I watched her die

your mother
I am so sorry for your pain. My husband is losing his battle with bile duct cancer and every day I see a little more of him slip away. He has always been such a strong man all his life and watching him lose more and more of his strength has been horrible. The disease in itself is awful, but seeing what it does to the one you love is one of the worst things I have experienced. I pray that your pain will lessen as time goes by. I lost my mother to bladder cancer in 1985 and the last few days of her life were haunting as well. Time does help to heal your pain.