The elephant in the room.....

KathiM
KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Ok, I'll admit it, you strong warriors who are facing the beast again have rocked my world a bit...

I have been out of sorts for a week or so, and I couldn't figure it out...yesterday was the 'aha'! My hip has been bothering me, and I've been ignoring it...finally said something to my beau. He said (in his most doctorly fashion) 'Where does it hurt, and for how long, ma'am?' He then pushed where the pain was, and said "It's muscle, not bone". To which, I shed a few tears...and realized that I was thinking bone mets....

My point? I will more than likely live my life out with a bit of a shadow of the beast following behind me. Hopefully, never any closer than following. BUT, and here it is, YOU brave warriors have kept me vigilant! I know, it's not much in light of what you are facing, but I will forever hold you all dear in my heart for reminding me to stay aware!!!!!! And, when and if I find myself once again facing the beast, my goal is to accept the challenge in as strong and caring and beautiful and gracious a fashion as you all have...

And then beat the tar out of it!!!!!

Hugs to you all, you ARE my true inspiration!!!

Hugs, Kathi

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  • Katz77
    Katz77 Member Posts: 598
    #2
    Shadowing beast
    Very well put Kathi. I was thinking the same thing this weekend. Will I be vigiliant? You betcha. I've always had a bad habit of "walking it off." Not anymore. This diease is unrelenting and has to be watched at all times. Kudos to all the brave warriors on this site. Katz
  • sea60
    sea60 Member Posts: 2,613
    #3
    Katz77 said:

    Shadowing beast
    Very well put Kathi. I was thinking the same thing this weekend. Will I be vigiliant? You betcha. I've always had a bad habit of "walking it off." Not anymore. This diease is unrelenting and has to be watched at all times. Kudos to all the brave warriors on this site. Katz

    So well said Kathi & Katz
    Ditto every word you guys said with an exclamation point!

    That's just one facet of many that this site offers, and that's keeping everyone aware.

    Blessings and thanks to all,

    Sylvia
  • Scotch Freckles
    Scotch Freckles Member Posts: 273 Member
    #4
    elephant shadow
    That elephant is always shadowing me. I barley made it to my 4th chemo after what I went through with the 3rd one. I dont' know if I would do it all again. I know my husband couldn't make it without me, but what about me? Do I always have to be the one who is strong and gets through everything regardless what it is?
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
    #5
    Scotch Freckles said:

    elephant shadow
    That elephant is always shadowing me. I barley made it to my 4th chemo after what I went through with the 3rd one. I dont' know if I would do it all again. I know my husband couldn't make it without me, but what about me? Do I always have to be the one who is strong and gets through everything regardless what it is?

    shadow of this UGLY elephant have been haunting me
    for a few weeks now. It's my reality - breast cancer is with me forever. I guess I was naive to think that I am safe from all things bad.

    Just when I thought it was safe to go into the water of life. This is the time now that I lend on someone other than myself or doctors - he has a plan for me and my life. And I have the support of this wonderful supportive group of women - called sister in PINK.


    Vicki Sam
  • KayNYC
    KayNYC Member Posts: 495 Member
    #6
    accepted ownership of the elephant
    I have accepted ownership of my Pink "elephant in the room" and will provide it with a pretty gold chain and pink collar. She is a beast of burden but I am woman enough to be her handler. I will remain vigilant and watchful and make accommodations as needed to live a life worth living. That's my perspective anyway.
    Hugs, K
  • jo jo
    jo jo Member Posts: 1,175 Member
    #7
    WOW Kathi and Katz...couldnt
    WOW Kathi and Katz...couldnt of said it better!!!
  • camsgram
    camsgram Member Posts: 106
    #8
    jo jo said:

    WOW Kathi and Katz...couldnt
    WOW Kathi and Katz...couldnt of said it better!!!

    Cant top any od your words
    Cant top any od your words but yes I feel the same way. It seems like everything I do anymore I relate to recovery and reaccurance. I guess I really needed some lifestyle changes!!! You are all my heros
  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159 Member
    #9
    Elephant in the room? You
    Elephant in the room? You know, Kathi~ you are making it increasingly more difficult for me to continue my Ostrich Therapy with the possiblity of an elephant stepping on my behind while I have my head stuck in the sand! LOL

    YEARS ago a friend of mine made the agonizing decison to terminate her pregnancy~ and after that, she said all she saw anywhere were "abortion is murder" bumper stickers, and TV shows about adoption or happy growing families. She was so distraught! But then she also realized those shows/stickers always existed. They just didn't personally apply to her until then!

    It seems similar to me with mets, recurrance right now. Almost as if this is Cancer Season. For 7 years the posts about mets and recurrance didn't apply to me physically, though they certainly did emotionally. But in the past month, all I see around me is mets! Rather like my friend who had the abortion.

    I know you cried Kathi and that you are "troubled." I don't even want to say that I hope it is nothing~ of course I hope that! Let the damned Beast follow you; and may you always stay a step ahead of it!

    Hugs,
    Chen♥
  • Scotch Freckles
    Scotch Freckles Member Posts: 273 Member
    #10
    chenheart said:

    Elephant in the room? You
    Elephant in the room? You know, Kathi~ you are making it increasingly more difficult for me to continue my Ostrich Therapy with the possiblity of an elephant stepping on my behind while I have my head stuck in the sand! LOL

    YEARS ago a friend of mine made the agonizing decison to terminate her pregnancy~ and after that, she said all she saw anywhere were "abortion is murder" bumper stickers, and TV shows about adoption or happy growing families. She was so distraught! But then she also realized those shows/stickers always existed. They just didn't personally apply to her until then!

    It seems similar to me with mets, recurrance right now. Almost as if this is Cancer Season. For 7 years the posts about mets and recurrance didn't apply to me physically, though they certainly did emotionally. But in the past month, all I see around me is mets! Rather like my friend who had the abortion.

    I know you cried Kathi and that you are "troubled." I don't even want to say that I hope it is nothing~ of course I hope that! Let the damned Beast follow you; and may you always stay a step ahead of it!

    Hugs,
    Chen♥

    Elephants vs. Ostric
    Now Chen Dear,

    I would really be causious of being an Ostric with an Elephant around. Elephants are very good at not steping on things, but I don't know about that trunk. HAAHAHHAAHAH
  • Miss Murphy
    Miss Murphy Member Posts: 302
    #11
    Scotch Freckles said:

    Elephants vs. Ostric
    Now Chen Dear,

    I would really be causious of being an Ostric with an Elephant around. Elephants are very good at not steping on things, but I don't know about that trunk. HAAHAHHAAHAH

    Animals
    I always feel the pink elephant in the room with me - even after two and a half years out from my dx. But, gee, it sure would be nice to be a pink ostrich sometimes!

    One day at a time, ladies. We will survive! Hugs, Sally
  • m_azingrace
    m_azingrace Member Posts: 399
    #12
    Miss Murphy said:

    Animals
    I always feel the pink elephant in the room with me - even after two and a half years out from my dx. But, gee, it sure would be nice to be a pink ostrich sometimes!

    One day at a time, ladies. We will survive! Hugs, Sally

    Pink or Grey...
    elephants poop. Sometimes we have to step in it, and it stinks. However, I am so thankful for this site, and all my dear sisters. When I start getting down, and feeling like my elephant has pooped right on me, I come here, and my spirits are lifted. And I remember that God has blessed me beyond measure my whole life, and even now with this disease, He continues to shower His love on me. Hugs and blessings to you all. Gracie
  • Skeezie
    Skeezie Member Posts: 586 Member
    #13
    m_azingrace said:

    Pink or Grey...
    elephants poop. Sometimes we have to step in it, and it stinks. However, I am so thankful for this site, and all my dear sisters. When I start getting down, and feeling like my elephant has pooped right on me, I come here, and my spirits are lifted. And I remember that God has blessed me beyond measure my whole life, and even now with this disease, He continues to shower His love on me. Hugs and blessings to you all. Gracie

    Wow, you ladies are very thoughtful and so cleverly put...
    Kathi has really hit the nail on the head...but so has everyone else. You've actually made me feel better cause that big old pink thingy has been pushing me around too. At least in my head.

    And Kathi I love how you refer to my "beau". It sounds so sweet and loving.

    Thanks for the uplifting thread all.

    Hugs, Judy :-)

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