last day of treatment

Today was it. I am finished with treatment for my cancer! I made it. The last three were as my doctor promised, minimally painful, with minor skin irritation. Now I get to concentrate on the rest of my healing. I want to comment on something very postive that you all have mentioned at one time or another. And that is how amazingly quickly we start to heal after radiation is complete. While I was in the hospital during week six, my skin breakdown healed almost completely in a a matter of days. With the last three zaps only targeting the anus, I am only a few days away from being able to wear underwear again. Although I have some pretty ugly scarring going on, running down my thighs and groin area, I almost feel like before - exterior wise - I have yet to fully determine what has been going on interior-wise, but am sure as trauma settles, I will find out. Was given my graduation gift, a little angle pin to wear, oh and my vaginal dialator. Kind of scary looking, but necessary I'm sure. I was told to wait one more week before I start using it, so it will sit ominously on my bathroom counter awaiting my attention.

I want to thank everyone for your encouragement and support throughout this ordeal, but especially during the last three treatments when I didn't think I could or would go on. Because of you, I did, and I will never have to look back and wonder if I did all that I could to cure and keep this nasty cancer at bay. Thank you so much.

I will continue to write on this board as my healing begins, and I struggle to find my new "normal", because I can't imagine getting back to the old "normal". I'm changed, this has changed me. And it's all good.....
Hugs, Darcee