Not!

I’ll be lucky to get to Chicago for CP9 – with this very meaningful victory, it is my sincerest hope that I can make it there and get some lovin’ from my honeys:)

What’s next is instead of escaping Cancer, I’m going to jump back into the deep end of the pool and go back to the beginning of the journey and begin writing my book – first chapter titled “The Diagnosis.”

I want to jump on getting this written now, while the wounds are fresh and the feelings raw. I’m excited about making this a reality – now publishing will be another story – coming to an Amazon Kindle near you?

I’ll close this post with these final thoughts…..

On the day that Donna (Shayenne) aka “My Chicky” passed away, I posted on that thread that Her Lion had roared for the final time.

A beautiful chapter in my life and on this board and a real life story of friendship had come to a tragic and painful end. On this day a part of me died with her –Her Lion was dead and gone, and yet the memories still remained, but were now forever buried deep within the archives of the CSN posts.

This is a day where I wished Chicky were still here with us – certainly a story she would have loved to hear about and rejoice in. I will miss not seeing her post in this thread.

In honor of her memory and to bookmark this momentous occasion, Donna’s Lion “ROARZZZZ” one more time:) Miss you, Chicky.

This one was for myself, but also for the Semi;Colon Nation. I stand before you as a living testimony to what Cancer “Can and Cannot” do to us. It will never be easy, but you too can do this. I’ll stand proudly beside each one of you and be with you for each stop in your journey. Don’t be afraid – get mad – get even – and get out there and fight!

I understand less and less as time goes by – have no idea of why I’m still here after 7 years of battling this stuff. Don’t understand why my friends did not make it, but I am still here. I suppose I’ll never know.

And Cancer may indeed catch me one day – but guess what? It won’t be TODAY!!!

All of you know that Sundance is not the kind of guy that “Goes Quietly into the Night.”

I carry all of your hopes and dreams with me in my heart. I have the deepest respect and admiration for each one of you here – both past and present. You are the finest group of people I know and I’m proud to know you all.

All of you are Winners – and Cancer will never, ever take that away from you! With all of the love I can muster, I thank you for staying with me and you are all in my thoughts, in my heart, and in my dreams. Semi;Colons Rock!

I SALUTE YOU!!!

Craig and Big Billy
“Team Sundance”

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Oh Craig I have tears of happiest for you my dear friend how awesome is that kicking cancer @ss awesome love ya tina

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Patteee
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yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Erinb
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Awesome Craig! You're amazing and a huge inspiration!

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Hey NED.NED..NED...NED...NED....!!!!!!!!!!! Yippie...YAY! WOOT WOOT!!! Muthafrukner!!!!! OMG!!! I am soooooooooooooo friggin excited!!!!! You bet your sweet arse you are going to be at CP9...Dude...we are gonna drink the crap outta them Margarita's...heck ya!!!!!

Celebrate...celebrate..dance to the music...NAKED!!!!!!!

Love you Craiger!!!!

Jen

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Craig,
First AWESOME!!! Second, you are one hell of a writer. I so wanted to jump to the bottom of the page and read the results but I did not want to miss one of your incredible words. Bring on the book!!!! Celebrate!

Aloha,
Kathleen

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You have got great news. You inspiration and courage has touched my heart. So glad for your results.

Hugs! Kim

Fight for my love
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OMG,finally I can take a breath,I was extremely worried about you.I cheer for you,and I love this news soooooooo much.

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Balloons by the hundreds are falling!

Every band is playing "For he's a jolly good fellow"!

The cake is a mile high and the ice cream needs a truck to hold it!

They say everything is bigger in Texas, but nothing is as big as this win for our Sundanceh!!!

After the party, do get busy on that book. There will be a publisher and book signings in your future!

Hugs,

Marie

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Fantastic news!

Even though it is chemo weekend and I don't have much energy, it is finally warm here, so I am doing the nekkid happy dance for you! (No photos - too scarey!)

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Oh Craig, I can't tell you how very happy I am for you - you've made me cry again - but interspersed with little chuckles of happy laughter. (Does that make any sense?) OMG, what a great thing to read before I fall asleep. Love and hugs!!!! Cynthia. :-D

donnare
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Great news Craig ... so happy for you!

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I was reading this aloud to Jim and choking back tears. I am sooooooooooooooo happy for you. You are an inspiration. I am going to get a bowl of ice cream right now and celebrate with you! Do the happy dance!
Love from Jim and April

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Oh, what wonderful news! I'm SO very happy to read this! You're awesome in so many ways, Craig, and this is just the most welcome news!!!!

*hugs*
Gail

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Buzzard
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You Are Tha Man !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!buzz

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Though I have only just been introduced to you, I am very excited to hear your great news!

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Great,awesome,unbelievable !
Thank you dear Friend for the hope you bring the board!

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dear craig,

your victory is priceless.

your tenacity will save lives, it is. think about the hope you generate.

you cannot fail.

will you come to the greenside, not the darkside.

it maybe a great time to invest in craig health bank.

one day that investment maybe the weapon that kills the last crc cell.

one day in my alkaline nutrient rich body i'll just poo away the last crc cell and flush it straight to hell.

sorry i am now about as extreme as it gets here in terms of diet and alternatives. its just an invitation. i will love and respect you for what you have given me and all of us.

love hugs and health,
pete

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mukamom
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way to wake up to this fine day!!! Wonderful news. You ROCK!!!

Dancing for you

Angela

MrsJP
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I have tears of joy for you my friend...You are an inspiration to us all.

JP

rogina2336
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All I can say is "WoW" what a story. Goooooooooooooo sundance. Kim

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It's is hard to type when you can't see the keys. I am sobbing from relief and joy. What hope you have given all of us, your words touch our hearts and souls.We will look forward to your book with great anticipation.But before you start that, Please celebrate your brains out!!!!!!!

"And Cancer may indeed catch me one day – but guess what? It won’t be TODAY!!!'
This is my new mantra, thank you Craig and Big Billy

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Yeeeaaaahhhhh!!!.....Go Craig!!!! So happy for you! I wanna celebrate at that CP9 with you!

Love ya, Gail

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Craig,
Such amazingly good news! I've been checking in waiting to hear the results. I'm so incredibly happy for you and your wife.
Melissa

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The tears of joy were coursing down my cheeks!!!!!!! I let out such a whoop! that I scared all of my birds away!!!

I am dancing, and sobbing, and cheering....all at the same time!!!!

I raise my glass to my courageous, strong, heroic southern gentleman cowboy!!!

(I may just have to find a way to CP9 if you are going....I'll stand in line to buy you a drink!!!!....anyone got a spare couch for a night?????)

Hugs, Kathi

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for the greatest fighter i know.by the way i am a cancer too.born july15.i just got home from church today and this is the first post i come to.what a happy day!!!!!!!!! Hope is such a wonderful thing and i am glad you have it.congrats to you.now sit back and start writing that book.you say you dont know why you have made it the past 7 years.i do because you encourage all of us here and i know your book can impact alot of peoples lives.....Godbless....johnnybegood

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I see you are at a loss for words! ;-)
Great news Craig! Way to go...
All the best to Team Craig.
-p

coloCan
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its like pouring water over that wicked witch in the Wizard of Oz.......Hopefully never to return......The best of evertythig, Craig........steve

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That is great news Craig! I am so happy for you!

Take care buddy!

Ray

mom_2_3
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Awesome, truly awesome news!! So happy for you. I hope you and your wife have a kick-as- celebration.

Amy

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Craig, I am just starting out on this road, I have read some of your posts and have gone back to read more. I am looking up to you as a Hero. What a ride my friend you have had and still the winner. Seven years I hope yo congratjulate you in another 7 NED years.
So very happy and rejoicing for you. Celebrate, Roar and do all the things on your Bucket list.
Yes I am scared, I admit it, but reading your posts, I am a scorpio like your sign the cancer (crap) when provoked we sting.
I would be honered to call you a "friend" because when this hit you, we all need a "friend".
Good Luck, God Bless, I am so happy for you,
Hugs,
Marjan

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Congrats. great read
today.

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I'm SoHappy for you :)

I was holding my breath awaiting your report...so glad I can exhale now!

And for the rest of us, let's put on our fighting trousers <3

Love,
Janine

AnneCan
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This was just the news I hoped (+ expected) to read. I am so happy for you!

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Yeah for you Craig!

I look forward to meeting you in Chi-town @ CP9!!!!

Now that the treatments are over, time for you to start letting your body heal from within after you celebrate a while!

Lisa P.

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Hey Craig, thank you and congrats! This is why we have this discussion board, to bring good news and hope to all of us. I'm stage 4 with mets to lungs and lymph nodes, I've had 2 recurrences and still doing chemo. Just finished my 72nd treatment after 4 years. Last CT scan said they've shrunk by one third. Good news but not where I want to be(NED). It's people like you that keep the rest of us going and never giving up. Cancer's not a battle it's a war, and you of all people know that. Thank's again and may God keep you NED, Randy

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you make me smile, inside and out. I am so very happy for you! Joining you and all of us for this cyber celebration! Can't wait to find your book on my Kindle!
~Aud

SandyL
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You have made me so happy with this news. I know that you must be on cloud nine and so well deserving of that ride. Congratulations to you, and don't forget about us Nook owners, kay?
Sandy

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What else is there to say, WOW!

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Craig,

You have such a way with words... you had me worrying there for a while into reading your post. But the results... WOW- AMAZING- ALL CLEAR!!!!!!!!!
That is so wonderful that I'm tearing up right now- hugs to you, big Lion.
I'm so happy for you... :)

Lisa

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Nana b
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You are next Lisa!!!!!!!

dorookie
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Lisa's turn is coming too..

HUGS
Beth

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Hugs, Kathi

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hugs
pete

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I hope so too- thanks for saying so! :)

Lisa

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I could barely stand the suspense reading this, so I think writing a book is a good idea..

Ride on,

love, Leslie

PS Wyoming is nice in the summer time if you're hankering for a place to visit...

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I am so proud of you and the fight you put in. Thanks for sharing your experience with us and can't wait for the book. You are one amazing man...Looking forward to reading your stuff for many years to come.. Laura

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I'm so honored to "know" you. You make me laugh so hard, cry so deeply and remind me how human we are and what we are truly capable of. You inspire me every day.

This news is WONDERFUL!!! So, you may ask, why am I crying? Because I was so scared and now I now you're good to go. Happy, happy, such happy tears!

Peace, Love and ((((((HUGS))))))

Laurie

dorookie
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Donna read this thread too and is so excited for you, as we all are. I know she can hear her lion roaring, way to go my friend. As always your writing is the best, and when your finish that book WE will get it published, I will do whatever it takes because I truly believe it is already a best seller!!! And it will inspire others as you have inspired so many here.

I am so happy and relieved for you and Kim, a break you so needed, I pray it continues forever!!! I believe it will, you kicked its butt, I think it is probably afraid of YOU....

You are just so awesome my friend....Love you

HUGS
Beth

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Craig, I am so happy even though I am crying tears of Joy!!! I am so thankful that you are fighting and defeating this monster. I hope you know how much JOY, HAPPINESS, AND ESPECIALLY HOPE that you are giving to us as you post your battles on this board. Prayers are answered and will continue to be said for you and your family. I know that Donna and all the others are cheering from above as they look and see the monster with his tail tucked under running for cover. I am so excited for your fantastic news, hope you can feel the hug I am sending with this post!! Please write that book, I will be first in line to buy it as I know it will be a best seller!!! Thank you for being a light in the dark tunnel. This board loves you, admires you, respects you and are so thankful that you have such an amazing ability with words to express how many of us feel. Love ya and enjoy this victory!!!!
Frank's wife,
Anna

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