lost my love, my life

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  • grandmafay
    grandmafay Member Posts: 1,633 Member
    #42
    closs86 said:

    keep trying
    Hi Haley
    I can't even imagine having to help a child feeling like I do, it must be so very hard for you, you have to give the antidepressents a chance, they can take up to 6 weeks to start taking effect, and if they don't help they have different kinds that will help, it is hard to deal with the anger when you are alone, Is your daughter talking to anyone, any counselors or friends that she can let it out to. Work is good, I never thought I would hear myself say those words, but I am happy that I am working, I almost retired a few months before Johnny got sick, it is a good thing that I didn't, it helps keep your mind busy for a couple hours a day. This is so hard for us, they left us here to deal with this pain, I just don't know why. I was with some of our friends today, I was worried that it would be to much for me, his best friend since they were teens, but once we sat and talked I was happy that I went. One day at a time, when I don't want to face or do something and I push myself I am usually happy that I did, I am finding that out.
    Hope you have a good day today
    Peace in our hearts and minds
    Karen

    Hi
    Double post.
  • closs86
    closs86 Member Posts: 85
    #43
    grandmafay said:

    Hi
    Hi, just wanted you to know that I am still here and still reading. I still don't have any words of wisdom. Just feelings to share Fay

    Hi Fay
    Hi
    good to hear from you, Having a lot of ups and downs today, yesterday was with Johns friends and did ok, but i think it came out today in my emotions, I woke up in a o k mood, had to make some phone calls to his union and social security, got a little frustrated with the wait, and got a full blown anxiety attack, had to take med, and relax for a while. then tonight I my son called and I broke down, and he got upset, I was so sorry that i upset him. I really hope that i wake up tomorrow in a better way, because today was awful.
    Take care
    Karen
  • grandmafay
    grandmafay Member Posts: 1,633 Member
    #44
    closs86 said:

    Hi Fay
    Hi
    good to hear from you, Having a lot of ups and downs today, yesterday was with Johns friends and did ok, but i think it came out today in my emotions, I woke up in a o k mood, had to make some phone calls to his union and social security, got a little frustrated with the wait, and got a full blown anxiety attack, had to take med, and relax for a while. then tonight I my son called and I broke down, and he got upset, I was so sorry that i upset him. I really hope that i wake up tomorrow in a better way, because today was awful.
    Take care
    Karen

    Bad Day
    I hope today is a better day. Sometimes I have those bad days and don't know why. Other days I'll get part way through the day and it will suddenly hit me why I feel so down. It is usually the little things that upset me. I think many of us here on these boards are going to have good days and bad days for some time. Our sons worry about us. Mine have always been a little protective. They are really good about sharing their feelings and don't get upset when I am down. They also seem to anticipate some of the hard days, like the 20th of each month, and give me a call or email. They don't totally understand what it is like for me to be alone after 42 years, but at least they try. I really appreciate that. It is also great that they both seem to be looking forward to our trip. Both have somewhat stressful jobs, so it will be good for them to get away. Blessings, Fay
  • closs86
    closs86 Member Posts: 85
    #45
    grandmafay said:

    Bad Day
    I hope today is a better day. Sometimes I have those bad days and don't know why. Other days I'll get part way through the day and it will suddenly hit me why I feel so down. It is usually the little things that upset me. I think many of us here on these boards are going to have good days and bad days for some time. Our sons worry about us. Mine have always been a little protective. They are really good about sharing their feelings and don't get upset when I am down. They also seem to anticipate some of the hard days, like the 20th of each month, and give me a call or email. They don't totally understand what it is like for me to be alone after 42 years, but at least they try. I really appreciate that. It is also great that they both seem to be looking forward to our trip. Both have somewhat stressful jobs, so it will be good for them to get away. Blessings, Fay

    Better today
    Hi
    Thank goodness I woke up feeling much better today, you are like me married a long time, like you say my sons are very good, and there for me, but they don't really understand what it means for me to be without him. I think it is wonderful that you are going on a trip with them, my husbands birthday is sunday, so we are all going to be together at my sons house, with the grandchildren, I hope that it is not going to be to emotional for all of us. I have to work tomorrow so that is good, I won't be home until 7 by the time I eat and take care of the dogs it is bedtime. I wish you all peace in your heart, and hope tomorrow will be a good day for all of us.
    God Bless
    Hugs
    Karen
  • nempark
    nempark Member Posts: 681
    #46
    Karen you will survive
    Karen, I too was married for 43 years. My husband is still with me. Karen your husband is at peace the Bible says that when a person dies he is concious of nothing, no pain. So I do hope this will be of some comfort to you. Also there is a promise that we will see our dead loved ones again. So my dear Karen, This is a part of life we have to deal with and althoug it may take some time, and its okay to grieve, you will be surprised how well you will be able to cope. Karen life goes on and I know you are going to miss him terrible, but you will also have to carry on. Take care of your self and keep in touch with us. I feel your pain and send you comfort and hugs. June
  • closs86
    closs86 Member Posts: 85
    #47
    nempark said:

    Karen you will survive
    Karen, I too was married for 43 years. My husband is still with me. Karen your husband is at peace the Bible says that when a person dies he is concious of nothing, no pain. So I do hope this will be of some comfort to you. Also there is a promise that we will see our dead loved ones again. So my dear Karen, This is a part of life we have to deal with and althoug it may take some time, and its okay to grieve, you will be surprised how well you will be able to cope. Karen life goes on and I know you are going to miss him terrible, but you will also have to carry on. Take care of your self and keep in touch with us. I feel your pain and send you comfort and hugs. June

    Thanks
    Hi June
    Thanks for the comforting words, I do know that he is with me, I feel his presence all the time. I just miss him so much, I see that each day is passing, one into the other. I pray that we will be together again, I just wish I could hug him.
    Take care
    Karen

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