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chris t
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I have recently discovered what I thought was just me, but turns out to be somewhat of an epidemic among cancer survivors called "chemo-brain". I noticed it immediately after my first treatment. I was in a constant state of intense confusion. I had to rely on others to keep my appointments, couldnt remember my age, names, some faces, dates and numbers, etc.. 21 years later, this is still going on, and just as bad if not worse. I've lived my life in a cloud and didn't know how to tell anyone. It is embarassing to say the least of a man who's IQ in high school was 156. I'm still intelligent, I just have troubles putting the pieces together. I have found this to be a major disability and hinderance to any careers I have attempted. In 20 years, I have had over 80 different jobs because I cannot concentrate enough to accomplish the most menial tasks without total distraction. There are no tests that I know of for diagnosis, but there is a drug that helps a bit called Provigil. Other than that, I haven't much hope. I have applied for disability many times and been denied. I'm losing my train of thought right now.....anyway, it's hard to get by without full cognance or whatever the word is I'm looking for. Right now I'm having a Dejavu of having already done this (I get these very frequently, about once a week or more).
If anyone has any answers for me, Please help!

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Thank goodness I found you all!
I finished chemo Feb/ a year ago. I am retired, but decided to get my Realtors license. I self studied and almost blew my brain out. It took me so long. I talk and the words disappear. I just go blank and people look at me like, " Well?"
So embarrassing. I figured it was age but I am active, read a lot, & keep my mind challanged. Now I am sure it has more to do with the chemo. And i am facing the possibility again! They are going to have to put a chip in me in case i get lost!!!!
Prayers to to all of you. Judy

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Been right at 2 years after a bone marrow transplant and its no better. I can remember10 years ago but not why i went into the kitchen..lol. My nurse said to carry a note pad in my pocket, i told I tried that but I keep forgetting it at home. So i have a lot of notes on my phone its not perfect but it helps. I would have to agree that the worst part is forgetting words or anmes in mid sentence. but i guess it could be worse...

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I thought I was alone in this!

I am a 20 year survivor of childhood cancer. I'm only 30 and I can't remember anything. I forget major appointments and words drop out of my head mid sentence. It's been happening for as long as I can remember. (Pun totally intended.)

I had the following chemo drugs: Adriamycin, Actinomycin, Cytoxan and Vincristine. Any information about these and proven memory loss.?

I think what frustrates me most is that my husband "wins" every argument because I can never recall specifics about anything! That really sucks!

I'm not happy you're all in the same boat, but I'm happy that I'm not drifting alone here. =)

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Hello, I've just signed on to this and appreciated all the posts.

I seem to have many of these issues as well, although at times it seems like it peaks and swells.

I know I had Vencristine, Cytoxan sounds familiar, and definitely had Cisplatnin (sp?)

Always feel better no matter the symptoms after a Scan comes back " No change"

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I experienced acute chemo brain during and after my chemo treatment. Fortunatley, I was able to avoid extreme symptoms, but I did lose my ability to multi task and for awhile I had a lot of trouble thinking of people's first names. I could think of their last name, but not their first. Odd.

Those symptoms went away, but over the last week, 19 months after chemo, I've just started transposing numbers. Not a lot, and I seem to realize it after I do it, but it's there.

I have been working extensively with a naturopath during and after treatment. She tells me there is acute chemo brain, which you experience during and somewhat after treatment, and there is chronic, which can develop up to 5 years after treatment. Yippee.

She says that most doctors say it is untreatable, but she has some tools to address it. Right now I am starting large doses of glutathione 3 times a week. I have been receiving one large dose weekly via IV since just after my first chemo. I get high does vitamin C and nutritional IVs weekly. But she says to address this, I need three doses of 1,200 mg of glutathione per week. I will take two large doses orally and continue to get the third with my IV. To take it orally, it needs to be in the form of liposomal glutathione. I'm taking the Quicksilver brand. Tastes AWFUL, but I've been through worse.

She says that if this doesn't do the trick, the next step is taking acetylcholine, which is a neurotransmitter that also helps with Alzheimer's. It remains to be seen whether any of this works for me, but I've learned that my naturopath knows a whole lot more about how a body works than many doctors.

As far as chemo not crossing the blood brain barrier, I don't buy that reasoning at all. I have learned that if you have leaky gut, you have leaky brain. Leaky gut is caused by physical and/or mental stress as well as diet. One big dietary factor that leads to leaky gut in many people is gluten. I can't imagine that many of us did not have a leaky gut once we were subjected to treatment. Talk about a stressor to the body. I recently started taking GABA because I was having trouble sleeping. I felt almost instant releif once I took it. My naturopath told me afterwards that if you get relief by taking GABA, you have leaky brain. The GABA molecule is rather large and will not make it into the brain if it is not leaky. Looks like I still have plenty of work to do.

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I am a 4 yrs survivor and to this day I have "chemo brain". In the beginning it was very frustrating but as soon as I found out that it is a real condition brought up by the treatments I came to accept it but I never let it slow me down. There are a few things that one needs to understand, some memories are just dormant whereas some might be gone. Just keep a journal for a while and read it over and over. Ask others to write letters describing events and people in you life you might not remember,don't fret when you can't find the right words or memories, or if you dont remember a person's name...explain to them you still recovering from cancer and a side effect is chemo brain. Try and learn a new language, that engages the brain to pull memories stored within. The most important thing is to remember that you are still you and that you have survived cancer, even though memories are the casualties suffered in the battle.

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There is a special water called Kangen water, which is alkaline, anti-oxidant and more absorbable than ordinary water. There is a doctor called Corinne Allen who has an institute called Advanced Learning and Development Institute (www.brainadvance.org). She treats all kinds of brain function problems without drugs. You can look on her site, and click on the left on "Kangen Water". she wrote an article called "Water and the Brain" where she explains about the importance of proper hydration with Kangen water which has smaller molecule clusters and is able to cross the blood -brain barrier better and bring more oxygen to the cells, detoxify waste, and hydrate better so the brain can recover from different problems. She also has a DVD on Youtube that someone posted in sections called "Your Brain on Water". If you do a search for her name "Dr. Corinne Allen" you will find it.
If you want to know how to get a Kangen water machine, you can email me and I can help you. It is truly amazing and helps people with all kinds of problems. In addition, it is recommended by the American Anti-Cancer Institute as their No. 1 Recommended Natural Product to treat and prevent cancer! I can send you links, if you like.

All the best,

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On your side have episodes I feel embarressed about. Took for a year. with radiation.

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My son had ALL at the age of 7 when we still lived in UK. He received 3 years chemotherapy including lumbar punctures every 12 weeks. He also received 'Methotrexate'. At the time we wasn't told about late effects and even after treatment at the 'Late Effects Clinic' it was brushed under the carpet everytime I mentioned we had noticed a change in our son.
It goes without saying their priority is for us to have him still with us today which we can't be grateful enough for. But when he left primary school (where he received extra support for maths etc. as his teachers also noticed a change in him) and went to Secondary School, that his where it became more noticeable. Despite being given paperwork, letters from the hosptial etc. he didn't get much support and was almost getting detention for being so slow at getting changed in PE. Our son seems to have been left with very little motivation, he always seems lethargic and has cognitive issues. I have always tried to support him, but worry that I need to draw the line and teach him to become more independant for his own sake. We emigrated to Australia 3 years ago (which was also alot for him to cope with as he isn't keen on change) in the hope of a better lifestyle. We notice the healthcare system seem more thorough and my son was sent for a cognitive assessment at the first mention of his problems at his annual check up. The report has proved that there are definite signs of 'chemo brain' as I have found it is called on this forum.
My concern is he finished his treatment at age 11 and is now 20 years old and still having the problems. I am disappointed that it wasn't confirmed when he was still a child as there may have been more that could have been done to help (eg brain training). The difficulty I have now is 'mum' trying to tell a 20 year old how he can help himself and improve as he doesn't want to listen. We tried a year at TAFE but decided not to re-enrol as it was a waste (other than it taught him to get a train and connecting bus) despite missing the connection many a time. He is so laid back he is happy to spend all day every day in bed, but we are encouraging him to at least look for part-time work (to help him socialise). He has no idea what he wants to do and is anxious about what he is capable of doing. He tried a short time at a take-away, but said he couldn't keep up with the pace and was 'in the way' all the time. He hasn't got his driving licence yet either. I know with him it is 'one step at a time' but it is difficult telling people that don't know him so well. He comes across as being a 'lazy' teenager which is frustrating. Good thing is he has a few friends from his last couple of years at school here, who will pick him up and take him out. He also plays Futsal with them once a week. They seem to understand him and are getting used to waiting for him etc (and being late for Futsal) :)
Good luck to everyone having 'Chemo Brain' affect their everyday lives, but well done to you all beating Cancer!

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I am a long term survivor who has chemo brain and have seen the medical field change over time regarding this issue. First it was thought that none of the chemo drugs crossed what they call the blood-brain barrier but now they know that some do.

We have a memory clinic here in Canada where I live that usually deals with Altzheimers and Dimentia but does testing on all sorts of other issues now regarding memory/confusion, cognitive stuff, and so I was referred there by my doc a few years back. I was fine on all the testing, scored high in fact, but they did see signs on my CT scan of a slight abnornality but it wasn't significant enough they said to be causing my issues, so back to square one.

The neurosurgeon said that they are seeing more and more long term survivors with this 'chemo brain' and I found it interesting because a neurosurgeon had now started to use our lingo and years back they would never have done that and didnt. Slow progress.

Anywho bottomline is that some chemo drugs do cross the blood brain barrier and at least one of the drugs I had was on the list. I forget the other drugs I had, big surprise, lol. So the neurosurgeon said that this wasn't a dementia or Altz. but could be explainable by 3 possible issues all put together. One is the chemo drug crossing the barrier, the other was the aging process and the third one was stress. It all made sense to me. He also said that side effects from any medications I was on, especially the morphine I have to take for my back, could contribute to the confusion/memory issues as well.

So bottomline for me is that chemobrain probably isn't the result of one thing alone but rather a combination of the above or some.

I can't have an MRI because I have a pacemaker, due to heart damage from a chemo drug, so they could not go a little further in looking at it. The neurosurgeon said that there is nothing you can do about chemo brain although some people have had some success with an anti depressant and something else but again I can't remember what the something else was. Oh wait I remember now, sigh, it was a drug that is normally used in the treatment of ADHD, ritalin. No thanks, I have enough medical problems than to try that too, for myself. I am already on way too many drugs for the rest of my life.

All the best,


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I am an almost 8 year ovarian cancer survivor who experienced chemo brain. I still lose words and very often can't remember numbers. Pretty bad for an accountant. However, my way of dealing with it is through nutrition. My chiropractor referred me to a compounding pharmacist who is also a nutritionist. I have been consulting with him and owe my good health to following his advice. I eat organic food which eliminates chemicals, pesticides, food additives, and other offending ingredients. There is no "Pink Slime" in my diet. I also work out and lift weights. He also has me taking a variety of supplements based on my needs which have made a major difference. Due to the nature of the surgery I use bioidentical hormone replacement which is prescribed by my oncologist and is compounded in his pharmacy. This lifestyle change is also supported by my oncologist and physician. I had to search for physicians who aren't so quick to prescribe drugs and are willing to try other options. So I suggest finding someone like this practitioner. I am firmly convinced that what is in our food and drink is the cause of our cancers and will continue to ruin our health and even kill us.

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I am an 8 year survivor of NHL. I still suffer from Chemo Brain. No it is not as bad as it was when I was going through treatment but it is a daily reminder of what I have been through. My memory sucks, absolutely no short term memory at all. I struggle for words, my daughter jokes about how she finishes my sentences more than I do. I have absolutely no attention span. I've never been the most intelligent person but I do consider myself smart. It has and still does have a very negative impact on me. Worse than anything is those who look at it as an excuse or oh you're just getting older, no one that hasn't been through it can seem to understand. So for all of us on here that are telling the same story what further evidence do people need to acknowledge that it exsists. God bless all of you for making it through this horrible disease.

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Yes, chemobrain is very real, and from what I've read, how severe and how long it lasts (up to permanent) depends on the chemo drug(s), the dosage, and the duration.  The article I read stated that Cisplatin (aka Platinol) is the worst for chemobrain, and both of my chemos had Cisplatin, and the second round of chemo had it at very high dosages, for 24 out of 25 (yes, 25) hours per day (24 on, 1 off) for a week, then two weeks "off" (first of the two, excruciating/horrifying pain, second in the hospital with neutrophill coundts around 0.015 (should be 1.15).

I can be in the middle of a sentence (or even a word), and forg ... what were we talking about?  Yeah, something like that.  Or, it'll be a word, usually a word I know quite well, that I just can't seem to remember.  Still other times, I'll know the word I want to say, but it's as if I can see that word on one side of my brain, but need to get it to the other side to be able to say it, but cant.  Fortunately, my friends all know to start cueing me if I run into any of those (e.g., "we were talking about ..." or  "you were saying ..."  or I'll give them whatever I can so they can tell ME what the word I want to say is---surprisingly, this works quite well).


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I don't know why I chose Cisplatin when it was offered around July 2010. I don't remember why it was offered or suggested. I can't remember if it was supposed to be "more effective", but it's 9 years later & I'm pretty disfunctional compared to how I used to be prior to cancer. I'm doing better than most, but barely scraping by isn't acceptible in my opinion. I want ANSWERS in the form of therapy or a program to help rebuild those areas of the brain that have been permanently damaged.

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I thought it was kind of funny that in order to write a post about chemo brain I was required to do this:

Solve this simple math problem and enter the result. E.g. for 1+3, enter 4.

Not so simple, if you've got your head in the clouds like most of us. I appreciate everyone's stories...my own is very simple...Stage IA ovarian cancer 4 years ago now @ age 26. I didn't just lose my ovary, I feel like I lost my mind, frustrating at any age, but especially in your vibrant quarter-life and ESPECIALLY if you are now trying to get into grad school except you can't remember anything you're isntructor has lectured on in class, that is, if you're mind hasn't wandered to the bird on the tree outside or the paint on the wall, that you're actually listening what your instructor is saying.

I am grateful to have found a community that can share in my, very real, plight rather than just think I'm crazy or stupid, I wondered if anyone has found ways to combat the low mental acuity and maintain some focus?

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Thank you for your post, I was a high IQ high functioning computer geek.  After Chemo and Herceptin I am now having to relearn basics including reading and writing, words, spelling, etc.  Your post summed it up EXACTLY. 

Chris, each person is different,  like you I got hit hard but medical field is clueless, my guess is metabolism or low body fat resulted in accidental overdose.  But everyday is ground hog day, I have to relearn the same things over again (kitchen, phone, email, family and friends names, and usually remember nothing of the prior few days), and like flaky-flake I try to avoid driving, but ironically you need to drive to get to doctors.  I used to help others, hold doors, help strangers load groceries; now I am on other end and when I fall out of blue (post chemo issue) like someone bumped you behind knees and boom down, strangers help me.  Husband still computer geek, and made it so DRAGON and other SW can figure out my chemo induces slurred mixed up words speech and help me auto type.  I have no recall of what I did professionally, I know I trained my husband years ago in the field, but we have tossed the towel in after repeated attempts for him to teach me back.  If you still have humor ... he says back to me ... you are now your Mother (a joke meaning I am now beyond able use of computer let alone design, program, and maintain them).

I miss me too, but worse, are those I cared for now having to spend huge dollars to get sitters and move into assisted living places that cost more than anyone I know can afford.  Try finding a lawyer or hiring AllSUP to help you file a claim or (some word that means fight the denial)

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 did I just read..I forgot....

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HAHAHAHAHA okay yeah I know what you mean...


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I did 5 years on Anastrasole, which had miserable side effects. I learned to stop the bone pain by taking glucosamine, chondroitin, and MSM plus calcium, magnesium, vitamin D. Tolerated hot flashes, not too bad!  But the drug wiped out my sex drive, and caused by genital area to be so dry & fragile.  Been off the drug 2 months, no improvement!  Will I ever feel desire again, I love my husband and desperately want to feel like ME????  Anyone????

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In addition to what you wrote, I get lost in my own home, see overlays of past memories to real time (like when I go upstairs I see the lady that showed us the model home in another county), I lose time - hours.  I used to be first chair music, now I cannot read it, play it, or relearn it, and lost intereset in it.  I used to read, but take me long time to read your post and used software to write this post.  I have to put a not on doors leaving house to make sure water stove off and I have shirt and pants on.  I went from advanced degrees and high dollar earner multitasking high tech stuff and caregiving to parents to spending the entire day trying to stay on task to fix at least one meal for myself.  Then when I'm being followed by investigators I have to leave my iwatch aned iphone off which I use to keep things in check(e.g., timers, reminders, etc.) which sets me back years in what I manage to learn to adapt.  AM I alone when stating that if I knew what chemo would do I would not have done it?  Taxotere, carboplaatin, herceptin 6 rounds plus 18 additional herceptins.  Lost balance after first round, speach by third, reading by forth, hallucinations and loss time by fifth.  Took two years to teach self speak, but hit wall on retaining relearning.  I feel like movie, geez I keep forgetting it ... oh, ground hog day, except instead of building knowledge on each repeating day, I spend everyday relearning the same things.  Lost friends, the new ones know to reintroduce themselves especially if I see them in a different environment.  Would not be so bad, but I do remember being very independent and smart, now I'm stuck in trying to prevent finacial ruin to family.  How can I let folks investigating me that doing so is/has send me backwards.  How can I keep trying to improve without fear in attempting it will result in loss of benefits.  They have been follwoing me cents April, now several months, took calling police to get them from snapping pictures in my face when taking the trash out.  My issues are invesible to a camera, so what the heck.  I wish folks on this post would get benefits, because live is a living daily hell, like stuck in a glassw jar.  The bright side is I can speak better, still use wrong words, sometimes naughty words that sound close to right word.  I just wish people could just 'get it' but I know from my experience I would never have understood without being in this jar.  Maybe the law will put limits or notifications to police on investigations and total time and frequentcy to avoid valid disability people from being harassed and glass jar shrinking.  It is sooooo bad that we are considering closing out the benefits on our own to remove the harassement.  It errks me so much I ended up in hostpital, it really messes with a damaged brain.  Worse when you already have to work overtime to filter out real images from overlay images.  However, it is ammusing seeing a boat move across a church parking lot at easter no were near water.  Bless you all.

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There was an article in a recent issues of Arthritis Today about Brain Fog. 

Here is one link I found online https:



It had some info that struck home for me. 

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I’m glad I found you all. I see a neuroligist soon. I have been worrying about these symptoms since having my stem cell transplant. I’m still out of work, since last July.  I forgot how to shut the shower off, messed up my dr appointment. I get overwhelmed out in stores. Feel anxious and uncomfortable even in places I go often. Happy to know I’m not just crazy.

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This wasn't a side-effect discussed when my husband was preparing for chemo for his colon cancer and neither of us had ever heard of it.  Husband's had 4 treatments and I noticed he was "slower" and muddled.  I thought it might just be the chemo and would go away, since it's not really talked about by care providers.  So it must not be a big deal, right?  But the more we looked into it, we find it's actually quite serious, and very likely long-term, if not permanent.  It's quite worrying for us.  My husband has a great head for numbers and thrives on solving problems and even finds mistakes by banks and financial companies in our investments.  He is terrified of losing that ability and left a mental vegetable sitting in front of the tv.  I can sympathize with him because it's a passion of his, numbers, finances, etc.  He's decided to stop treatment after number 6 because he doesn't want to suffer any more brain damage, as he insists on calling it.

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I had breast cancer 15 years ago. I chose to have dose dense chemotherapy so that I could get on with my life sooner after being treated.  Had I known what an effect this would have on my cognitive ability,  I would not have gone that route.  I had difficulty remembering words and putting sentances together almost immediately, My Oncologist told me it was temporary and to this day insists that chemo doesn't cross the blood brain barrier.  I have had six jobs in the last 5 years because I can't concentrate on any one task for very long.  Multitasking is impossible.  My short term memory is terrible.  I have not told any of my employers of this problem for fear of discrimination.  I am 60 years old and support myself.  My biggest fear is that I will no longer be able to do that and that my brain function is getting worse instead of better.

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My doctors recommend brain puzzles and had me watch hours of movies, the faster the pace of the movie the better. All genres, but a lot of horror movies. and thrillers and action. 

What they didnt tell me is I stink like a toxic waste dump and get sudden and horrific wafts of terrible odors like turpentine, cat spray, chlorine, varnish, that no one else smells. Nope, not a brain tumor or mental illness, it is NORMAL, and should recede in 6-9 mos. Nothing wrong with my sinuses, its a normal side effect to cancer. Cancer has its own side effects, and it has these side effects body and soul. For those who do not believe in the existance of the soul, it is recognized both above and below. 

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It doesn't seem to even exist, but has ANYONE seen any kind of improvement after any of the recomended treatments?


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