My heart is breaking

dixiegirl
dixiegirl Member Posts: 1,043 Member
edited March 2014 in Lymphoma (Hodgkin and Non-Hodgkin) #1
My baby Pogo is in the hospital today. Woke up at 3am to Pogo really suffering. She hurt her back about 3 weeks ago and seemed to be doing better. I have no clue what happened but I've never felt so helpless. She can't stand on her back legs. She was panting so hard Jim and I just kept trying to support her till we could get her to the vet this morning.

Problem is, surgery is very expensive and we just don't have the ability to do it. They are trying heavy duty steroids and we'll see tomorrow if she's responding to it. All kinds of prayers are needed guys. We may have to put her down.

My heart is breaking and can't stop crying. I had my treatment this morning so I'm tired from that and the benedryl. I'm exhausted emotionally and physically.

I know she's a dog, but she's my baby. I cannot stand seeing her in pain.
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  • allmost60
    allmost60 Member Posts: 3,178 Member
    #2
    Praying
    Hi Beth,
    I'm so sorry! I'll keep Pogo in my prayers! I understand what your saying about the high cost of Vet bills. My sons cat Danny was sick for 2 weeks with a bladder infection and if he hadn't gotten better the surgery the Vet recommended would have cost $1,500.00. My son about had a heart attack when he heard the cost. Thank goodness the 2 different antibiotics and special cat food worked and Danny didn't have to get the surgery. Pogo(and you)are in my prayers!
    Love...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)
  • Chris17
    Chris17 Member Posts: 175
    #3
    allmost60 said:

    Praying
    Hi Beth,
    I'm so sorry! I'll keep Pogo in my prayers! I understand what your saying about the high cost of Vet bills. My sons cat Danny was sick for 2 weeks with a bladder infection and if he hadn't gotten better the surgery the Vet recommended would have cost $1,500.00. My son about had a heart attack when he heard the cost. Thank goodness the 2 different antibiotics and special cat food worked and Danny didn't have to get the surgery. Pogo(and you)are in my prayers!
    Love...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)

    understand your pain
    I totally understand why you are so upset, your pets are part of your family and they mean alot to you, i hate to see any animal hurting, it breaks my heart,im truly sorry to read about pogo, will pray that she gets better soon, having a pet is like having a child, they can be as expensive as one, hugs to you and pogo
    Chris(FNHL-stage3-4/08) remission
  • COBRA666
    COBRA666 Member Posts: 2,401 Member
    #4
    Pets
    Beth,
    I know what you mean about your pet. It doesn't matter what type of pet we have,they are all like part of the family. I am the same way and do not want to see any animal suffer. We are all they have to depend on. It would be so nice if they could talk and tell us where it hurt. Hopefully they will be able to do something to help her. I do know what you mean about the high prices of the vets. It is a shame they have to be so greedy with their prices,especially when they know an animal is in need of help and they are supposed to be there to help all animals. I will keep you in my thoughts. John(FNHL-1-4A-5/10)
  • miss maggie
    miss maggie Member Posts: 929
    #5
    Pogo
    I am so sorry for your pain. I have 2 cats now. Portia age 10, and Lucien age 2 But, years ago I had a dog named Pogo.
    He lived a long and happy life. When he passed away at 15, i felt my world had come to an end. Even though I had a husband, daughter, and parrot named Max, I was lost without Pogo.

    I will say a prayer for your Pogo. He will be in my thoughts, as you will.

    Maggie
  • dixiegirl
    dixiegirl Member Posts: 1,043 Member
    #6
    miss maggie said:

    Pogo
    I am so sorry for your pain. I have 2 cats now. Portia age 10, and Lucien age 2 But, years ago I had a dog named Pogo.
    He lived a long and happy life. When he passed away at 15, i felt my world had come to an end. Even though I had a husband, daughter, and parrot named Max, I was lost without Pogo.

    I will say a prayer for your Pogo. He will be in my thoughts, as you will.

    Maggie

    Thank you
    Thanks guys I need all the help I can get as well as prayers. When I called the vet last night she was resting well. She's drinking and eating a little bit. She still wasn't able to use her back legs. We'll see how she's doing later this morning.

    I had a rough time last night sleeping. She usually sleeps on top of me...all 87 pounds lol. Gidget my other dog is lost without her. My house is much too quiet without drama queen there.
  • onlytoday
    onlytoday Member Posts: 609 Member
    #7
    dixiegirl said:

    Thank you
    Thanks guys I need all the help I can get as well as prayers. When I called the vet last night she was resting well. She's drinking and eating a little bit. She still wasn't able to use her back legs. We'll see how she's doing later this morning.

    I had a rough time last night sleeping. She usually sleeps on top of me...all 87 pounds lol. Gidget my other dog is lost without her. My house is much too quiet without drama queen there.

    Pogo
    Hi,

    I'm praying for you, your family, and Pogo. Oh my, can I relate! Our little adopted mix "Max" is like our son. He has everything to do with my recovery from treatment as I walk this bumpy road. I am praying that today will show great improvement in Pogo's health. We're all with you!! Hugs.
  • onlytoday
    onlytoday Member Posts: 609 Member
    #8
    onlytoday said:

    Pogo
    Hi,

    I'm praying for you, your family, and Pogo. Oh my, can I relate! Our little adopted mix "Max" is like our son. He has everything to do with my recovery from treatment as I walk this bumpy road. I am praying that today will show great improvement in Pogo's health. We're all with you!! Hugs.

    Max
    My Max is actually in my picture.(Hard to see) He's in the kayak with me. Hates water but LoVES to go in the kayak. :)
  • COBRA666
    COBRA666 Member Posts: 2,401 Member
    #9
    dixiegirl said:

    Thank you
    Thanks guys I need all the help I can get as well as prayers. When I called the vet last night she was resting well. She's drinking and eating a little bit. She still wasn't able to use her back legs. We'll see how she's doing later this morning.

    I had a rough time last night sleeping. She usually sleeps on top of me...all 87 pounds lol. Gidget my other dog is lost without her. My house is much too quiet without drama queen there.

    PETS
    Beth,
    I have 4 dogs that like I said in another post to you are just like our kids. 2 hotdogs and a mixed Burmise mountain dog and another one that I believe is mixed coyote ,but the easiest going of all of them. They are all spoiled rotten. They are not happy till they can pile up in the bed. Thats their favorite time of the day. They are like little kids and I would miss any one of them. John(FNHL-1-4A-5/10)
  • vinny59
    vinny59 Member Posts: 1,036 Member
    #10
    baby
    OMG my heart goes out to you and your dog, I have a 13 yr Golden retriever and he is losing his legs constantly, I try to be realistic and say he is 91 yrs. old, but I shutter the thought of putting him down......... all my prayers your way Vinny
  • dixiegirl
    dixiegirl Member Posts: 1,043 Member
    #11
    vinny59 said:

    baby
    OMG my heart goes out to you and your dog, I have a 13 yr Golden retriever and he is losing his legs constantly, I try to be realistic and say he is 91 yrs. old, but I shutter the thought of putting him down......... all my prayers your way Vinny

    She's no better
    They tested her this morning and she has no feeling in her back legs at all. I am going to leave work at 2 and we're going to go say our goodbyes to her.

    I hurt.
  • allmost60
    allmost60 Member Posts: 3,178 Member
    #12
    dixiegirl said:

    She's no better
    They tested her this morning and she has no feeling in her back legs at all. I am going to leave work at 2 and we're going to go say our goodbyes to her.

    I hurt.

    Oh my!
    Hi Beth,
    I am truely so sorry that Pogo didn't respond as we all had wished for! My heart hurts for you as this will be a very hard day ahead. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Pogo...come back and let it all out if you need too...we will be here for you sweetie!
    All my love and sympathy to you Beth..Sue :(
    ((((( xxxx)))))) hugs and kisses!
  • miss maggie
    miss maggie Member Posts: 929
    #13
    dixiegirl said:

    She's no better
    They tested her this morning and she has no feeling in her back legs at all. I am going to leave work at 2 and we're going to go say our goodbyes to her.

    I hurt.

    Pogo
    Oh no. I am so very, very sorry. I write this with tears in my eyes. Our pets are our family. I have been where you are now, and it never gets any easier. At least you will be with Pogo when she closes her eyes. You gave her a good life and did the best you could. That's all any of us can do.

    We have a beautiful animal cemetary where I live. I have 3 pets buried there. The rest were cremated and are with us forever in our home. Each urn has their picture. I have so many good memories.

    Love and sadness. Maggie
  • onlytoday
    onlytoday Member Posts: 609 Member
    #14
    dixiegirl said:

    She's no better
    They tested her this morning and she has no feeling in her back legs at all. I am going to leave work at 2 and we're going to go say our goodbyes to her.

    I hurt.

    Saying goodbye
    I am so sorry to hear of your loss; my heart hurts for you. My prayers are with you.
  • COBRA666
    COBRA666 Member Posts: 2,401 Member
    #15
    dixiegirl said:

    She's no better
    They tested her this morning and she has no feeling in her back legs at all. I am going to leave work at 2 and we're going to go say our goodbyes to her.

    I hurt.

    So Sorry
    Beth,
    I know exactly how you feel. We have had everything from ferrets,cats and dogs and everything in between as pets. It doesn't matter,they are all part of the family and it is no easier no matter which one has to leave us. I truely feel for you. John(FNHL-1-4A-5/10)
  • allmost60
    allmost60 Member Posts: 3,178 Member
    #16
    dixiegirl said:

    She's no better
    They tested her this morning and she has no feeling in her back legs at all. I am going to leave work at 2 and we're going to go say our goodbyes to her.

    I hurt.

    How are you doing?
    Hi Beth,
    Just checking in to see how things went for you. Been thinking about you since you posted this. Saying prayers of comfort for you.
    Love...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)
  • miss maggie
    miss maggie Member Posts: 929
    #17
    allmost60 said:

    How are you doing?
    Hi Beth,
    Just checking in to see how things went for you. Been thinking about you since you posted this. Saying prayers of comfort for you.
    Love...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)

    POGO
    I can understand not hearing from dixie girl. I locked myself in my home for almost 1 week. I also didn't take any phone calls.

    Maggie
  • yesyes2
    yesyes2 Member Posts: 591
    #18
    miss maggie said:

    POGO
    I can understand not hearing from dixie girl. I locked myself in my home for almost 1 week. I also didn't take any phone calls.

    Maggie

    Pogo
    Oh I am so very sorry for your lose of your beloved Pogo. Our pets are part of our family, a very important part, and losing them is so very difficult. All I can do is send you love and healing wishes. Please let us know how you are doing.
    Leslie
  • truckingalong
    truckingalong Member Posts: 445 Member
    #19
    yesyes2 said:

    Pogo
    Oh I am so very sorry for your lose of your beloved Pogo. Our pets are part of our family, a very important part, and losing them is so very difficult. All I can do is send you love and healing wishes. Please let us know how you are doing.
    Leslie

    My thoughts are with you
    Beth,

    Here are my deepest condolences. May the sweet memories of Pogo strengthen you and hold you through. Please let us know how you all are doing and send us picture of Pogo.

    With prayers,
    Liz
  • Swtkoolaid
    Swtkoolaid Member Posts: 53
    #20
    truckingalong said:

    My thoughts are with you
    Beth,

    Here are my deepest condolences. May the sweet memories of Pogo strengthen you and hold you through. Please let us know how you all are doing and send us picture of Pogo.

    With prayers,
    Liz

    Oh No
    Beth,

    I'm so sorry about your doggie... I know its hard, I've been through many and its never easy. They become part of our families, they become our children. My heart hurts for you. I hope that you will feel better soon... and find some comfort in your memories of Pogo.. take care my friend.

    with love and blessings,

    Andrea
  • dixiegirl
    dixiegirl Member Posts: 1,043 Member
    #21
    Swtkoolaid said:

    Oh No
    Beth,

    I'm so sorry about your doggie... I know its hard, I've been through many and its never easy. They become part of our families, they become our children. My heart hurts for you. I hope that you will feel better soon... and find some comfort in your memories of Pogo.. take care my friend.

    with love and blessings,

    Andrea

    Pogo is home tonight
    Pogo's home where she belongs. Aley brought her ashes home today for me. Since she was so protective of our front porch and garden I think I am going to make a spot for her next to a pretty rose bush. Maybe a stone with her name. That way I can still talk to her while I play in the dirt. :)

    Thanks guys for letting me vent here. I will try to find the picture of her in my lap while I was going through chemo...we were both in a simple wooden rocking chair at the time and we didn't fit well LOL.

    Peaceful healing to all of us

    Beth

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