Just Two Years Ago Today
This year is much better and have much to celebrate. We have our 11th grandchild (boy) due in 3 weeks and saw an ultrasound of him this morning. Yup all the plumbing is there Our daughter is home from the Army and this is the first Thanksgiving in 4 years that she is here celebrating with us.
Happy Thanksgiving all!
Kim
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Hi Kim,
Wishing you and your
Hi Kim,
Wishing you and your family a wonderful and blessed Thanksgiving. May you share many more special holidays together! :-)
Cynthia0 -
my counselor gave me an excellent exercise ...
For handling tough memories. You sit with your eyes closed and think hard on the memory, bringing up every last awful aspect of it, feeling everything intensely. You will find it causing a pain somewhere specific in your body, perhaps your chest, or in my case it makes my rectal pain worse. You visualize it and describe it, is it hot or cold, soft or hard, etc. Then you reach inside your body and pull that thing out and throw it down a hole that reaches to hell and back! Then, you have that space left in your body where that ugly thing was. You visualize an opening into your head that allows an amber light into your head, down your neck, and down your body to fill that space. It swirls around the space, then out the ends of your toes and the tips of your fingers. Then, a green light enters and does the same thing. Then, a blue light. Then, a golden light. Then a violet light. Lastly a sparkly white bright light. When this is done, you sit with your eyes closed until you are ready to open them. You will find that the next time you have this memory, there won't be nearly as much angst attached to it. You might have to repeat this process for particularly nasty memories. I've done this for many of my PTSD experiences having to do with this journey and I find it really helps tremendously!
Enjoy those grandchildren!
mary0 -
The 11th?msccolon said:my counselor gave me an excellent exercise ...
For handling tough memories. You sit with your eyes closed and think hard on the memory, bringing up every last awful aspect of it, feeling everything intensely. You will find it causing a pain somewhere specific in your body, perhaps your chest, or in my case it makes my rectal pain worse. You visualize it and describe it, is it hot or cold, soft or hard, etc. Then you reach inside your body and pull that thing out and throw it down a hole that reaches to hell and back! Then, you have that space left in your body where that ugly thing was. You visualize an opening into your head that allows an amber light into your head, down your neck, and down your body to fill that space. It swirls around the space, then out the ends of your toes and the tips of your fingers. Then, a green light enters and does the same thing. Then, a blue light. Then, a golden light. Then a violet light. Lastly a sparkly white bright light. When this is done, you sit with your eyes closed until you are ready to open them. You will find that the next time you have this memory, there won't be nearly as much angst attached to it. You might have to repeat this process for particularly nasty memories. I've done this for many of my PTSD experiences having to do with this journey and I find it really helps tremendously!
Enjoy those grandchildren!
mary
Lord Jesus ! I can't believe you got even one grandchild !
Why don't you post a pic of the whole gang?
Hugs Kim.0 -
Your Own Internal Compass
"Sometimes I've wondered if remembering all this is really any good, but it's just so hard to forget" ~Kim
I believe it is - it is a sobering reminder of where you were - and more importantly where you have gone.
Have a great day and enjoy yourselves:)
-Craig0 -
Kim
I think when you go through something brutal, as you did, you spend all your energy getting through it. Then at some point the horror comes back + you have to deal with it. I hope you can get the help you need; hey you got some great free advice from Mary! I am sure it is especially difficult this time of year. I hope you can enjoy the warmth + love of your family for this special Thanksgiving.0 -
Wow Marymsccolon said:my counselor gave me an excellent exercise ...
For handling tough memories. You sit with your eyes closed and think hard on the memory, bringing up every last awful aspect of it, feeling everything intensely. You will find it causing a pain somewhere specific in your body, perhaps your chest, or in my case it makes my rectal pain worse. You visualize it and describe it, is it hot or cold, soft or hard, etc. Then you reach inside your body and pull that thing out and throw it down a hole that reaches to hell and back! Then, you have that space left in your body where that ugly thing was. You visualize an opening into your head that allows an amber light into your head, down your neck, and down your body to fill that space. It swirls around the space, then out the ends of your toes and the tips of your fingers. Then, a green light enters and does the same thing. Then, a blue light. Then, a golden light. Then a violet light. Lastly a sparkly white bright light. When this is done, you sit with your eyes closed until you are ready to open them. You will find that the next time you have this memory, there won't be nearly as much angst attached to it. You might have to repeat this process for particularly nasty memories. I've done this for many of my PTSD experiences having to do with this journey and I find it really helps tremendously!
Enjoy those grandchildren!
mary
This sounds very helpful!0 -
Our experiences become woven into the tapestry of our lives...
It's up to us to decide whether the tapestry choaks us, or surrounds us like a favorite blanket....
That's my take....
Congrats on the milestone!...and yes, I still remember the day AFTER Thanksgiving, when I was told....but it's faded to just part of my life. I wish this also for you, dear soul!
Hugs, Kathi0 -
Awwww
You special friends of mine - love you all and Mary that sounds so good and I'll try that. Was given that type of imagining when going through hypnosis for fear of flying. I'll defintely give that a try. Just was so close to the day and thinking about it. Probably shouldn't have even posted this but been thinking about it all day.
Love and Hugs to you all
Happy Thanksgiving!
Kim0 -
Thanksgiving
Hey, Kim.
I understand so well what you're feeling right now. 3 years ago on Sunday I was diagnosed with colon cancer after an emergency admission to the hospital with an abdominal bleed. Because of all the testing, I was prepped, so they gave me the option of staying in the hospital and having my surgery the day after Thanksgiving. I chose that option, because I did not want to repeat the prep, plus I knew I would brood if I had to wait. It was a real blessing that I did it that way, although that whole week was like a Mack truck rolling over me.
Forever and forever, Thanksgiving will find me awash in cancer memories, yet extra grateful to be still here.
*hugs*
Gail0 -
This goes for all the other's on here too!
Where you've been, what you've gone through, and what you are about today. You need to know that because of this happening to you, and because you are here on this board sharing it with people like me, who are at times lost with the newness and loss of experiences to come...you are touching my life in ways you will probably never know. Whether it's a major aha or a kind thought on a down day for me, who you are, what you know, and what you share is important to me! It gives me inspiration and hope and ideas. It lets me believe that I can do it too, if you can. So please, Kim, don't try to forget what you have been through, it's your accomplishment that no one else went through. I know your family and friends were there with you, but it was yours.
Just look at your celebration's you have now. Grandbabies,daughter serving our country, and you making it through the cancer treatment. I bet your family is proud to be able to say my Mom/Grandma/Wife/etc fought this.
People like me need people like you! Don't forget that!
Have a wonderful Holiday, Gail0 -
Beautiful!plh4gail said:This goes for all the other's on here too!
Where you've been, what you've gone through, and what you are about today. You need to know that because of this happening to you, and because you are here on this board sharing it with people like me, who are at times lost with the newness and loss of experiences to come...you are touching my life in ways you will probably never know. Whether it's a major aha or a kind thought on a down day for me, who you are, what you know, and what you share is important to me! It gives me inspiration and hope and ideas. It lets me believe that I can do it too, if you can. So please, Kim, don't try to forget what you have been through, it's your accomplishment that no one else went through. I know your family and friends were there with you, but it was yours.
Just look at your celebration's you have now. Grandbabies,daughter serving our country, and you making it through the cancer treatment. I bet your family is proud to be able to say my Mom/Grandma/Wife/etc fought this.
People like me need people like you! Don't forget that!
Have a wonderful Holiday, Gail
That was very touching, Gail:)
-Craig0 -
Actually
I heard on CNN that they have come up with a new drug that can erase your bad memories. They say that it will be useful to those suffering from Post Traumatic Stress. Lawd knows when we heard our diagnosis that we got a dose of PTS.
I'm still contemplating it. At first I'd say leave me and my memories alone. I am who I am because of my expxeriences and what I've learned and am still learning from them. If they erase my so called "bad/traumatic" memories would I still be capable of becoming the person I am to become? Maybe I would have to have other such expxeriences to replace the ones that were erased so that I could learn what I need to learn? Who knows. The more I know, the less I realize I know.
Kim, I am so happy to have you and your caring, giving self here on the board with us. If you forgot what brought you here, would you be here? I know I sure would miss you if you weren't here. HUGS0 -
FunnyLori-S said:Actually
I heard on CNN that they have come up with a new drug that can erase your bad memories. They say that it will be useful to those suffering from Post Traumatic Stress. Lawd knows when we heard our diagnosis that we got a dose of PTS.
I'm still contemplating it. At first I'd say leave me and my memories alone. I am who I am because of my expxeriences and what I've learned and am still learning from them. If they erase my so called "bad/traumatic" memories would I still be capable of becoming the person I am to become? Maybe I would have to have other such expxeriences to replace the ones that were erased so that I could learn what I need to learn? Who knows. The more I know, the less I realize I know.
Kim, I am so happy to have you and your caring, giving self here on the board with us. If you forgot what brought you here, would you be here? I know I sure would miss you if you weren't here. HUGS
Oh my goodness do I really need a drug to erase my memories. I think chemo did that already or is that selective chemo brain that I have Oh who knows, I'm like all of you, can play the chemo brain when needed but really hate it when it really happens. Thanks for info though. Who knows, maybe one day it will be useful.
Hugs! Kim0 -
AnnaBelle (Kim) youAnnabelle41415 said:Funny
Oh my goodness do I really need a drug to erase my memories. I think chemo did that already or is that selective chemo brain that I have Oh who knows, I'm like all of you, can play the chemo brain when needed but really hate it when it really happens. Thanks for info though. Who knows, maybe one day it will be useful.
Hugs! Kim
AnnaBelle (Kim) you mentioned your having your 11th grandchild soon and daughter is back for Thanksgiving. sounds like your family is lucky to have a mother and grandmother like you. Did i say Grandmother? You look about 42 yrs old, a youthful 42 too.
I hope you Thanksgiving was memorable
Steve0 -
Congrats on your 11thHeartofSoul said:AnnaBelle (Kim) you
AnnaBelle (Kim) you mentioned your having your 11th grandchild soon and daughter is back for Thanksgiving. sounds like your family is lucky to have a mother and grandmother like you. Did i say Grandmother? You look about 42 yrs old, a youthful 42 too.
I hope you Thanksgiving was memorable
Steve
Congrats on your 11th grandchild. We will be expecting our 1st (grandchild) next July.
Ah, yes that day and the drive home. remember it well. May 17th for me.0 -
Kim
Kim,
I hope you had a beautiful day!! Amen to a better Thanksgiving than 2 years ago. Here's to many, many more NED and joyful Thanksgivings!!
Aloha,
Kathleen0
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