Here I am with egg on my face

All the doc did is talk about my game plan and tell me that they have not given up on me yet. In fact, they already have 3 or 4 different trials they want to try out on me but there is a very long waiting list for some of them. The one they want to start on is xeloda pills and a targeted therapy to compliment it but is a blind study which means some patients will get the targeted therapy and some will get a placebo but we will all get the xeloda. I've already had 5fu and that is basically what the pill is but the clinic doctors say it is more potent than the iv drip and absorbs into the cells better. I don't know how that works but I am just a civilian. Call me the unfrozen caveman cancer patient. The treatment my doc thinks is the most promising has a long waiting list so we cannot do it now. It is called heat shock therapy. I'm not sure exactly how it works (after all I am just an unfrozen caveman cancer patient.) but it is somehow supposed to mess with the heat level in the cancer cells environment and shut them down so they do not progress. He said he has seen a lot of success from that treatment as far as halting progression of disease.
Don't worry, the other Eric never left. I am still a warrior and always will be. I may get off track from time to time but i am still here to give a needed kick in the butt or a shoulder to lean on. It's nice to have this forum and the quality of people on it. Cancer can be a very lonely disease even when you are surrounded by loved ones.
Jen - I will say it once again. I am so impressed with how far you have come. You were a mess when you came here and now you are one of the toughest people on this board. I like that spunky attitude. You need your own Nick name like one that a wrestler or a cage fighter would have.