I think I am done.

SORRY!!!
{{{{NAN}}}} I am so sorry to hear. I can imagine how devastating that news is. UGH!

Those 2nd line meds DO work for some people. Don't count yourself out yet...PLEASE. Hang in there Nan. We are with you, for better or for worse. I do believe most of us will be walking a similar path one day. Just some of us sooner than others.

Let yourself absorb the shock and mourn the reality of it all. I am sure you will be ready to continue your fight. And yes...enjoy that cheesecake!

Let us know what they decide.

kikz said:

Sorry
you received such scary news. Please know you are in so many prayers. We are all facing the unknown on a daily basis. Keep fighting. It's all we have.

Karen

((((Nan)))) Definitely scary, but hang in there.
I have a friend who last year had liver mets that chemo made disappear and brain mets that radiation made disappear. She's still here. You may have more time than you think, Nan. I sincerely hope so.

I already have liver mets, but remain symtom free. But I well remember the "beginning of the end" feeling I had with that news 2 months ago, and again when my CA125 started to spike up over 100 points a week, week after week. ((((Nan)))). I get my CT/PET scan results on Tuesday, a scan triggered by my CA125 spiking up 550 points in a couple of months to an alarming 876 even though I am currently getting chemo. So I am also expecting bad news next week.

I believe that you will probably get over this latest shock and somehow hope will flicker awake again, just like it did with me, just like it did with my friend. We don't always win, and each of us has to personally decide when to walk away from the battle. But don't be surprised if you feel differently once the shock wears off, and are ready to give it one more go. I hope I will decide correctly when my time comes. But I don't think that time is here yet for me. And you may decide you're not there yet either. My heart goes out to you as we each can so easily see ourselves in your place and know it likely will be a part of our future.

oh crap
Crap.. that's all I can say right now.. Cancer sucks. it really does. I am so sorry to hear this, wish I could offer sage words.. please try to hang in there.. you never know ...miracles do happen.. maybe your dr. like the wizard of Oz, will pull something out of his bag for you.
Big Hugs and prayers,
Cindy

(((NAN)))! Please, enjoy
(((NAN)))! Please, enjoy your cheesecake. Do you have some anxiety pills? They help me not to have all the time bad thoughts in my mind and I can go sleep little bit easy. I hope it is will help you for first couple days, until you will find for yourself how to cope. Love you, my teal sister, Zina.

kayandok said:

Nan,
I'm so sorry to hear this! It sounds like you have a team of doctors that are reacting quickly, so that is good. Never ever give up fighting. There is always hope!
(((((hugs)))))) and prayer for you today,
kathleen

(((nan)))
Don't give up nan, let the news sink in , you may feel differently in a couple of days, and be ready to give this fight anopther go, I do hope so.
We had some terrible news this week about mums chemo, we thought it was the end of the world, but we have to pick ourselves up and keep on with the fight , it is all we can do.
keep fighting soldier xxxxxxx

HAVE A PIECE OF CHEESECAKE ON ME!
No easy words here, Nan. I'm so sorry to hear this. But everyone is right - there's still a lot of fight left in you, and still more options. Do you feel completely confident with your doctor? Sometimes a second opinion doesn't hurt. Whatever you decide, we are here for you. Wish I could be there to give you a reassuring hug. But since I can't, I'm sending lots of virtual hugs, and an ENORMOUS amount of prayer. Please keep in touch.

(((HUGS)))
Monika

P.S. I've never had pineapple cheesecake - that's a new one for me. Did you make it yourself?

goatiegirl said:

Thanks for all your well wishes...
Today I feel like I have more fighting spirit. Thanks for the advice and words of support!
I hope Carleen is helping us find another solution. Bless everyone!

Nan

I'm glad you are feeling
I'm glad you are feeling better today. You are still alive and there is still hope. Have more cheesecake and whatever else appeals to you. I am hoping the radiation & Chemo will give you more (& quality) time.

Stay strong
Just because you have lesions in scary places doesn't mean the end is near. I am sure there is still a lot of you that is healthy.

I read Lance Armstrong's book: "It's Not About the Bike" and he writes that when his brain tumors were operated on--they had already become necrotic.

I would hope that you could find an alternative physician to guide you the rest of the way to wellness. Unfortunately, insurance doesn't want to reimburse you for these out-of-network doctors. Or try Cancer Treatment Centers of America, they take a holistic approach.

stay strong,

Carolen

Parp Inhibitors
My wife was diagnosed over Christmas and we just had our first week of chemo. I have been studying A LOT about this cancer and I have been planning for the next step if this fails. The new Parp Inhibitors hold what I think will be the 2nd line for us, should that come. There are clinical trials for BRCA mutation patients and I think there are some for non-BRCA 1 and 2, 1st line fail patients out there as well (my wife is BRCA-2).

We won't give up if you don't Hang in there!