scared

thanks for sharing your fear. I thought I was the only one
I wanted to rip my last ct test open. I felt sick wondering about it. I vividly remember leaving the imaging clinic. Opening the door, walking, feeling scared. I thought I was the only one. I was clutching the big sealed white envelope. Was my fate and life going to be determined by the test result ?

Luckily I get easily distracted. Maybe I saw a beautiful woman or a friend called me. But this strange near fear disappeared as unexpectedly as it came. I was happy to see it go.

I had to acknowledge I was real scared and at the same time now know more clearly that FEAR in itself is really unhealthy. Lookup stress and your immune system. I try and keep positive pleasant thoughts in my head, all negative thoughts put them in mental trash can. Empty it straight away. I am a struggling Christian buddist so I also put impure thoughts in my mental trash can. I am always putting the rubbish out.

Life is for living, don't let fear waste a second of each precious day. God bless you.