I should be happy & grateful...shouldn't I??

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  • lolad
    lolad Member Posts: 670
    #22
    chenheart said:

    Kathi...as much as I love
    Kathi...as much as I love you ( and I truly do!) I also know that you are 9 hours ahead of me...and that you are up late and rise early! Thank you for your sweet words; I fear nonetheless that it is delirium talking! I hope that you at least take afternoon naps! LOL

    Really...Reggie and I are special when I think about it!

    hugs,
    Chen

    Pinkpower
    I have heard more
    Pinkpower
    I have heard more and more about us fighters and being on an emotional roller coaster. I thought i was the only one who told myself that i would be strong through all this, but i have been told by every survivor or the ones still fighting they felt the same way. You are so blessed to have a husband that takes care of you and is there for you. Dont feel bad, if he didnt want to do it he wouldnt. And you didnt know this was going to happen. I cried for my kids. I emotionally broke down on myself thinking i would never see the light again. All the treatments that are thrown at us and the lifestyles we have to change for ourselves is hard. I felt angry and sad and pitty. I cried alot when i finally realized i had to grieve. Its a part of our healing and fighting. If you hold it in and act like super women, it will take alot longer to heal. Its just so shocking that so many women feel alone even if they do have wonderful outside support. I didnt have much outside, mainly my three young kids. But i found this place and am ever so blessed that i did. And about the weight gain, oh girl, ive gained almost 30 back. But im alive, im a survivor and proud. My hair has grown so fast too. Just hang in there. You are in my prayers.

    Hugs
    Laura
  • MNLynn
    MNLynn Member Posts: 224
    #23
    emotional times . . .
    I can identify somewhat with where you are . . . I was lucky enough not to get chemo . . . had mastectomy, ALND (both in Feb '10) & radiation (Apr - May). Now am starting on Arimidex. I don't know if a day has gone by without tears at one time or another. Sometimes I wonder . . . should I tell myself to stop this emotional crying or just let it happen. I can pretty hold it all together when I'm around people, but - alone, sometimes it just hits me. But, I tell myself - "look at what this past year has brought into your life . . . things you never would have imagined in your worst nightmare". I really think we do have the right to cry . . . and, even my super supportive family probably wouldn't understand totally why these emotions stay with me . . . but everyone here does understand that.
  • Double Whammy
    Double Whammy Member Posts: 2,832 Member
    #24
    Thank God for this site
    Regardless of the amount of support from loved ones we each have or don't have, no one can support us as well as each other - because we understand. Our relationships with our significant others has changed because life has changed for ourselves and everyone else who is part of our lives. I find being honest and expressing my needs to my husband has worked best for me. We all need different things in our relationships. There isn't a recipe.

    Happy and grateful? Yes, there are things to be happy and grateful for and I think it helps to focus on them. I don't think that having cancer and going through treatments is one of them, tho. It just plain sucks.

    Remember, Pinkpower, and everyone of us who is struggling with these issues, we're all here to listen and vent and help each other no matter what part of this journey we struggle with.

    Suzanne

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