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Beckymarie said:

It has been three months
It has been three months since my husband passed. I too HATE the weekends. We were a very active couple and now I don't know what to do with myself. I have three grown children but don't want to become their weekend project. Lack of sleep is a real problem for me. I don't want to rely on sleeping pills but without them I am lucky to get 4hrs a night. I can relate to what you say about following Doug to the grave. I too wish I could just be with Terry.
I guess all we can do is put one foot in front of the other and hope some day it won't hurt quite so much.
Peace Becky

Easier
Welcome Becky, to this board. There are many here who can understand your feelings. It has been about ten and a half months for me. I can look back and know that being alone does get easier. The ache is still there, but I deal better these days. That doesn't mean that I don't think of my Doug often or that I don't tear up regularly. I do. I still feel like something is missing much of the time. Yet I am moving forward. I can celebrate a grandchild's birthday without excusing myself to get a grip. I am doing things that are outside my comfort zone. I am trying to be brave and succeeding most of the time. Yes, sometimes, often when I least expect it, something will bring a memory back and I'll lose it. That is happening less often now, but it still happens. I am lucky to be surrounded by family and friends who accept that. You're right, grief is a process. Take your time. Do what is right for you. I have no doubt that you are one more amazing person for our group.