one year later

carkris
carkris Member Posts: 4,553 Member
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
For all of you struggling, just wanted to add my story. (thanks to Pitt and margo).
I was diagnosed May 2009, right before my daughter's HS graduation. the party and all was a struggle mentally, then the surgery which I got through fine. the pathology was not as hoped or thought, so went on to chemo. A year ago this month I started chemo, was really ill, got my period too(last one I ever had) with a severe migraine. (worst one I ever had). finally able to raise my head off the couch, went to a party at this place we go to. could not eat, (afraid also it would trigger the big D) continued with chemo, it was bad for me, lost 80 pounds, (thin now fat then) developed a rectal fissure(severe pain bed ridden, debiltitated) yada yada. posted a few notes on my struggles, very low this place really held me up. crawled across the finish line, slowly getting better, little backstep with zometa, did fine through rads. ANYWAY, last night went to same annual party, ate the meal, danced (even though my feet are still somewhat numb) and had a great time. People told me or my husband that I "looked so happy" I felt relaxed, and happy and I wanted to savor it. I felt "good" people compliment me on my hair (I really dont like it, but I'll take any compliment I can get) I made a point of going to the party because it was a reminder to myself of one year ago and how far I have come. I really had fun. The reason I gave such a long explanation of my travails(left out the dehydration. hospitalization, fever etc..) is to tell you it gets better. even though I dont know the future, i am so happy to be in my present. I did it and so can you , then you will be dancing too! and since i havent heard from my onc(he said he would call if my blood was off) I tentatively assume I am dancing with NED, (no boobs to mammo). so you sahred with me last night. Love you all, you and my family and friends have been my anchor!!!!!

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  • carkris
    carkris Member Posts: 4,553 Member
    sorry shared Ned with me
    sorry shared Ned with me last night. I meant.
  • missrenee
    missrenee Member Posts: 2,136 Member
    carkris said:

    sorry shared Ned with me
    sorry shared Ned with me last night. I meant.

    Carkris thank you for taking the time to tell your story--
    it gives us all much hope and the determination to carry on. I just finished chemo in May and rads 3 weeks ago. I'm sore, swollen, have my blue days, chubby, and have an awful hairstyle. Reading posts like this help me to know that IT WILL GET BETTER, I will have pretty hair again, I'll lose some weight, I'll have more sunny days than blue and I will go on.

    Thank you.

    Hugs, Renee
  • smalldoggroomer
    smalldoggroomer Member Posts: 1,184
    Thank you so much for your
    Thank you so much for your story. I love hearing how things turn out well. I am in the middle of chemo, still have surgery and rads to go through. I am hoping I don't get to burnt or sore with the rads. But just knowing there is a light at the end of the tunnel helps me allot. I am so sorry that you had such a bad time. But I am happy that you was strong enough to get through it. None of us know how strong we are until there is no other option. You know the old saying when the going get tough the tough get going ( most of the time a woman ) Take care Kay
  • BlownAway60
    BlownAway60 Member Posts: 851
    Soooooooo Happy for you.
    We

    Soooooooo Happy for you.

    We did it didn't we in spite of "Big D".

    Sending lots of well deserved hugs.

    Donna
  • cahjah75
    cahjah75 Member Posts: 2,631
    Carkris thank you
    for sharing and putting a smile on my face. You faced the challenges of bc and came out a winner :-0 I'm so glad you enjoyed yourself and yes, take whatever compliments people give you. {{hugs}}
    Char
  • carkris
    carkris Member Posts: 4,553 Member
    cahjah75 said:

    Carkris thank you
    for sharing and putting a smile on my face. You faced the challenges of bc and came out a winner :-0 I'm so glad you enjoyed yourself and yes, take whatever compliments people give you. {{hugs}}
    Char

    thanks guys and yes donna
    thanks guys and yes donna and I were the big D sisters. look how beautiful she is!!!
  • BlownAway60
    BlownAway60 Member Posts: 851
    carkris said:

    thanks guys and yes donna
    thanks guys and yes donna and I were the big D sisters. look how beautiful she is!!!

    Awwwwwwwww Thanks. Back at
    Awwwwwwwww Thanks. Back at you.

    Your candle reminds me of the song. "This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine". I still remember when we all lit our candles.

    Hugs

    Donna
  • sea60
    sea60 Member Posts: 2,613

    Awwwwwwwww Thanks. Back at
    Awwwwwwwww Thanks. Back at you.

    Your candle reminds me of the song. "This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine". I still remember when we all lit our candles.

    Hugs

    Donna

    So glad you enjoyed yourself!
    You've come a long way baby!!

    Congrats :D

    Sylvia
  • New Flower
    New Flower Member Posts: 4,294
    sea60 said:

    So glad you enjoyed yourself!
    You've come a long way baby!!

    Congrats :D

    Sylvia

    Penny
    Congratulations! It has been a long journey and you won the battle! and yes you have been dancing, smiling, and having a good time!
    Hugs,
    New Flower